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MJ

2010-07-10T21:30:00.006+08:00

Visited MJ tdy at the dental clinic tdy. This is the first time im addressing him as MY FREN here cus he used to be my fellow jurong colleague 2 yrs back and never knew i cld still keep in touch wif him till tdy. So tdy its the first time i see him as a status of a patient/fren of his and its also his first time seeing my terrible set of blackly-stained teeth *groans*.
Mixture of the good and bad tdy. It was my first time hearing him call me his fren and keeps repeatedly saying..."xiao jie this...xiao jie tht...", "as a fren, xy i shld be telling u this...", "anytime can juz give me a call and come down to look for me for advice.."..alot of advices frm him...so all my previous dentists weren't tht honest wif me afterall. they juz wanna earn money. =s Theres alot of things to be done to the black stains i guess..looks harmless but actually not. Thanks to him cus he actually slot me in to his afternoon appt. he didnt even charge me a single cent tdy. Feels nice to haf a dentist fren afterall. But bad thing is tht he knows all the bad side of ur teeth.

Spain Vs Holland Final ! Cant wait ! =)

issues on philanderers

2010-03-12T15:23:00.003+08:00

Unfaithful men truly disgust many women nowadays.
From Chelsea's captain John Terry, to famous Golfer Tiger Woods, and to our homegrown famous director, Jack Neo.
Define nice men? and where are the nice men?
Sad to say, out of 10 men...maybe only 1 or 2 will think all these extra-marital acts are unforgivable. In fact, some men might be jealous as to why only 坏男人 eventually get the girls. Theres always a chinese saying here, 男人不坏，女人不爱。There's a limit to this statement like tis, U can always be the 坏男人, but pls dont get married and throw ur wives at home aside. Theres nth wrong being a 坏男人, but at least be responsible for ur own acts.

N now is back to my lab reports...Been trying to revise my Med Chem these few days but theres just too many to rmb and i've got less than 3 weeks to get them right. I muz get a distinction for tis module if not its going to further pull down my average score of 73.3 now. I need to be at least on the 75 mark there. Thts how stress i am now. *pouts*

3-8 women's day. first year. HFMD.

2010-03-11T15:11:00.003+08:00

8/3/10, they call it the 3-8 women's day for the chinese. It also marks me and my baby's first year anniversary. Was surprised tht he sent me a e-greeting card from overseas. coz i was expecting nth frm him...as usually, i rmb the date earlier than he does. For the second time in history, he remembered first. The msges written on the card was sweet. Im contented. He hasnt least forgotten abt me over there.
Aside from that, it was also a date i will not forget as doc suspected me getting HFMD. God knows what happened. I used to think tht it will never happen to me, but it did. Blisters in my throat, palm and feet. Luckily, the spots on the palm appear to be the mildest as i would not imagine how i can eat wif blisters on my palm. Im on one week of MC this week. Pls dont remind me hw im gonna face wif questions and scrutinizing frm my colleagues next week as i think i will juz shrug them off. Im missing out on alot of things tis week: my school lab expt 4, PT competency test, dance practice and the mummy exhibition which im supposed to go tis weekend. =(

At least i feel much okay tdy and thts a good sign.

I feel like theres a need for me to improve on my appearance now.

james aw yong

2010-02-18T23:04:00.003+08:00

http://uaretheman.mediacorptv.sg/

Look out for him in Channel U's show, 'U're the Man' and he's also one of the contestants for this yr (2010) Cleo's eligible bachelors. cutie =)

Kong Meng San Monastery

2010-01-01T22:02:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 6am in the morning getting ready to take a cab to Kong Meng San Monastery wif m family for their once-a-year alms giving. Finally the cereals and tea are ready to be given to each of the sangha. It was my first time going there and first time going thru the ritual. It was quite an eye-opener as the monastery is really big. First time having to see over 100 sanghas appearing right infront of me, and the Master sprinkling water on each of our heads for better health and good yr. Send my prayer to the Buddha before we took a cab home. It was abt 10am when we reached home. Still super early. Watched Doraemon movie on Channel 8 till 12noon. Took nap until 4 plus and went Ghim Moh food centre to buy back home some otahs frm Lee Wee store when it was raining then, dunno why i haf strange craving at weird times. hehe. it was damn satisfying. I bought the Soya Milk too. Oh man, it juz taste so homemade. =))

Great start of the yr.

New Year Resolution

2009-12-31T20:47:00.002+08:00

XY wishes everyone GOOD HEALTH!

Dont neglect ur health. Treasure ur life and make everyday a happy day !

Im blogging again, thts great.

lets welcome the NEW.

2009-12-31T00:10:00.003+08:00

Its coming to an end of 2009 ! well guys, what haf u all done? and has the yr been an eventful yr or a lousy yr for u? im sure u all haf the ans of ur own and i haf mine ! for me, 2009 has been an ok yr for me, not so much of ups and downs compared to 2008. Sometimes tht can be a good thing as well. I think i haf gained more thru the yrs and became much mature in thinking. There are still certain things in life tht i wanna achieve and still in the midst of doing so. I hope i will continue to strive for tht goal. To study hard and work hard. Sometimes, i do admit tht i got tired of working bcoz of night classes, and also felt tht im not given enough opportunities and motivation in my current work now. Maybe bcoz i haf been there for quite long and some things became mundane and boring. Cant be as enthu as before. Need to reflect on tht really. For now, its just to Live for the moment ! 2009 is also a 'TGIFY' year (Thank God I Found You). someone shld know what tht meaning is all abt. =)

Whatever it is, lets welcome the BRAND NEW 2010 in just another day or so ! yays.
May all of us be surrounded wif love and happiness !! =)

HAPPY MERRY CHRISTMAS.

2009-12-25T22:50:00.003+08:00

Christmas eve dinner wif baby yesterday. Wrapped up the gift tht i had for him. Anyway, my wrapping skills tis time was bad enough. Its so tough to wrap a thick piece of folded silk fleece. Btw its a kind of a grey sweater wif lime green zip i bought it frm UniQlo. Went to Vivo city and almost queue-ing up to eat at Marche. Guess what, i backed off having tht idea after standing in the queue for barely 3mins. We went frm restaurants to restaurants then finally settled at 'Go India !', the restaurant served food frm North India (buffet style). The food is pretty nice, and really fulfilling. Spent only $30 each person. I think its worth it coz we felt so full the whole night. Baby and i sat there for 2 hrs and then sat down near the christmas tree outside Vivo. The view was so great and love the company of my baby. Hes so sweet and i like the christmas gift frm him, a necklace made of white gold. Hes really making effort wif my gift. Knowin his character, he hates shopping and still gave me sth like tht, its really commendable. Love his company. =) hope he really likes my gift too.

its been so long.

2009-12-19T21:23:00.003+08:00

Its been a long time since i last logged into my blogger account. Somehow i wish i can go back to those days when im always so enthu abt blogging. (partly bcoz life wasnt so busy and doesnt seem so mundane then...and also...the majority part is tht im feeling lazy and unmotivated now) im feeling abit nostalgic tdy..heard frm the news report tht queenstown food centre is going to tear down =( 30 over yrs of history...gone like tht. love the fishball mee and cha kuay teow there. i wonder what they are going to build next time. Im certainly gonna go down one of these days to eat my fav food there before they close down.

Just watched the final episode of 'Absolute Boyfriend' again. yes...i love tht drama! For me, I dont mind having a robot as a boyfriend providing he muz look like the robot in the show..hehe. But im already contented wif mine now. Anyways, im going to catch the Special for 'Absolute Boyfriend' again on Christmas Day night again. Bad bad ending but dont care, still going to watch and.....cry..the older i get, the more emotional i get when i watch tv dramas. and my sis says its bcoz i experience much more in life as i get older. so the older pp get, the more emotional pp get as we tend to relate those things to reality, understand better coz we put ourselves in their shoes. Shit, i hate growing up.

Lets talk abt sch now, yr 2 modules are really suckers. structural and physical chem exam suck to the core. felt really bad after the paper. Just hope tht they will moderate the grades. Taking Biochemistry now. One thing good is tht i enjoy the lab session very much coz its much more biology-based. Much more fun than Chem. Im so glad tht im not in Chemistry course ! Phew !~ I like my Biochem lab demonstrators, they are juz so friendly and they really helped me in my work ! heh. =)
Finally comes my 2 weeks holiday now! Festive season coming up as well. yayness. Lots of meetups wif friends and more time wif family. and last but not least, to catch up on my work.

Sun (20 Dec): Going hair salon and shopping for baby's christmas present.
Mon (21 Dec): Family dinner
Tues (22 Dec): Dinner wif Jeannie, Casey and Fizah.
Wed (23 Dec): Colleagues gathering wif Feai Zen
Thurs (24 Dec): Christmas Eve dinner wif baby
Fri (25 Dec): Family gathering
Sat (26th Dec): Movie wif Steph
Sun (27th Dec): Kbox wif sister

U see how busy i am? heh.
Oh, and not getting tht i still owe kc a date ! ahhh. *headache*

love sick?

2009-09-27T22:57:00.003+08:00

Class started yesterday. Physical chem already sound so yucky and my lecturer's frm Australia and God knows what hes trying to say during class. I bet most of them doesnt understand much what hes trying to mumble. and yes, he mumbles ALOT... =.= The way he talks stresses me! its tht bad. why cant we haf a better lecturer who can really speak clearer to us. My lab is starting and i haf no idea what is being expected in Year 2's lab. My mind cant think well now coz im having tis on off running nose and itchy throat. I hope tht doesnt affect my pharmacy presentation abt standard grooming on Tues. I seriously hope tht i dont screw up for such a short presentation. My presenting skills has returned back to my poly facilitators..I feel so sorry for them, but i will try my best to present it w/o cold feet.
And so, i met baby tdy for lunch near my hse. Im abit sick of eating ard his area..muz change abit of feng shui at times. haha. During lunch, we talked abt dining etiquettes tht his family has. I muz say im not a very gd example for good dining etiquettes coz my family(esp my dad) is sooo not very particular abt it. I wonder what will happen if both of our families were to come and eat together in the future. His dad and my dad..omg, cannot imagine and better not imagine. lol. After lunch, went over to his hse to rest...nap abit. Very lethargic and feeling sick most of the time. Thanks for his Nin Jiom herbal lozenges. It helps abit. Last but not least, I like his microgel pillow! heh..

mixed feelings.

2009-09-17T00:11:00.003+08:00

My dear boy juz got approved by the sch to go to CHINA next yr for industrial attachment. im so having mixed feelings abt him going away actually. its half a yr! it will be kind of sad if we cant celebrate alot of impt events tdy. Our first yr anni, Vday, CNY, our bdays which all happens to fall on the first half of the yr which is gonna be his attachment ! On the other hand, im very happy for him coz its great exposure for him coz it will definitely benefit him alot. Though he said he wld surely stay and cancel the China trip if tis particular company in Sg wants him. I dunno, the feeling of him going over is like...omg!! i cant describe tht...cant help worrying. well, Fate shall decide for us then.

Finally can haf full possession of my laptop now! Sis juz bought an acer netbook so shes not gonna snatch laptop or internet wif me ! =D but then, school's starting soon. i bet i wont haf much a time to online either. Starting school on the 26th, a Saturday again! Hate the idea of going back to sch on a Saturday..who likes it anyway. Taking Structural determination & Physical Chemistry next, Sounds boring and chim! cant really imagine tht im taking the Yr 2 modules alr. Almost cleared all the Yr 1 modules wif flying colors! Thank goodness.. Thanks dear and those peeps who haf helped me thru =) Hope to do well for the coming ones as more will come.

I have a work presentation on personal grooming standards coming up as well on the week of sch start. And die also cannot reject Huishan not to present. OK, give her face. haha anyhow whack! LOL! and, Im still owing MJ the drug list ! Hope i can finish up by tis week. Happy to help him but also lazy in the first place :P hahaha..

Great, I haf finally updated a decent one. =)

HOT. hot. HOT.

2009-08-23T00:12:00.003+08:00

Dinner & Dance 2009 had come to an end! pictures can be found in facebook! =P sorry kind of lazy to upload photos here, as u already can tell frm the times i log in to update my blog. Used to be so enthu abt blogging but now...Those were the times when u were young and haf more time to blog abt things. I hardly haf the time now.
I had some really wonderful time out wif my baby the past few mths. I like the fact tht he will plan for the future and his enthusiasm to meet me all the time. Something i cant find in other guys. im glad i found him =) (although i still dont like him to be TOO late when he meets me coz i need to wait for him haha. hope hes not reading tis. haha!) =)

Money matters drive me nuts recently.
Hope to settle all my financial stuff soon =)
I haven been going K since eons! i miss singing!

Lazybum in me.

The weather is SO hot. I hope its going to rain later.

wheres my pride!

2009-08-02T00:29:00.004+08:00

I really wonder where my pride has gone to. Maybe down to the drain or sth. Expected but kind of unexpected to get that kind of 'treatment' frm own superior. I regretted coming back to work yesterday even tho im still on MC. Moral of the story: Dont Geh-Kiang(means dont act-smart) in future. What Noora used to say to me is really true. I shld haf use the MC to rest at home coz im entitled to it. For people who know what happened, good for u as u know what im talking abt. So far only ranted it out on some of my colleagues, sis and bf. Dont feel like elaborating any further.

Went shop wif Ailing and Yanfei for Jeannie's pressie at Novena juz nw. We only decided on Part I. Still thinking of the Part 2 on what to give. I realized after shopping wif them, i have liking for all the very bright and luring colors like lime green for a jacket. thts me. but note tht the jacket isnt what we bought for her coz Yanfei thinks its TOO bright for Jeannie. I still dont think so?

Meeting Ie Wern and Enxuan in the afternoon to go ION Orchard. Going to pass Enxuan her belated pressie. Hope she will like it coz i personally like the pressie myself but too bad, i wont use it. heh.
Still feel not fully-recovered so might not be hanging out wif them for long. I NEED REST before someone 'complain'.

Sth random here, have i told anyone tht i love to mix and match my clothes in my own style. christine is one example, she has her own style in her writing and fashion. thts y i love reading her blog as a fren and as a blogfan. To put it simply, I believe tht if ure confident of what u do, then thts you. Dont afraid to show it.

Alright, thts all for now. Ciaos.

sick.

2009-07-30T21:30:00.002+08:00

Sick with 3 days MC.
cant use anything to describe the feeling but it feels oh-so-shitty.
darn it. tmr will be a better day yea.

new commitment.

2009-05-07T19:50:00.003+08:00

Next hiphop class is going to start on 11th May. Due to school commitment, i cant really join =( School is starting soon in June and hiphop is definitely going to clash wif it. Its kinda sad. Before tht, i alr decided myself to continue hiphop instead of taking up kickboxing. Everything seems so bleak now. I miss dance, the groove and my very-patient instructor, that is Derek. And i even told him tht i will most probably come back again but now i cant. Feels so bad =( AND I MISS DANCING!! sigh. *emo*

Our company's D&D is coming in AUG (theme: Musical and my branch is doing Sister Act most probably. sounds OFF =.=) and apparently the committee are scouting for people to dance tht day. Guess what, many people arrowed me. LOL! N even how much i wanted dancing, i can never imagine myself performing to the company. and im not too interested in tis yr's D&D actually coz there isnt much to see over there.

thousand yrs update. lol.

2009-05-05T22:05:00.003+08:00

I love my bf, my honeysweet. =)

tht shall be my one-liner update, after eons.

will update a long and proper again soon.

Ciaos!

stats exam.

2009-04-01T12:57:00.003+08:00

My stats exam is tmr! ironically, i cant wait for it to end seriously, but i still haf a stack of notes yet to read. omg, thts shitty enough ok and im caught blogging now instead of reading my notes. Lazy bug is acting on me. Stats is really boring subj and i so cannot relate myself wif formulas. I juz gotta do my best tmr. I hope i dont get too freaked out by the exam qns. God bless me! N my organic chem report is ready for collection anytime now. I so wanna see how i faired in total though i haf already got the distinction for tht. Still, i wanna know which part i didnt do well. Okay, time to go for lunch now. AND STUDY! no more distractions!

all i ever wanted.

2009-03-15T15:39:00.003+08:00

To motivate me to study harder, i've made a wishlist of what i wanna get. A Sony Ericsson T700i phone and probably a mini laptop. Bf been complaining tht my current phone lags all his long long msges(hes the one who actually discover tis theory), thus he hafta separate his msges into two so tht i dont receive them late. And also i haf the feeling tht my 6 year-old IBM laptop is gonna die on me anytime soon. On the other hand, all these adding up wld cost me alot of money. So, i shall start my B-plan real soon, time to save up!

love.

2009-03-09T16:26:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the lacking of updates, due to my hectic schedule.
Juz wanna squeeze in tis bit of time to say hello to my blog-readers/frens!
I dont even know who even still visits tis cobwebs-filled blog anymore. anyways, this blog will not be close definitely coz it contains alot of memories tht i wish to kept, bad or good. bad in a sense tht when i read abt it, i'll learn frm it and not let history repeats itself. good of coz needless for me to say. Though im busy, but i love my life now though work is still bleak, as usual. I wanna say i really cherish more of the time i spent wif the people ard me. Afterthis, im gonna go back to my assignment. Thank god, i finally got the mean integration qn right! Baby, u muz be damn proud of me ok. =)

8th march is a special date.
i felt the love once again.

=)

2009-01-18T01:24:00.003+08:00

Finally just completed my e-learning. Had hell alot of probs wif tht website earlier which drives my impatient mood to the max now. Luckily its all done. Next yr, will haf to do again. Its an annual thing tht we muz do to achieve our targeted training hrs. Been busy watching TV, bumming ard, snacking(thts y getting fatter), reading Twilight(which is soo damn addictive), and shopping. I seriously need to cut down on shopping for now coz i think i've overspent and the clothes juz keep accumulating and i dont haf any occasion to wear `em. heh, my fault *grin*

My new class time table juz came out on Friday. Im taking Statistics tis coming Feb-Apr. mygoodness its STATS, which i so cannot click wif. i'll be contented if i juz passed tht module. But i will still try my very best to study hard.

Had 'private dance lesson' wif Derek on Tues coz the rest of the students din turn up. Okay, so he taught me B-Boy(the basic floorwork) at his own pace and tht i cld catch up. He's really patient =) And i ended up having muscleaches all over the next morning. Coming tues will be my last hiphop lesson wif him. Sadly, i cant continue due to sch commitments. I will probably find some other course to do during the weekend instead, but not sure for now.

Spring cleaning for CNY later in the afternoon and im feeling lazyyyy.

2009-01-09T20:17:00.003+08:00

Who do you text the most?
- i seldom text people. well, unless they sms me and i reply.

Do you wish you had smaller feet?
- yep.

Has a rumor been spread about you?
- i dont think so at this moment.

Ever fallen for your best friend?
- i dont fall for best friends.

Would you rather give or recieve?
- receive. hahah.

Are you easy to get along with?
- depends who.

Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone?
- i dont care.

When you're walking, do you stop to drink?
- nope.

How old will you be in 15 months?
- twenty-three. wa, so old.

Are you in a complicated relationship?
- not at all.

Is there someone you know you should hate, but you can't?
- hate is too extreme. im not tht even tho i wan to.

Are you too forgiving?
- very.

Are you thinking about somebody right now?
- no.

Do you like your hair color?
- err, which one? lol.

Relationships or one night stands?
- relationships.

Do you kiss a lot of people?
- no.

Name the people who you talked to today?
- colleagues, dad and a receptionist juz now.

What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
- preparing to go for work.

Are you someone's best friend?
- yes.

Last person you talked to on the phone?
- a receptionist frm Refresh Bodyworks.

Do any of your family members have children?
- nope.

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
- twenty-three. *frowns*

Are you wearing make up?
- nope.

What colour are your nails?
- normal.

When was the last time you spoke to someone you don't like?
- today.

Has a boy/girl ever called you baby/sayang/love?
- yea. wad a qn.

Have you ever kissed on a boat?
- nope.

What are you wearing now?
- tee-shirt and shorts.

What bed did you sleep in last night?
- double-decker.

Have you held hands with anybody in the past week?
- no.

Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you're sure they won't tell?
- yep.

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
- yea. many times until it doesnt sound sincere anymore.

Do you want kids?
- not thinking.

Did you go out or stay in last night?
- stay in

Do you like to text or call more?
- text. most all replies.

What was the first thing you did this morning?
- pee.

Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
- yeah, the closer ones.

Do you know anyone who’s pregnant?
- not at the moment.

Have you ever had a really big fight with your siblings?
- not tht serious.

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone?
- not thinking.

Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?
- no. its weird.

Do you say sorry first?
- yes. if im really in the wrong.

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
- no.

What are your initials?
- TXY.

Who was your last text from?
- steph

Last time somebody hurt you physically?
- no.

Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to be doing?
- yeah.

Will you be in bed within twenty minutes?
- no, thts too early!

Would you rather be a fish or a bird?
- as free as a bird! =D

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
- i guess im abt the same.

In the past week have you cried?
- nope.

Is it easy for someone to make you smile?
- smile, not easy. laugh, VERY easy.

Meet anyone new this year?
- so far, no.

Have you ever told anyone you were OK when you really weren’t?
- alot of times!

Can a girl and a boy be best friends without having feelings for each other?
- yeah, why not.

Have you ever dated someone to get to someone else?
- tht sounds kinda despicable. never.

Church - T-pain

2009-01-09T00:01:00.007+08:00

The song playing now, Church by T-pain is one of my dance songs now. More reggae kind of moves. Quite a fun song to do accordin to Derek coz it requires more 'play' than technical work. Lovestoned by Justin Timberlake on the other hand is FAR TOO difficult. too many small moves to make in juz a few counts though those are cool moves, more guyish. Im so giving up on tht song, Lovestoned. Like what Derek told us, "Just play along, experience what the real dancers out there are doing". And he used to be in 'Styles frm Beyond' yrs back and now hes instructing his own students known as 'Flawless Detroit'. Cool, huh? =) Next week is another new song, remix of Canon in D. Wonder how it is like.

Tht day i cant believe im actually "checking out" my own dance instructor while having fries at macdonalds, without knowing thts him frm far. thts so uncool. =s

Happy 2009!

2009-01-02T23:30:00.003+08:00

Once again a Happy 2009 to all !
Nice new yr. Feels good to welcome the new.
2008 was full of drama for me. So whats upcomin now? I dunno. I juz hope things will get even better in the future for me. I wanna achieve balance in work, school and leisure in tis 2009. Its gonna be tough but will work on tht. Thts my main resolution tis yr.

Thanks to those who sent new yr msges. Few surprise msges frm people i haf not kept in touch for a long time. Know what, the first new yr greeting i got was frm Ben. So strange. hahas!

Muscle pain and headache all these while. No idea why. Probably stress? Too many things on hand to do already. I need body massage soon ! Leave coming on Monday. Shall go shop and cut my hair =)

Dai Yang Tian.

2008-12-27T00:06:00.003+08:00

credits from DYT's blog =)

chocolatey christmas !

2008-12-26T23:27:00.006+08:00

Hope u guys all had a fantastic christmas this season!
I had a good one coz things are going on smoothly at my side now. Not like how i was before sch starts. Thts one of the worse days i ever had, but its over now (im glad. =D) Sch is indeed therapeutic for me coz its the initially stage of helping me not to think so much coz half the time im thinking more of how to do well. Friends gatherings also helped though i still haf not met some grp of frens due to work and what else? WORK la. Muz find the time to this weekend. I hope tht two can make it. Pls do ! Japan holidays was another reason for me to relax further after the exams and the tour people i met are bunch of nice people, the kids too (are fun) =)
Finally spoken to Mr MJ online. Feels a little bit stressed talking to him online coz he types VERY fast. probably the first person i know who types tis fast! but its good, trains me to type faster. hahah! Christmas season is oh-so-nostalgic. Love the carols and songs played. Ironically, Im not christian but i dunno why i haf such strong connection to Christmas. Maybe its the good atmosphere surrounding, plus the chocolates i've received. Makes people feel happy!

Heres a pic of our recent pharmacy outing! Most of them are my bunch of 'funniest and loudest' ex-colleagues.

Most recently taken by Steph, before watching Twilight at TBP. Looking geeky again. N yes, fat legs too. =s

Japan pics still not up yet coz there are juz too many in my cam now tht im getting lazy to upload. Will hafta wait till im VERY free. Now im bombarded wif e-learning tht i haf no time for shoppings. Thts freaak ok. So be patient and, WAIT. =)
Next up wld be New Year! Cant wait ok! =)

kaolin. taste. horrible.

2008-12-22T16:46:00.001+08:00

Kaolin, taste, horrible. period.

edward babeh, be mine.

2008-12-22T16:12:00.008+08:00

Twillight is awesome!

The vampires, are simply irresistibly hot. The good ones (Cullens family) and even the bad one (James) looks so good wif their porcelain, fair skin. Flawless! Love the aura they distribute. Abit intimidating yet, Seductive. My sister exclaimed tht i muz haf been 'bitten', after i told her all tht i like abt them. Now thats the qn, Why vampires look so beautiful? or issit juz in TV or movies?

How i wish we have bf, like Edward Cullen. He juz raised the standards of a perfect boyfriend. Yes, i know tht only happens in storybooks and in movies. So i can dream on having one like tht. blah.

Love this part, most. So romantic, can.

Awwhh...<33 Edward!

cant get over JP!

2008-12-14T17:38:00.002+08:00

I miss the place.
I cant get over JP.
Miss having little cheapthrills over there. Ice cream on winter days are damn shiok.
Not forgetting the Japanese are wayy more polite in general too.

japan trip.

2008-12-13T23:54:00.004+08:00

Watashi wa back from Japan on Wednesday evening. We had quite a rush iternary through out the 7 days there at Osaka, Kyoto and Tokyo. From upon reaching the first morning over there at Osaka, Kansai airport. Shagged is the word coz sleeping on the plane is juz disturbing wif stiff neck, back and shoulder and have to wake up to haf drinks and breakfast. Changing into our wollen clothings as well thus we had only 4 hrs of sleep only. lol. but even though we had such a tight iternary, we did enjoy ourselves. Particularly, i love Kyoto. bcoz the place displays much of their culture and tradition. Wld love to go tht part of Japan again. Osaka was mainly at the Universal Studios. Dont really like it there much as compared to Tokyo Disneyland. Tokyo Disneyland is wayyy better than the one we went at HK. bigger, more attractions, games and rides. They even sell Curry and Chocolate popcorns, aside frm the usual caramel ones. Taste fantastic ! The rides there are freaking awesome. Those deciding to go Tokyo shld never miss out Disneyland. Tried hot spring as well. and dont be fooled by tv as they always put a towel on. the actual one shld haf nth on. I tried coz we were the only ones occupying the hotel tht night. My sis was too freaked to try so i went alone in and she waited outside. Kinda having difficulty wif this Jap lady inside assisting me how to start coz of language barrier. I haf hell of a hard time getting her to understand what i wan and what shes trying to tell me. =.=" the hot spring bath is HOT like burning. but relaxing there. I dont mind going in there the next time now tht i know how its like =) Bullet train is freaking 3times faster than our mrt here. So damn cool! Temperatures at Japan ranging frm 3-18 degrees celsius depending on the day itself. Freezing cold but cooling ! tho i hate it when it rains coz it seems like its not going to stop. My skin is peeling abit now. probably not enuff moisturizers put on my face. "oh great"!
Met a traumatizing incident over there at Tokyo. The tour grp brought us to a Shinjuku, known to be the red-light district at Tokyo. Was given some free time to walk ard by ourselves so me and sis walked along the pathway of the street until theres 3 tall and big Tokyo men wif black coats came and confronted us. First they kept bugging us wif ur Japanese language which we so dont understand what they were saying and showing us their so-called 'police officer cards'. Despite us shunning them, the more aggressive they reacted towards us until one of our tour grp members came and wanna help but cldnt really help much bcoz of the language prob again. Until at the point i told them in english i dont understand what they were saying and they asked where we came frm. They wanted us to show our passports to them. Of coz we wldnt wan to. My sis came up wif a terrific idea to 'scare' them off. Follow us to the bus and we'll show u. They left us alone. Phew. Scary. Wad a thing to happen over there ! So drama.

Still tryin to get used to the time here coz JP is one hr ahead of SG. it seems like i get sleepy at weird timing like 8plus pm. JP is always - sleep early and waking up early. As a result, my bio clock, screwed up. Its amazing how i can stay awake now to blog tis.

Will put up Japan photos when im free.
Will be presenting next week at pharmacy lunch time talk on antibiotics. I need some mental preparation what will be asked coz i chose the slides tht were done by one of my superiors. Wad luck man! Have to start my E-learning too but no motivation to start now. Crap.

Organic chem exam result shld be out anytime soon. *prays for gd news* oh pls.

Off to Japan!

2008-12-03T23:52:00.003+08:00

Im off to Japan tmr till 10th dec.
Still working full day tmr. ard 1 am flight. imagine how tired i will be. dontcare. i'll plugged the earphone listening to the music, hug the cushion and sleep on the plane.

Update when i come back =)
Advanced Happy Hari Raya Haji to all my frens ! Enjoy the long weekend ! =)

head over heels for him.

2008-12-03T19:30:00.003+08:00

Last night's hiphop class was quite interesting. Quite nervous at first bcoz the class is pretty small and my instructor is a male and hes very young for an instructor's age. but its hiphop, so cant expect him to be too old either. After some warming up, i finally got into the mood for the dance. Its girls choreography for the song 'Freakshow' by Britney Spears. Will haf to practice the choreography for 3 weeks then move on to another. Have tis urge to continue further bcoz i dont like to leave things half-done. Plus my instructor, Derek seems pretty nice. Haf to check wif my mum when shes not working. if tht doesnt fall on tht day, then i can continue coz if my mum's not working most likely its dinner night so no dancing for me =( SO mum's boss, pls cooperate laa! T_T

Happy 26th to MJ yesterday! I actually left him a friendster msg last night and he logged in tis morning to reply. Didnt expect his reply to be so prompt coz i checked back his last login on friendster was 1 week ago. lol. Anyway, still happy to see his reply before i leave for Japan tmr for a week =)

like freaaaking hot. and bored.

2008-11-29T23:25:00.004+08:00

Last night, did u go to sleep happy?
1) yeah. im always happy when it comes to sleeping.

2)When was the last time you changed clothes in front of someone?
few mths ago. btw, someone is a girl.

3)Anyone told you a secret this week?
none.

4) Did you have a good day yesterday?
quite relaxing in the afternoon.

5) What was the highlight of today?
packing of my luggage.

6) Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
yes. esp when im sleeping.

7) What happened at 3:00am today?
sleeping.

8) When was the last time you took a picture with your number 1 friend?
few mths ago.

10) Do you hate anyone?
no, hate is too extreme.

11) Do they know who they are?
wth u talking abt?

12) What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
biscuit.

13) When did you last cry?
few mths ago. worse days of my life.

14) Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
no.

15) Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
kinda.

17) When was the last time you bought something?
tis afternoon.

18) Have you ever told someone you love them?
yep.

19) Do you continue fighting in an argument even though you know you're wrong
if i know im in the wrong, i'll apologize.

21) Where are you right now?
living room.

22) Is there anyone that calls you baby?
not at the moment.

23) In the next 2 months what are you looking forward to the most?
surprises.

24) Why?
i love surprises.

25) Who were the last 5 texts in your inbox from?
Fizah, Bambang and Travis.

26) What are you thinking of right now?
tmr's schedule.

27) you partied? When and where was the last time
last yr. hahas.

30) Have you ever sat and waited for someone to come online?
yeah.

31) When was the last time you laughed so hard you thought you were going to cry?
cant rmb.

33) Did you tell someone something today?
i told many people many things today.

34) Do you like make-up?
yep!

35) Do you like dressing up?
yes. but there are days when i dont bother as well.

36) Have you ever considered a sex change?
nope.

38) What will you buy next?
covered shoes frm Clubmarc, luggage locks and winter hat.

32) Have any crazy family members?
nope.

39) Are you bored?
yes and thts why im doing tis.

40) What's on your mind right now?
tmr.

41) What are you wearing?
my pj

42) Any plans for today?
too late for any plans now.

44) What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
we are colleague.

45) What's your favorite Gatorade flavor?
haven tried.

46) What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
'Haha yea i'm happy to know that. Yup, we still have such a long way to go, let's be there for each other ok! Haha it's hard not to be sweet to a sweet lady :)' i still kept tis msg frm one of my bestie till now though it was sent in May =) real sweet of him!

48) What's beside you right now?
my handphone.

49) Where do you want to be right now?
nowhere.

50)what is it that you find so hard to forget..
sth depressing at tht moment which im not going to talk abt.

dancing.

2008-11-29T21:00:00.005+08:00

Im taking up tis trial hiphop dance coming this tues at dancecastle. location is good coz is not far frm my hse, juz 7 bus-stops away =) If i can take the trial lesson, i will be continuing the lesson. if not, then byebye. Hopefully, its not TOO difficult for me since i haf not been exercising my joints for a long time. N i hope there wont be MORE guys than girls in my class coz i find it very intimidating to dance in a class filled wif boys and hiphop somemore.

Weather recently is terrible. HOT, Freaking HOT! Isnt this supposed to be december soon and it shld be cooler? i dunno how i can tahan when i reached Japan, the extreme temperature change which im most sensitive to coz of my allergic rhinitis and 'chronic phlegm'. sheesh. Im flying off on thurs night.

Its all abt packing now and last min shopping. Heading down to get my covered shoes frm Clubmarc, winter hat and luggage locks tmr and almost done. Excited to get away frm here and work. but i know everytime when im taking the taxi to Changi airport, i'll start missing sg. Like crap. Once i board the plane, it will be back to normal coz theres too many things for me to focus on the plane. Music, Movies and Food. Haha! call me too easily being distracted. bah.

quizzes

2008-11-29T20:40:00.002+08:00

quiz time.

2008-11-23T18:16:00.004+08:00

Does your password have to do with a boy?
not even a single link to a boy.

What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?
having a good sense of humour. very impt.

Are you a girly girl?
people often think tht i am on first impression, but im not really into tht.

Small or big purses?
medium.

Do you stay friends with your ex?
yes.

Do you call anybody by their last name?
i dont rmb.

Do you wear makeup?
yes when i go out wif frens. not when im at work or sch.

Can you put on mascara without opening your mouth?
can.

Have you ever cooked food for a guy?
err, no.

Have you ever broken a guy's heart?
i think so.

Skirts or jeans?
skirts. definitely make my legs look longer. hah.

Socks or leggings?
none. actually, i hate to wear those.

Heels or shoes?
depending on the occasion. im okay for both =)

Straight or curly hair?
straight pls.

Hoops or normal earrings?
i dont keep ear holes.

Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes. always unforgettable.

Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
dark haired. black hair prefered, no dye or highlight pls.

Do you have a best friendz?
i haf quite afew of them =)

What do you think about the person you like?
hes awesome.

Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
never will.

Do you like your life?
so-so.

Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
i did been into a guy's toilet 2 mths ago though and thts crappy.

Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
no. i cant swim for nuts.

Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
no. though i wish many a times.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yep. tht feeling sucks.

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
yeah.

Do you ever wish you were famous?
fame aint my cup of tea.

IN A BOY:
Cowboy or gangsta?
none of the above, can?

Preppy or Punk/hip hop?
preppy.

Well educated or Dropout?
as long as hes smarter than me, with great ambitions to make it big himself.

Contacts or Glasses?
whichever hes comfortable wif.

Good cook or take you out a lot?
good cook.

Funny or Serious?
can be funny and serious at the right time.

Romantic or Daredevil?
a balance of both.

Cute or Hot?
cute. hot guys are intimidating.

Long or short hair?
short hair. clean-cut pls.

Smoker or nonsmoker?
nonsmoker preferred.

IM A HAPPY GIRL NOW.

2008-11-23T00:52:00.014+08:00

Finally got to meet Steph 3 days back. Went to chill and ate at some Clementi spot.
Then, met Steph again and Slayer on friday night at TB plaza. Congrats to Slayer once again for getting his new job and thanks for his lovely treat at Thai Express. its considered so-damn-expensive for simple food like the ones we ate. $60+?

Went Fareast plaza to had my hair colored and highlight yesterday. I think i talked alot to Meimei, my hairstylist. Engaged in topics like the hair, travelling, work, family and Patsy(my ex-hairstylist). Heard she had a new bf at malaysia so most likely wont come back sg at the moment. I do miss Patsy doing my hair and, shes pretty too.
Not used to my current hair color esp, the fringe part and also the part thts most difficult to manage for me.

Im a happy girl now! Such a memorable day for me =D
I went to the washroom after my dispensing on friday morning and came back frm the entrance of the pharmacy. Guess who tapped my arm to stop me? Frm sideway, i saw a guy wearing a blue tee-shirt wif prints. I thought its either Cyril, or even KC coz these are the possible frens who will come to Jur poly. But no, i was wrong! Never knew it cld be MJ! btw for those who dunno or forgot who he is, he used to work as a dentist at my workplace, someone i truly look up to coz hes smart and all-rounded =D now he has left to work at some private sector as dentist. the feeling of seeing him back is abit like happy, excited and surprised! Finally got to talk to him in person coz usually we use friendster msges to converse. I think i can conclude tht all along he recognizes me but we never had chance to talk out of randomness coz of work and people ard. Thought i'll never see him again but yet he dropped by here, once again. He rmbs me, still! He asked how i am, told me why he came, where he work, talked abt the course im studying, how long i've work here and he seemed pretty surprised tht im still working here. If not for work, I wld haf continued talking to him until he reaches his turn to take medicine. The funnie thing is he was speaking to me in Mandarin, but i replied him mostly in english. haha but luckily im not lost for any words when talking to him =) He gave me his msn add, too. Man, imagine im on cloud nine at tht moment but i controlled my excitment =x Went inside the pharmacy and told Nurul straightaway but soon almost the whole pharmacy knew. damnit, haha. Yinfen even said she seldom see me smiling so happily. I even asked her to pinch me to see if i was dreaming. LOL! Anyone in my shoe will understand. Nana, the dental PSA told me tht she disturbed him tht day, asked him if he got see any of his admirerS here, he juz laughed and laughed. so cute. hahah! =) Hope to see him again next time! when will tht be, i wonder.

finally over and next is the result. =\

2008-11-15T21:14:00.010+08:00

After battling for 8 weeks, the exam is finally over! phew. so glad its finally over. i cant say the paper yesterday was easy on my part coz i dont even haf time to check my paper (hopefully i dont make SOMEMORE careless mistakes which i already discovered some after checking ans wif my frens after the exam). i think i juz lost marks on 4 questions. damn carelessness. two of which are juz plain stupid coz i practically got the concepts right but interpreted wrongly. goodness laaa. =.= hopefully i can still get afew marks for abit of working correct but then thts if the markers are lenient to me. okay, i shld quit myself frm being pessimist. like what noora had told me tis morning, i still haf many other qns to make up for it. for now is juz, pray hard and wait for the result. OH, PRAYYY! i will update once its out =)

Went over to New Town Pri Sch juz now for the farewell event. The sch is moving over to a new campus next yr. Its nice to be back there, reminiscing the past. Its an irony why i dont see any of my 6B ex-classmate there but whereas, my sister's ex-classmates came abt 10 over people and they are like much older than me and still keeping in contact. The only class i see frm my cohort is the 6A, had some small talk wif chiew yen over there. saw renita but she seemed busy juz now so did not talk. the girls still look pretty much the same but some of the guys haf grown so much tht i can barely recognize some of them. i think one of the guy recognize me, kept looking at me and saying sth to chong how but wth i dont recognize him! =/ as he was looking at me, i gave him tht 'do-i-know-you kinda look'. as i was recalling and thinking abt whos the possibilities, it might be Jinzhou but he look different now so i cant cfm. hahas. but at least i still can recognize the guys like chong how and yuanzheng. heh.

Anyway, time to enjoy my deserving 10-weeks break now!
time to catch up wif frens i haf not been doing so for these 8weeks or so.
time to shop.
time to go for outing.
time for games.
time for online. msn.
time for chilling out.

and much more! =)

Meeting my poly jiemeis in town tmr. goodie.

Crush

2008-11-13T13:10:00.004+08:00

This is my most-played song now.

David Archuleta - Crush.mp3 -

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside..It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..

[Chorus]
Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away, goin away
Has it ever cross your mind
When we're hangin spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last,Last forever, forever

[Chorus]

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away x5

[ Crush Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]

omg. its exam period.

2008-11-12T17:20:00.006+08:00

Sth i tot will not happen, happened at work recently. One of my colleagues got suspended frm work and most likely will not come back. I dont know why it has to be this way. Part of myself, really emphathize her and wonder how shes doing now. Well, it happened too fast.

Suddenly i felt numb that exam is on friday. i really(x100) hope to do well for my first module as its always good to start off wif a good grade than anything else. Im super superstitious lah i need people to wish me so i feel more confident. hahas. So u guys nice enough tht day, u know what to do eh? *ahem* I already got my superiors wishing me luck (err. so weird coming out frm ur bosses tho). Of coz luck doesnt juz come alone, hard work has to be in it as well.

On the other hand, i sooo cannot wait for exam to be overrr so can enjoy my 10 weeks break. i freaking need one now. Alright im back to hitting my lecture notes now =)

all i want is a k660i.

2008-10-25T19:40:00.008+08:00

All i want is you...

Yep random, its Sony Ericsson K660i! existed for some time already. And as much as i wanna admit, thts the phone im eyeing for right now. Actually is been awhile. I like the one on the right, the lime green and white. its so-not-my-usual-taste to like GREEN but yes, i still like it! soo eye-catching to me. i like its color uniqueness coz usually phones are all made up of all the common colors (black, metalic colors ect;) which all looks abt the same. so boring and, dull! i dont mind the hot-pink and black though but lime green and white is still best. Still pondering to change my phone, or not.

busy busy.

2008-10-19T00:16:00.002+08:00

Been very busy the past 2 weeks due to the hectic time table i had. Practically need to go back to sch 4 to 5 times a week. Ok yes, quite crappy but exciting in a way. Coz at least i get to work my brains besides reciting 'one tablet three times a day' ect; everyday. Spent my past few days revising the syllabus coz test is today. Hmm, i shld be able to pass, but i wanna pass well. Out of 25 marks i hope to get like 20? thts my target coz i think my lab will pull me down. im so damn paranoid lah, u all know rite. =( okay, let me pray hard for my lab. Second lab lesson wasnt tht bad as the first as we managed to finish up experiment and report on time. Due to the lack of resources in the lab for our third experiment, some of the grps, including mine cldnt finish on time. Luckily the lab techs were nice enough tht day to let us continue in our next lesson and they delayed our report submission day to the next lesson as well. And then im quite moody on fri tht i almost wanted to 'scold' my team member coz u know he likes to blabber and order us ard but doesnt get things done efficiently yet blames u. I mean, thts Crap rite? n hes juz so petty. i cant stand guys like tht. they give me hell at times. Taking a break tdy frm studying. Shall continue tmr wif my lab assignment, lecture notes and homework. So busy tht i cant think of anything else.

Been finding the opportunity to spend money nowadays coz i dont get to shop tht much since sch started. Bought CDs, food, snacks when i had my off on Thurs. Went for my root canal therapy on Thurs as well. Hate the injection part to the gum and its total numbness and drowsiness. Good thing is i got a very nice dentist to do my therapy so it wasnt tht bad. Final round for tis therapy is on the 30th. Taking my time off to go down.

Thts all for updating. Ciaoz.

screw the lab !

2008-10-12T15:52:00.005+08:00

Sch has already reached its 4th week. another 4 more weeks to go to end of module one.
Everything seems pretty okay till the first lab day which was yesterday.

Well, Screw the lab okay! $#@
The first lab lesson sucksss. Lab work was more like a PBL-based approach coz nobody demonstrates to us what to do. Just a pile of lab manual for us to read and follow the instructions. Then the first lab work we did yesterday was such a hectic one. Requires us to do alot of steps in such a short time. Still we need to hand up our write-up of the lab answers on the spot and the write-up is like 20+ pages long? Whole chunk of experiment plus writeup in 2 hrs, possible? and i didnt finish up some of the qns and haf to hand up already. and i bet im not the only one. Man, Im like fking depressed(pardon me for inserting the bad word here). =.= If u were me, ull understand why. There's some who managed to finish on time which i think they alr haf lab experience themselves so they are faster i presume. Lack of 'chemistry' wif my lab partner also =.=" I guess i shld haf prepared myself more before the lab lesson start. Didnt know it was so screwed. Cant afford to get penalise for my lab marks like tht. Muz brush up! Kinda finished my pre-lab assignment juz awhile ago, need to do some touching up later. Next lap is to revise and finish up my mock test paper. Mid-term test is this Sat. Hell. Well,thts the uni life i gotta adapt. Back to my pre-lab assignment now. Ciaoz !

tiring week AT hou.

2008-09-27T00:08:00.003+08:00

What can i say abt myself this week? im TIRED! Relief at Hougang branch is real tedious. All the waking up early, travelling time, ridiculous mrt fare, overwhelming patients there, having all the BIG basket to dispense is like terrible! but great experience there. i guess i wont complain much abt big baskets when im back in Jurong. its is juz too commonly seen at Hougang, even can have the extent of having 2 or 3 big baskets to dispense =.=" Most of the colleagues there are friendly, esp Sharon, Margaret, Amanda, Tracy, Kaleen, Samuel, Weiting, Sze Hui, and not forgetting Joyce! Shes juz so funnie. Her reactions nv failed to make me laugh. and for some reason, she simply love disturbing me. TSK. maybe im too nice to 'bully' there? N then she's frm Phillipines but doesnt speak like one. me and Amanda kept thinking tht her english sounds like American. Even patients thought so, when i dispensed next to her. Anyway, im missing Jurong pharmacy peeps now. Ok, honestly only some.

Today i received a phonecall. I wondered who at first. then it was Jac calling frm Jurong asking me if i wanna and watch tis free movie screening for 007. first reaction i told her was, "007?! no!". then she go and tell me tht 16 people are gg including Charles and she already put my name. But she told me its on 12th Nov which i so cannot go. I explained tht i haf exams on the 14th nov which is true. I need the time to study!

Orientation juz now went on fine. I went wif Amanda and Weiting but they are not starting class tmr coz they have exemption for organic chem since they alr took it in poly and i dont? sigh. I saw my ex-rp classmate, Donovan there. Different course but we will still be sharing the same Level 1 modules and hes coming for class tmr as well. Class starts tmr and im abit excited for it. im excited to study? I think im crazy.

one more week to school.

2008-09-19T19:43:00.007+08:00

I've booked the airplane tics wif the travel agency yesterday. Rushed down to meet my sis after work and spontaneously we booked on the spot. So its confirmed, i will be flying off to Japan on the 4th Dec, night. So i hafta rushed back home after work tht day. I'll be touching down SG on the 10th Dec, evening time. Luckily, we get most meals provided by the tour so lucky for us. I targeted tht i shld spend more time on taking photos than shopping there. Too exp to shop there u see. Just admire will do. Contentment.

And so i heard frm Eileen tht HOU is not as bad. condition there is bad but people there are friendly so good for me next week, i hope? N on Wednesday, my superior sent the attachie student, his name Charles and the locum pharmacist, Mr Lim there. N Eileen msg me during my lunch time, "u all so free? still can send 2 more people here? muawhah". Then i heard tht afternoon wasnt tht bad at HOU so dunno why we send so many ppl =.= So Eileen's back wif her new hairdye. I like I like ! Red and Brown. I call her 'Chao Ah lian' temporarily now. Jkingly =x But i think tis color combi suits her juz nice now.

Im very irritated wif someone at work tdy and its not D.
And I, 99% dowan to care, really.

Today i bumped into the trainee PT, Ivy at the washroom TWICE. and it was the same sequence tht i came out first, then her and shes in the cubicle next to me. Super coincident. N i always find it very nice talking to her coz shes like always smiling. Makes people feel good too.

And Charles board the same bus wif me juz now bcoz he needs to go German Centre to get HIS car. I can sense the rich kid aura in him =x So yeah, had abit of small talk wif him on the bus juz now. Actually quite a nice chap to talk to coz he doesnt beat ard the bush when talking and hes quite willing to tell me stuff. the quiet kind of friendly. Told him tht i'll see him next next week coz im going HOU then he said he also wan to go. what the! then tht time he still told us tht the place is cramped and smelly now say wan to go there again. Tht boy muz be kidding. And then I still told him to alight at the wrong stop, but luckily hes smart enough to tell tht its not his stop yet. =.=" Haha lucky! if not i feel guilty. (tht rhymes. heh)

Tmr's stock taking day. Staying back after work to count stocks. And im in charge of the same thing again. Of coz, LOOSE TABLETS section again. Ok, at least its not as bad as Noora's section which has more loose tablets and CNS drugs tht muz count.

Science centre and Sakura buffet on Sunday!
One more week to sch ! im so not prepared for the first module, organic chem coz i haf not touch chem for eons. Crap. Why cant they put some bio module first.

dear diary.

2008-09-15T15:50:00.006+08:00

Been too busy these few days tht i couldnt find time for myself.
Movie on Sat. Boys over Flowers is not as bad as what it seems to be. Though i think one of the parts was rather boring. Overall, still watchable even tho the plot is quite crappy. Who cares, happy ending anyway =)
Siloso Beach wif Ie wern and Enxuan yesterday. $3 entrance fee. quite nice to be there. I think its better than Zoo or Bird Park. Im juz not the kind of animal or bird lover ure looking for. Due to the fact tht Ie wern didnt haf her proper attire on for the beach, we didnt stay long at the beach. Wasted ! As a result, we cant tan much there. sigh okay next time perhaps when im having my sch break or sth. next time when we are not so tight wif our budget, we'll go again ! i wanna try go-kart, sky ride, songs of the sea and perhaps we can go cafe del mar to chill next. Sounds good. Im making things more motivating for me when sch starts. Cant wait for the sch break ! Ok sounds unreasonable, i haven started my sch and im yearning for the break alr. How crappy is tht. Who ask me to haf such a crappy time table for this unit! Guess ull see me online less after sch starts. N if u still see me online everyday, pls pls spank my backside for me. I mean it. i really need alot of time to adjust myself to be ready for both work and sch. Hectic, its gonna be. No joke, and my exam for this unit is in Mid-Nov. Ohno, and how long haf i not studied for exams? Since Sec 4? 5-6 years? Forget abt poly days coz RP dont freaking haf any proper exams. ahh.

On leave today and tmr. Juz came back home frm National Dental Centre for checkup. Then my root canal therapy is going to start on 16th Oct. Im very scared, actually though doc said its not pain since im goin to be on local anasthetic. I simply hate the feeling of having my gums injected. Wish me luck man. Im so going to be broke bcoz of this freak therapy which will cost in total of 1.1K. thts more than half of my pay. =(

Sch starting in 2 weeks time, and meaning to say alot of things to shop and buy. So im going to be on VERY tight budget frm now on. Need to save money coz my sister also said she wanna go Japan wif me end of this yr for hols. and Japan is definitely not going to be cheap.

Ohyah, and i wonder how is Eileen at Hougang branch tdy. She will be there till Wed. and actually also half the week after next. but in the end i did a very kind thing by covering for her the whole of next week at Hougang branch. Initially i was not quite happy bcoz my superior is always asking me to help out other branches, be it BBK or Clementi. But since Eileen is even further than me going there, then no choice but to cover. But sian, its the week tht im starting class so its going to be more tiring for me. =(

Im going out again later to sch, to register for my lab groupings. Hope to get the group i wan. Then going to rush and meet Jeannie, Fizah and Noora for dinner.
Haircut and Rebond tmr. I so cannot stand my overgrown, messy and frizzy hair.

thats just life.

2008-09-10T22:57:00.004+08:00

Life taught me not to be serious.
Life taught me how cruel reality is.
I've learned so many things in many aspects these few years, i cldnt ask for more actually.
but i know thts only the beginning. As im learning, im getting wiser each day.
Certain things in life has taught me to become stronger too.

Im looking forward to the challenges ahead.
Well, i intend not to talk abt my past already, unless i feel like it which i dont anymore. I dont think i will be in the next few mths or so. That will actually help me alot. Dont ask why either. Thanks.

she's the best damn thing.

2008-09-08T22:54:00.007+08:00

'The best damn thing' concert was a fantastic one ! Fabulous crowd were present last night. Me and my sis took bus frm town. It was actually quite fast, abt 45mins. We were considered lucky coz we didnt spend much time waiting for the bus. Juz our luck! heh.
One interesting point to note is tht I always wonder why some guys like avril when most of her songs are quite 'sarcastic' towards men. I shall save the ans tht my sis gave me yesterday which i think might be controversial. whatever it is, lets not bother. We had all different color lightsticks and a lanyard wif the 'Avril The Best Damn Thing' print on it, all at each of our seats.
Waited really long for her gig to start, supposed to start at 830pm. but at ard 8pm, some local band came onstage as an opening act for the gig. Good effort being put up by them but tht was not what we really were there for. The female vocal dont sound like shes singing rock at all. =.=" The gig finally started at ard 915pm. the latest i've ever been for a concert. Avril managed to cover not all, but most of her songs frm her latest album. N good thing is tht she sang her famous old songs like, Complicated, Sk8er Boi, My Happy Ending, Im With You and my all-time fav, Losing Grip. I can truly relate to tht song now. Ohwell, i shall put the bad aside tdy. She played both piano and drums last night. Great showcase anyway, Shes juz too rocking awesome btw ! =D

We had a new Fillipino(i think) Pharmacy Technician (PT) trainee and a new TP attachment student tdy. The PT trainee will only be here for awhile, whereas the TP student wld be wif us for 5mths. Both of them look rather approachable. The TP student is a chinese boy who has hair resembling some jap anime character. Haha. My superior even tot tht hes not chinese, but mixed. Ok, enough said. I hope hes nice, since hes gonna be wif us for the next 5 mths. So far tdy i see tht he has been quite polite(ke qi). We shall see. heh. Heard there will be a new PT frm JMC coming over too. She's another of my RP junior, i think. So looking forward to see how shes like.

Okay, finally able to access Leon's blog after soo long. So glad we made him happier tht day=)

totally off.

2008-09-04T23:39:00.003+08:00

Im superly off at work tdy. Stomach cramp and Lacking of sleep. Even the vitamin i took was not of any help tdy coz usually it has a 'wakening' effect on me in the morning. as most people who know me shld alr know tht im NOT a morning person so vitamin B complex is a 'must'. hahas. in short, im super blur tdy ok.

Im no longer mad wif him. I think i cannot be mad wif a person for too long. Its juz too tiring. I juz tend to forgive easily, BUT never forgets. The best thing is he doesnt even know im mad wif him. =.=" See how slow guys can be? Im not trying to stereotype the guys but sometimes guys are juz not sensitive enough to our feelings. Then the guys will start grumbling abt girls being too sensitive. See the difference? Anyhow, im still trying to understand tht part abt guys and girls. But at least now i haf a better idea of how to deal wif my current situation.

Awaiting for Avril's 'The Best damn tour' concert this sunday.
Shld be my highlight for the week. Need to 'revise' her songs, after mths. heh.

2008-09-01T15:53:00.006+08:00

The weekends was great ! Celebrated Leon's 22nd bday at Imperial Treasure and then he drove us to Mind Cafe at the one near Paradiz Centre but tht was fully booked. Then drove to the one at Boat Quay and finally settled down there. Had lots of fun there playing cards games like, fast fingers and think-a-ma-bots! Never forget the part when Leon made us ate the CHEESEFRIES, (yes including me). imagine me eating cheesefries? never rite? i'll never wanna touch cheesefries plssss ! choose another food as punishment next time ok! ok? hehe. Hope Leon had fun wif us too.
Went to the prayer hall yesterday wif Angie. Few people were present partly bcoz its on a sunday. well, hope to gain more wisdom soon after attending more prayers =)

Due to the fact tht i've lost alot of photos, i will not be able to upload certain photos. Alot of problems arising as i was trying to save back the pics on emails. we'll see it goes alright? U see, Im not good wif computers. *grins*

I so cannot be bothered wif people who dont give a damn abt me. I know im worth more than jz a one-liner. Never bothered to ask me abt tht night and never even ask me how i am right now when im sick at home. At least thts what a normal fren wld ask, but no. N theres more to why im mad wif him and i so dowanna bring up. I used to think tht he cared for me. Not anymore now. Whats the point of me making the effort to be nice when thts what im gonna get frm him. Lack of mutual respect i shld say. Boys! oh whatever! =.=

I juz typed whatever i want now coz the medicines doc gave are so not helping me to think well.

updates. answers to my previous post.

2008-08-28T19:00:00.009+08:00

Sorry for those who haf been waiting for my ans to the previous post. Went to reformat my com 2 weeks ago and juz got back last week. Delightful yes, partly bcoz i can use back my com but also sad over the LOST PHOTOS i kept!! boo =( But i hafta say those days without the com, i had much more rest and time for myself. plus, im busy wif my uni application as well. For those who dunno, I've gotten my acceptance letter frm UWA! Bsc Molecular Bio & Biotechnology =) will be taking private over at PSB academy starting 27th sept, and its a FREAKING Saturday! There goes my beautiful Saturday. =.= But i guess if i wan it badly, its gonna be worth it. That part is juz for ranting :P

And as to my previous qn in the previous post, i think i might choose being mutual first, like what steph chose. Coz i cant predict who im gonna choose! Ultimately i think i'll choose the one whom i haf the most chemistry wif. Like for example, (U guys can skipped tis part if u wan to) i love bantering(not flirting mind you) if someone can hold a bantering session interestingly wif me (i cant accept TOO random stuff tho)he gets half of the cookie points. easy? think again ok. For those whom i haf absolute zero chemistry wif, those are not even in the consideration =)

And i wonder when can i fully turn back to be my feminist self. Im giving in too easily for the past few mths. I shld start standing up for my beliefs like SOON. Be back how i used to be, thts my aim for next mth. N hopefully get ready for sch too. Bahh.
Something's just isnt right. I hate pms and i hate emo times even more. ugh!

23th aug is a date to rmb. my first, unglamourous moment, first fireworks in sg.

negativity.

2008-08-10T14:04:00.005+08:00

Girls, Who would u choose btw?

1) Someone whom u admired frm the start but doesnt like u back the way u do.

or,

2) Someone who really likes u and gaves u the right amt of attention needed but u dont like him as much as (1).

This qn suddenly struck me as i was watching tis hk drama serial yesterday.
Tag or Msg me ur ans and ur reasons.
My ans will be out in the next post. =)

photos.

2008-08-10T13:27:00.006+08:00

Still decided to post some nice pics up frm Lee Koon's bday coz i freaking realized i cant post those nice ones up on friendster due to the BIG file size and im juz TOO lazy to compress them. those who know tis add, good for u.

Group pic 1 (check out Joleen's pouty lips. hehe.)

Group pic 2

Love this shot. Joleen's bf can really make a good cameramen. hahas.

The Bollywood style. LOL.

photos.

2008-07-30T22:37:00.007+08:00

Poly Jiemeis!

Part 2.

im acting hiphop?

I can look garang, too. yay.

now this is much better. my fav photo tht day =)

More photos coming up.

the suayness.

2008-07-30T19:27:00.017+08:00

1) I've beaten my own record for meeting TWO traffic jams tdy. one to work and one back home. both haf similarities as they are due to car accidents and juz nice both of them happened on the sides and at the same time tht i took the bus. one hour bus rides alone are soo not fun.

2) Period came, thus i cant go for aerobics. AHH.

3) On the way home back, wanted to buy some choco waffle. but auntie said she needed to make 10 waffles for a customer and thus asked me to walk around first and come back later. due to the stomach cramps im still having now, i bought sth else thts not of my craving. =.=

I had a little dream this morning. I dreamt tht im still wif him. A long time since i had a dream abt him. Im not feeling as upset now as i was. Its juz too much for me to take alr. but somehow, my subconcious mind cant help to think abt what if we were still together now.

Im starting to miss the people whos leaving the pharmacy soon. When will it be my turn, freak.
Pictures soon. I wont be posting the ones at Lee Koon's bday party coz its long overdued and i haf yet to retrieve my pics frm Joleen and shes abt to leave. tht few nicer ones were alr uploaded in friendster some time ago.

Singapore Vs Brazil's match was a brand new experience for me. Ronaldinho playing right infront of us and not forgetting abt the kaka-lookalike kid sitting next to us =D

quotes I

2008-07-30T00:07:00.005+08:00

All men and women are born, live suffer and die; what distinguishes us from another is our dreams, whether they be dreams about worldly or unworldly things, and what we do to make them come about...We do not choose to be born. We do not choose our parents. We do not choose our historical epoch, the country of our birth, or the immediate circumstances of our upbringing. We do not, most of us, choose to die; nor do we choose the time and conditions of our death. But within this realm of choicelessness, we do choose how we live. - Joseph Epstein

Be contented to know tht at least we can choose how we live our lives so stop wasting the precious time.

The current song tht keeps on re-playing inside my head.

Viva La Vida - Coldplay

Hearts <33!

the scientist.

2008-07-20T14:31:00.005+08:00

Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh let's go back to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Comin' up tails,
Heads on the science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin',
At numbers and figures,
Pullin' the puzzles apart.
Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

Tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me,
Oh on I rush to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Chasin' our tails,
Comin' back as we are.

i miss him, i really do.
but no matter how i do, and how much i do.
I know i juz hafta keep on moving.

Back to working on my presentation.

Happy 22nd to myself !

2008-07-18T19:14:00.012+08:00

Happy happy 22nd to myself ! Many thanks to those who wished me last night and today! Apparently my inbox is so full tht i hafta delete some of my msges away. I esp thank those who rmb my bday every year without fail. Even those who seldom msg me will even msg me tdy to wish me which is like...woah! thts-nice kinda thing. Thanks to the wishes again; Enxuan, Ie Wern, Huimin, Huibing, JY, Steph, Slayer, Kc, Peng Li, Mel, Noora, Fizah, Jeannie, Nurul, Joleen, Momo, Casey, Eileen, Yanfei, Junior, Jac. I saw Ailan's email msg too, thanks. I hope i didnt miss out any. I've got a feeling there will be more to come. So busy wif msges tdy. In case, i dont reply or reply slow. pls forgive me. =)

Just when i tot im not having any plans tdy. i did. lunch wif Mel at paragon. Went to shimbashi Soba there. Its all bcoz of my random food craving all of a sudden tht i decided to haf some japanese food. One thing abt jap food is not tht fattening, i like =) After tht we window-shopped at Taka shopping centre. Nth really nice to be bought over there now. I think i kinda saw Sher wif her bf near paragon too but she didnt saw me. Then Mel decided to go home by herself then i went to Anchorpoint to buy food and went back home. Feels good not having to work.

Goin out again tmr noon. Meeting Ie Wern and Enxuan at JP. Jap food again.
St james outing will hafta wait, i guess. sighs.

Well, 22 is just a number, Im still forever like a 12 year-old. laughs.

time off.

2008-07-16T19:41:00.007+08:00

I took half day off to do my powerpoint for next week's presentation. Noora, one of my colleagues said "its only us, dont need to worry abt it". But hey, precisely the people i know, thts y i worry. im probably one of the weirdos, i know. My superior 'shoot' me a qn juz before i left her room, she asked me, "are u goin to study or not?" im totally stunned ok. i mean thts juz so random. i told her the truth tht i wanna take part time. then she gave me the shocked look n said tis, "oh u mean those night classes, once or twice a week tht kind?". i nodded. she said, "but ull still be staying wif us rite? i mean we've trained u and u've been wif us for almost coming 2 yrs....ect;" (she sound like as though im leaving now) ok guessed my ans is only 'errr..ya". lol i really haf no idea how to ans ok. =.=

I wanna blog abt tis foreign worker(malaysian) which i did dispensing 2 days ago.
Me: Can tell me ur work permit number?
He: 9#######
Me: Huh?
He: U wan handphone number rite?
Me: ehh no ! ur WORK permit number.

why wld i wan his hp number, for goodness sake!

D is still irritating me like ****(inserts censored word). Tdy i was like counting Librax, 224 tablets ok and he went on and on saying 'xy ni ke yi de, ni ke yi de, yao bu yao wo bang ni'(means u can, u can. wan me to help u or not) He said tht not only once WHILE i was counting. if tis line comes out frm anybody im fine. but frm him, no hes never sincere in his words so it gets really irritating. N jx happened to be ard to help me wif the other meds and he 'shoot' him wif tis, "if she lost count now, then ull help her to count ok" D kept quiet. Nice.

Im experiencing some kind of a emotional rollercoaster right now. Instead of keeping things to myself, i told people how i really felt juz now. those who really know whats gg on recently and those who cared to ask. Thanks to those whos been here for me. I hope after all tis, i'll be a much more stronger person. I know i will be, juz a matter of time.

Im so glad Fiz is okay already. =)

2 more days to being 22 ! i've already received advanced wishings frm people already. thankyou all !

feelings show.

2008-07-13T23:31:00.003+08:00

One of the worse feelings, ever. again.

Is this like a karma thingy?
If it is, then tell me what and what i shld do.

Just when i thought this doesnt affect me anymore, it did.
Will i be happy again on 18th july? yet to tell. though i hope i will be.

I should haf listen to her(she shld know who she is), instead of what my heart says.

Meeting Angie after work tmr for some religious activity. Hafta wear sth white and formal.

dark mocha frap.

2008-07-12T23:58:00.006+08:00

To sum it up. Good frens, Seafood Platter, Shopping(though i din bought any stuff), Dark mocha frappuccino frm Starbucks is awesome. taste too good to be true, addictive mocha indeed. i want more =D

The cream puffs frm chewy junior really means chewy. thanks kc for telling me abt it. Good food always meant to be shared among people =D

Being emo isnt a good way to solve any problems.
Screw them all. Life is juz too short for any unnecessary dramas.

I want more dark mocha frap frm Starbucks. sheesh.

spain vs germany

2008-06-29T21:47:00.005+08:00

I've broken my record for not coming online on msn for a week. It does free my mind in a way. I've jus too many things lining up in my tiny brain. Im not emo-ing btw, juz dont feel like sharing or talking abt them. Shld u all be asking me this, dont worry im okay. This week's another busy week. stressful week. Infection control, audit. drives me nuts okay.
Went for retail therapy the whole day. Bought mainly accessories and a cap. I love accessories to match wif clothes, thts me. Bought a pair of shoes for work. Covered shoes are soooo damn difficult to buy!!! Its so fewwww and designs are so plain ! and for some reason, i find it difficult to get the size i want, tht is comfortable. Bought eye mask as well. Hopefully it helps to relieve the puffiness of my eyes. Btw, Im alr feeling damn ugly the entire week coz of my puffy eyes. N this colleague of mine, David juz hafta come and rub it in, TWICE. Dunno y hes been FAR too irritating tis whole week. Tak boleh tahan can. =.="

Im going to sleep now. Waking up later to watch finals. GO SPAIN!!!!

lack of sleep.

2008-06-26T21:25:00.002+08:00

Im already sooooo lacking of sleep and i hafta wake up and watch semis later. Spain Vs Russia. Kinda looking forward to it as i hope Spain can make it to finals eventually. Break the spell pls.
Alright im gonna sleep early tonight and wake up at 3plus later to watch the second half then nap again. Be prepared to see myself more shagged.

I cant think straight now. Goodnite.

IM PISSED.

2008-06-24T21:57:00.013+08:00

For some reason,

IM GETTING PISSED OFF !!!!!

and next, this is going out to Mr D, pls stop asking me to go party wif u, on a freaking wednesday night. hello, im NOT as free as u. i got work the next day. and im even more not comfortable gg partying wif u coz im not as hardcore as u. im not gonna repeat myself anymore, twice is the max i can go and im not gonna entertain any of those msges any further.

I had appraisal tis morning, one of the first few who went into the room. All went well. tot its gonna be negative but its better than expected. My superior actually quoted to one of my colleagues abt me being one of those making major contributions such as being an IC champ. Seriously i juz wish she dont quote my name =.= If u think its a good thing, think carefully again.

Mr GBK.

2008-06-24T21:25:00.007+08:00

My fav patient came yesterday! Mr GBK(mark-chay-look-alike) btw. If u do follow my entries last year, u shld know who he is alr. Reason him being my fav patient is bcoz he rmbs and talks to me like a fren, i still rmb the third time i dispensed to him, i told him tht i rmb him, and he replied, "i rmb u too" wif a smile, thts how it started. and he's damn polite, even to Auntie Lam. Good thing is he came and STILL rmb me since last oct he came and good thing is i sat at counter 2 juz now(swopped with Jeannie), if not he wldnt haf seen me even. He made afew big hand gestures to me tht even some of my colleagues dispensing saw. hahas. Ie wern was so funnie, i told her abt him coming wif an indian girl tht day, she got even more concerned than me and said the girl might be his sister and tht hes mixed blood, actually. =.=" she really got me LOL!
And before anyone gonna ask me tis, i had to clarify tht hes only my fav patient, thts it. Im happy he came(not in the romantic kind of way) =)

happy birthday lee koon !

2008-06-22T23:11:00.009+08:00

HAPPY 21ST TO LEE KOON! =D

I think i SHOULD just hang out more outside these days as it keeps my mind away frm those tiny little stupid things dangling there. Came back home frm Lee Koon's bday party at her hse. Took many photos wif Joleen and my cam. Went down to the kopitiam for a drink and took pics near the playground. Practically we went up and down her flat 3 times in total coz there were TOO many people crowding at her hse. Really had fun meeting some of my colleagues over there. Esp Jeannie, everything abt her is just soo funnie pls. hahahs! Not forgeting the fact tht i saw one eye candy frm NUS, Lee Koon's fren. Me and Yanfei spotted him first, finally i found someone wif similar taste as me, besides Fizah. LOL! Jeannie tot tht he looks abit like Zhenbiao though. ohwell, hes juz another friendly cute chap we know, but attached. hahas. Conclusion, NUS guys are generally not-bad looking. To me, guys who can pioritize and wif brains are the most attractive people on earth =)

Thanks to Joleen's bf for driving us back to Jurong east station juz now.
Will upload the pics we took when its ready. Stay tune ;)

I've stopped thinking abt the unneccessary right now =)
And i think i wont be on msn so often this week. Pls contact me thru my hp instead, will get back as soon as i can. Many thanks. =)

And btw,
i think Toma Ikuta is damn cute.

Enough said.
=D

Im going down to PBS academy tmr after work. Hope i can gather the info i wan over there. Goodnite world!

ultimately i know i cant.

2008-06-21T18:38:00.010+08:00

Im actually in a daze right now due to juz waking up frm my afternoon nap. I really need sth to do now! keeps me frm thinking abt stupid things. maybe i'll go think of the FAQ's to ask PBS academy when i go down next week. wanted to go down tdy but yet to think of any qns to ask. i soo wanna study, at least thts the thing tht can keep me busy. i think after so many things happening ard me, its good i shld bury myself wif work and books. of coz hanging out wif frens while i can.

Met up wif Steph last evening. We had some things in common. Its like we are undergoing the same emo issue, and getting better wif our own lives at the same time together. Most of the updates were frm her and i think its juz me, i do care for my gdfrens alot. Hope she will be totally okay soon =)

I dunno what happened to us. Suddenly he told me hes feeling uncomfy wif me. If anyone asked me, yes, im feeling confused and at a loss now. I wish i know the reason why coz i've absolutely no problem wif him now. I dont even know why he didnt come to work tdy. Its like we are online now, but we are not talking. I know if i were to make the first move talking, it might juz worsen everything like how it always do. Somehow in other words, i cant pacify a guy in my own way and no use embarassing myself infront of the guys like what my sis always tries to tell me. All i can do now is to leave him alone and wait for him to talk to me.

Hopefully i can join some of my colleagues for Lee Koon's bday party tmr at her hse coz the damn hives on my hand and body is irritating me to core and reason being its obviously ugly and itchy. when i try to scratch it gets worse. SHIT lah! =.="

This week has been fine until tdy. Sometimes i wonder why im so irrational when comes to certain issues. i've lost like 1-2kg in the past 3 weeks and my sis came up and said my collar bone looks obvious now, making me look frail. How i wish i can control the place where im losing my fats. Been thinking too much already and its getting better now. I juz need my daily dosing of chocolates and im heading for it later, and some biscuits too. Need to produce some endorphines in me, really.

stop being nice.

2008-06-16T00:21:00.004+08:00

Now i know how its like to care for someone's well-being and yet it backfires. Whether u like it or not, happy or not, I really dont deserve being treated like tht. I told my sis and only my sis, she said i shld not make myself look bad by being nice to him anymore. she said im embarassing myself infront of him by doing tht. Im not elaborating further coz somehow i dont feel comfortable bloggin here anymore. it seems like someone whos not supposed to know my blog is here reading it. Maybe i shld juz lock this blog someday. well, dunno when.

Today is 'Goodbye to bob hair' day.
i went to trim off my bob away, too lazy to maintain it.
Went for eyebrow tweezing after haircut/treatment, Joanne's not free so i went to Hollywood Secrets at Paragon alone. Think Melody did a good job in analyzing and defining the shape of my eyebrow. Really detailed one. Might juz visit her again =)

The Click Five - Mary Jane.

2008-06-14T21:36:00.005+08:00

The Click Five - Mary Jane

I didn't cry the day you moved away
I didn't think that I could feel this pain
Until I saw the stranger that was you
Whatever happened to our innocence
And the somethin' that you said about being friends
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothings gonna change
Cause time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary jane
Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh

I need to wake up from this state of mind
The situation is the same kind
I gotta get your memory out of my head
Would you catch me if I had to fall
(had to fall)
Would you even find the time for that at all
Tell me how
(tell me how)
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothings gonna change
Cause time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary jane
Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh

Cause time has taken back
Everything I thought we had

Tell me how
(mary Jane)
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
Nothings gonna change
Cause time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary jane
Ooh ooh
Oh whatever happened to
Ooh ooh
Mary jane

Rihanna - Take a Bow.

2008-05-30T22:54:00.004+08:00

Rihanna - Take A Bow

Intro
Oh, how bout a round of applause?
Yeah
Standin ovation
Woah oh oh yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Verse 1
You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please!
Just cut it out

And don't tell me you're sorry
cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only
sorry 'cause you got caught

Chorus
But you put on quite a show
Really had me goin'
But now its time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Verse 2
Grab your clothes and get gone
(Ya better hurry up)
Before the sprinklers come on
(come on)
Talkin' bout girl I love you you're the one
this just looks like a re-run
Please
What else is on?

And don't tell me you're sorry
cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only
sorry 'cause you got caught

Chorus
But you put on quite a show
Really had me goin'
But now its time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Bridge
And the award for
the best lie goes to you
For makin' me believe
that you
could be faithful to me
lets hear your speech

How bout a round of applause
A standing ovation

Chorus
But you put on quite a show
Really had me goin'
But now its time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now.... (less)

I saved a draft of what i wrote. I guessed i'll never haf the courage to post it.
i wish someone can juz erase away tht part of my memory.

thats not love.

2008-05-26T00:20:00.003+08:00

作詞：方文山
作曲：周杰倫
The song lyrics and tune really can move me to tears. Now that we are proclaimed good frens. Sorry to those who dont understand what im talking abt. pls go figure urself. im too tired to explain everything out. mentally and physically tired. Go ahead and say girls are emo, i dont care already.

insignificance.

2008-05-21T22:31:00.003+08:00

I feel very insignificant to him. Lack of attention. I din wanna approach him abt it and neither do i wanna talk abt it. Im trying not to feel upset over it, still trying. Give me some time alright. I dunno if this gonna work out. Anyway, im taking a new strategy now, 'No strings attached'. I dowan to be badly bruised and hurt. Hopefully, he returns back to his old self soon.

Thanks Zixian for bearing wif my smses tis afternoon.
I hope i can be back as the happy ms attitude again.

2008-05-19T14:50:00.009+08:00

Last week wasnt tht fantastic. the only good thing i rmbed last week was Fizah came and visited us at Jurong. I miss her alot! Recently i feel left out at work coz alot of my colleagues like to converse in malay, and not english. Feels stupid when u cannot take part in their conversation. When can i learn my malay?! My company's been saying they are gg to sponsor us in learning languages but up till now, still no news. bunch of cheaters!

Bought the tics for The Click Five concert last thurs wif Enxuan and Ie Wern.
Had dinner at Tiong Bahru's Rajah Inn, the steamboat were made individually. cute concept and not tht exp. Poor Ie Wern who ordered the chicken broth, cant smell hers coz it was covered up by our herbal broth. lol! Happy to see the both of my frens happily attached. and what abt me? im still single, but unavailable. maybe not for long i dunno. cant believe i honestly told him i dowanna get hurt. hahas! and i think he shaked his head and said no to tht. i dont quite understand tht though.

Out wif Mr M last night. He was kind of tired and has been feeling like this the entire week already bcoz of work. tired and awake at the wrong timing. I do miss the 'old him' where he can be more attentive to me. as u can tell frm here, he hasnt been the entire week but i dont actually blame him for tht i know. im learning to put myself in people's shoes. I felt bad bcoz he has to come and meet me despite being tired. He said he din wan to see me shop alone so he will come. SHO SHWEEEET! =) but dislike people calling him one. anyway we ended up boarding the same train coincidently. shopped at Far East Plaza. I bought like 4 bags of stuff, 2pairs of shoes, 1tube and a bag. The one we bought the bag at the pushcart. There's one uncle and a lady attending to us. They kept saying in mandarin to Mr M tht he got good taste bcoz he liked the bag i bought. the prob wif some people is they always mistaken him as chinese. I told them tht hes malay only understand abit of what u guys were saying. The lady then said, "hen li hai lei" (means very clever tht he knows abit of chinese) uncle even rubbed it in and said, "dang ran lah, bu ran zen me jiao hua ren nu peng you!" (means of coz lah, if not how to haf a chinese girlfriend) and the uncle kept eyeing the stuff i bought. this uncle damn sebok sia. make me paiseh half the time and made me buy his stuff. Mr M juz kept busy smiling at them =.= Had dinner at Ramen-ten. Tht sillyboy thinks tht the spicy chicken ramen not spicy enough and kept adding alot of chilli. lucky he din had diarrhoea for tht. lols. Walked to Borders, then to HMV heeren. Still cant find Leap of Faith can! when is the stock gg to arrive? I come to think tht Mr M is scary, i realized only yesterday tht he got ears sharp like Nurul. I'll better be careful when i talk ard him. oh, he actually knew i got frens like Stephanie and Slayer and im meetin them this week, tht psychic boy. anyway thank him for carryin all those shopping bags for me. tht boy actually worried abt me not reaching home. SILLYBOY =)

Btw, I've been overly thick-skinned nowadays tht he compains. heh sorry. thts juz me =)

2008-05-11T13:52:00.005+08:00

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sick again.

2008-05-10T12:54:00.006+08:00

Guess what everybody.

Im SICK again. influenza yet again. the similar strain of virus. doc refused to explain to me what kind. probably he tot i will not understand but hey, i do ok. he juz dunno tht i specialize in biomed. if its the other doc which i go to, he wld haf told me coz he knows i work at the pharmacy. anyway this flu sucks, affected my vocal chord making me lost my voice. now i talk, nobody understand. i think i juz shut my mouth. zzz. and luckily theres technology like instant msging and sms now.
Im on leave today and was supposed to plan on gg out wif Steph and Slayer but i obviously cant go coz i cannot talk =.= need rest, i think. I wasted my half day leave like tht. bummer! Hope i recover soon. I have not been working out for the past 2 weeks! feeling really unhealthy and fat ok.

I think im gonna stay at home tis weekend. B.O.R.I.N.G.

Get-together on Thursday night wif Fizah, Casey and Jeannie. Was at Jurong East Mrt station wif Mr M until he saw Casey wif Hanlei coming towards us. So coincident! its all abt praises tht day. Casey told me tht Mr M look better now already. I told Hanlei she look slimmer now. and one impt part to note is, Casey told me tht Hanlei said i look good now, my dressing and hair. Made my day ok, though shes not the first person who said tht =) Casey and I reached Cityhall and met the others. Had dinner over at Secret Recipe, whined abt jurong and talked abt entertainment.

Went town after work to meet my sis yesterday. despite the fever and i was coughing like crazy. Ate sth light at Sakae Sushi then went to buy the Mother's day present. Walked frm Isetan to Tangs then to Wisma. Finally we bought a Guess handbag and Anna Sui's Fancy of Flight perfume for mum. Both of us are happy wif our purchases. We bought each a new watch at one of the pushcarts at Wisma. Im actually in shopping mood nowadays but im sick. it juz spoils my mood for it.

one fine day.

2008-05-07T22:12:00.003+08:00

We are somehow back on good terms again. Just when things were lookin good, problems muz arise. I really hope good things dont come to an end, at least not for now.

Btw, for those who dunno and for those who din ask me why i was upset during the weekend. lemme tell u now, i got my letter frm NUS, its negative. guessed as much coz tis year's competition is really tough due to the dragon year babies coming out fresh frm poly. I was indeed abit disappointed. I shld haf ask people to write me a recommendation letter as it'll put in better position coz thts what some of my frens did. i was too complacent to even thought of tht. Anyway thanks for those who were there for me or tried to be there for me=) I will not stop frm here. Am now starting to plan for part-time private course at PSB academy. Interested in the Molecular Bio & Biotech course. Planning still in the midst. Need to gather as much info for the sch as possible. Sad tht i still cant live my workplace and tht sucks, BIG TIME! Might be meeting Casey and Fizah tmr at Starbucks after work, like finally a get-together =)

tell me whats love.

2008-05-05T23:57:00.005+08:00

Why cant lovers be together when they realized they like/love each other? Why must obstacles always come into the picture?

'Love knows no boundaries', can u really defeat tht?
Turn Romeo and Juliet's story to live if u can. I would love to see the 'twist'.

Sick.

2008-04-28T18:08:00.002+08:00

I've fallen sick. being the prey of the flu virus. Been having the inflamed throat, ongoing fever, muscleache since sat morning and the cough which started yesterday. Only my family members know how bad my throat is and my voice =( hate being like this. Postponed my movie date wif Mr M coz i was sick. Damn, i wanna watch Awake! dunno if it'll still be on next week. Thank him for being understanding. Went to see the doc tis morning, doc said i got flu and fever of 38.6degrees celcius. imagine the weather is hot enough now, my temp is competing wif it. how freaking annoying! Doc gave me TWO days mc and guess i'll go back tmr if my fever comes down. Mr M asked me why im so enthu abt work and he insisted tht i shld rest. tht he will topup my stuff for me. but he might not know my stuff well so i worried. yes, paranoid is my middle name. most probably will wear the mask if i report back tmr, dowan to infect my colleagues.

mundane life.

2008-04-22T23:27:00.003+08:00

Came home frm town juz now wif fizah and jeannie earlier. Had Ramen-Ten at Far east Plaza. Really loveeee the spicy tom-yum ramen, shiok! lucky i brought water. as some people shld already know, i try to drink less sweet stuff unless wh en neccessary. and yes, go ahead and say i "drink" my own saliva. thts my kind of "joke" =) Bought a book, "Eat, Pray, Love" frm Borders. I like the way the author writes it. i go more for the language in a book. Despite them being the ones who suggested going tht place, i ended up the one buying sth. greaaaat, i still spent my money. =.= "Leap of Love" is still out of stock and even the staff wasnt sure it will arrive. ohwell, i guess i juz hafta wait awhile more?

Been going out busy and haf not been updating regularly.
the last time i stopped was at the fashion show. everything was fine. the models are juz super TALL and pretty. hunks excluded(damnit =x).
Went out wif Mr M for pool not long ago. My first time. and pool is soooo addictive. we played almost 2 and a half hrs there. so glad he doesnt mind continuing coz i was addicted. okay, im sooo gonna master my power of shooting wif him again, SOON. not to forget tht i kept accidentally hit the lamp wif my stick. im juz clumsy, crap pls. Fizah's last day on friday last week, went over to Swensens and haf dinner. Im starting to miss her at work, actually. her 1 and half yrs. and im still counting mine. when can i ever be free frm the hands of the you-know-whos.
I got posted to relief at BBK polyclinic tdy. Had doubts abt gg there coz scared i'll be lost and no frens there. Mr M went to find the map for me yest and described the place for me. his ingenious description. i dont hafta ask ard for directions. heh. juz thanks to him. Luckily i got to know Mr Chiong, my ex-second-boss at jurong whos now transfered over there. Thank goodness he made me feel more adaptable over there and being so kind to release me 15mins earlier =D I come to conclude tht i cannot work in places where food or shopping mall is concern. I simply cant resist the power of them lah. bleargghh!
Pictures to upload when im free, or pls refer to friendster if im lazy.

I wanna watch The Other Boleyn Girl and Awake this week. i hope im able to and the people im watching wif better make it. I wanna make use of my GV vouchers since movies are damn exp nowadays. Click Five concert, haf yet to contact Ie wern for the details and yet to buy the tics. Hope she can make it.

the boy.

2008-03-30T12:34:00.003+08:00

Im so excited to go out later ! i hope i'll be able to catch the fashion show afterwards. Never seen a proper one before. Maybe i'll bump into one of the hottest dudes or babes here. cross my fingers lah. LOL! ok in case u guys dunno, i DO look at hot girls sometimes. obviously to envy them, their hourglass figure, fantastic fashion sense and great looks. but looks aint tht impt to me nowadays coz i go for a person's confidence more to bring out the certain x-factor. confidence makes damn ALOT of difference.

I was on the phone wif Mr M last night for the FIRST time. of coz he initiated to talk coz hes bored. =.= dont be mistaken, he wanted to call but i made the effort to call instead coz i got no free incoming. ohwell, he better be appreciative.

Whenever you try to resist sth, you'll fall for it more. Im against my so-called 'belief' and i dunno if im doing the right thing now. My belief used to be so strong abt it but now im actually hesitating. Maybe not thinking abt it wld be the best solution for now.

many thanks!

2008-03-17T23:58:00.002+08:00

Im very grateful i haf very good frens ard me.
Godsend frm heaven. Im really grateful for them. Everything.

I've received really nice, sweet msges frm people nowadays.
For i know it somehow brightens up my entire week.
one example is a really long pleasant msg frm kc when i woke up tis morning for work. msg being send ard almost 1midnight while i was slping. very heartwarming indeed. i thankyou again =) now hes officially famous on my blog. laughs.

rule #1

2008-03-16T23:51:00.010+08:00

Met up wif Steph today at BBK and i came earlier than her. surprisingly, i tot i was abt to be late but she was even later. So went to buy the tics alone first. Not so boring at least, coz momo telling me abt EPL matches on sms. Chelsea Vs Arsenal and Man U Vs Liverpool next week. ALL the damn good matches lining up. I know right frm the start since Mourinho left tht Chelsea wont be clinching the title this season. the whole thing abt him leaving is juz TOO sudden, making us true blues fans all so fed up, and team's not performing well at the start of his departure. juz so glad they can still make it third now. So its between Arsenal and Man U this season, Man U better win this. N yes, point is i hate Arsenal. =) And back to the meet up tdy, it was a good one. Caught the movie, Rule #1 at Westmall. Its not really tht horror, but more of disturbing scenes and gore. Sound effect wise is damn good. Im juz so glad the audiences aint the 'screaming' kind as there were more guys ard. Fiona Xie did quite alright. Her look of horror can be quite terrifying too. Ending wise, quite predictable. I wld give a 3 out of 5. Nevertheless, Steph likes the show. or maybe Shawn Yue? laughs! Then followed her to get her weights. the 3KG one. lucky din get the other one and lucky u clarified wif the salesgirl coz the other one is juz TOO light. Got her sports wear as well. I wanted to get. it isnt too exp or isnt my size. darn it! =x Rest of the time were spent talking, eating away.

Am relieved tht the week's over. Tough week i had. Din wanna elaborate on it though. I've become tougher since the incident. Thanks sis for enlightening. N kc, if ure reading this, thanks alot. im 99% okay now =)

Planning to cut my hair soon again. but i called Patsy tdy and shes over at malaysia now! means i hafta wait for her to come back which is next week. I cant wait for her to be back seriously.

im tired of thinking.

2008-03-13T18:35:00.004+08:00

Sometimes i wonder why im always in such a sorry state when comes to the subj of love. The feeling of loving someone is juz unbearable sometimes when u dont get what u want and disappointments. No wonder people always say its better to be loved than to loved. when will we ever get the best of both worlds? Thts y i chose not to start. at least not now.

Been very tired the past few days. Im juz tired of thinking.
And i wonder whens the time i'll ever stop worrying. like paranoid.
Whats wrong? im juz hoping for the best of everything.

Stock take is this weekend.
bad news is im gonna stay back after work to count the tablets. and im in-charge of counting pharmacy-only med, the whole column of eyedrops, some of the non-standard item and loose tablets. like alot seh. =.= hope patients "eat" up the loose tablets so tht me and fizah wont hafta count like crazy on sat. MP3 is a must this sat. Good news is i dont hafta go back for stock take on sun! woohooo. means i can meet up wif steph again for movie!

MJ replied me on friendster yesterday.
"haha.... no prob... u take care... may pop by jurong when i get posted back for relief..." he still rmb me. hahahs =) how i wish i can bump into him again at Borders. I'll make sure the next time i see him, i'll smile. its a deal.

Im giving myself time to be quiet this few days.
I really need to sort out what i really want.
Its all in a mess now. Gonna clear this up once and for all.

the leap years. the ladies privilege.

2008-03-09T00:25:00.006+08:00

Watched 'The Leap Years' with Steph juz now.
A hopeless romantic movie, we can all say this. Cant really find it in reality. Who in the correct mind will wait for the person in 4 leap years? and every 4 years meet only once. Its like what they call it, 'together and yet apart'. Although its still quite romantic. Ananda's character(Jeremy) is such a sweetheart in the show. Li-Lin's character(Li-Ann), on the other hand has a strong belief. Ok, im more or less drawn to Ananda's character more. Qi Yuwu's character(KS) not as appealing as how he look. lols. I can never be as 'da dan'(brave) as Li-Ann to partake a date wif someone she ever knew. Joan Chen's acting is brilliant even though its only tht various scenes.

Heres the old wives tales of the history behind 29th Feb i found.
http://www.snopes.com/oldwives/february29.asp
Quite interesting.

Im so amazed by poets. their languages. metaphors. serenading words they used now.
How they make up something so beautiful.

How i wish i cld turn back time to appreciate literature more.

Watching Rule #1 next week with Steph again. Officially movie khaki. Finally someone to watch horror flick wif me. =)

silence is gold.

2008-03-05T20:43:00.008+08:00

Everything's not going on smoothly today and something's amissed.
Me and Momo talked less than 5 sentences and those were all short answers.
I juz find tht extremely strange coz we were still talking last night online then today hes so out of norm. like he talked to everyone except me. After work, he still can msg me abt avoiding man in blue but too late. In my mind i was like "STILL GOT CHEEK TO MSG ME". and he ended off wif a unusual short reply, "ok, take care". thats all he has to say to me! greaaat! The more i talk to him, the more i dont understand him. so i reckon i SHLD talk LESS to him now. Silence is gold.

Anyway i gave man in blue my email coz i tot it'll be easier for me to tell him off without having to tell it to him face to face. I have my reasons.

I heard 'Time after Time' by Quietdrive tis morning!
everytime when hes back, the radio will play tis. like a reminder sounding.
Anyway, managed to get POSITIVE outcome tdy. i FINALLY added MJ on friendster yesterday after sooo long and he accepted me tis morning =D

Opposite attracts me.

Im sooo into Mike He and Rainie Yang this TV couple. Soo cute!

And he is so HOT.

I wanna get Huan Huan Ai VCD ! *crazied*

he's back.

2008-03-04T21:39:00.003+08:00

MJ is back today.
what can i say? im quite happy la coz never seen his prescription for soo long.
although its juz a pathetic piece of paper wif his handwritten words. Did not see him for like almost 3 mths? Cant believe he still can make me go excited every now and then. Still keeping track of his blog and realized he took part in the recent NUS biathlon' 08. Hes juz soo all-rounded. idol =)

Tht man in blue asked me for my email juz now and i juz gave him some dumb excuse for me to think abt it first. and of coz thts not the reason i gave him. i dunno if i shld give. i hope we can be frens and tht he dont pressurize me further abt waiting for me ect; coz no matter how long he wait and what he do, my ans will still be the same. im stubborn.

I juz send a friendster msg to Nana. hope she reply.

and i did sth crazy i never tot i'll do. but with much psycho-ing frm frens i did. if i got a positive reply frm him, i'll blog abt it.

Another random post.

never put someone your piority.

2008-03-02T12:43:00.009+08:00

Im getting abit indifferent towards him.
I guess waiting isnt a terrific thing to do, esp in the long run.
Gets me rather weary and tired.
Im treating him more like a fren now although i get people telling me "no, u shldnt give up", "u dont even know how he feels, u wanna give up first", "u gotta fight for him". there are some parts u guys aint aware of and thts the part which got me thinkin tht giving up is probably the best choice. Think Fizah knows the most here so therefore, shes the one who always say i shldnt think of him alr.
N i can sense he still cant get over the girl. WHY HER?! Sometimes i feel tht if its other girls on his list i'll feel whole lot better coz at least i lost to someone with substance. but of all people, HER.

Watched L the movie last week.
me and my sis both thinks tht it shldnt be called 'shen tan, L'(detective L in chinese) coz it makes it sounds super corny, cliche and old fashioned.
Think the show is good. not as brain-racking as Death Note. But still nice overall. I cant take the fact tht L died. i juz got teary when he said he wished he cld haf live longer at the last part. I love L and, I love the song too. 'I'll be waiting" by Lenny Kravitz <33.

Came to work earlier shift the whole week.
Surprisingly met Steph near my house coz shes on the way to work.
so cool i haf a fren who works so near my hse but she get to go home much earlier than i do. sigh =x

Went to Joanne's hse for eyebrow.
Haven been seeing her for 2 freaking mths! I miss talking to her and she juz likes to tease me alot when she sees me. always ask when im getting a bf and even jokingly wants to intro his cousin to me once =.=" i found out the truth yesterday tht female dogs do have their period. and they get extremely tired to bark when their period comes. Her dog loves to bark at me whenever she see me but did not bark yesterday coz of tht. new discovery for me. i nv tot abt tht in the past. pardon my ignorance, can.

I went to buy this white knitted crop-top yesterday.
Wanted to buy this type of top long ago but cldnt find. Found it somewhere near Joanne hse, which actually cost abt 24 and with 20% discount. Good buy!

Slayer's gg off on the 7th and i tot its tdy.
he cheated my feelings!! but then im juz glad its not tdy coz i haven been talkin to him the past few days and hes leaving for 2 freaking mths training. TSK!

Last but not least, congrats someone on passing his driving ! Juz so glad u did it =)

on leave tomorrow !

2008-02-20T23:51:00.003+08:00

Am on leave tomorrow ! like finally a break in btw work.
the last time i went on leave was like the last HK trip which was like...in november last yr? and ever since then been working like a "dog", literally. no MC, no nth whatsoever. =.= although thts juz a one-day break. better than nth. Meeting up people in the evening. hope all goes well.

Aerobics was a rather 'xiong'(agressive) one, but a shiok one. feels rather 'energy-less' now. i feel hungry easily recently, and i know i shldnt be eating much.

Im finally ALL done with my NUS application.
juz so glad and relieved now. its time to sit back and wait for the end-result which will earliest be released in early april. i dont think im gg to get in but im still hoping. and i cant imagine i did a crazy thing of filling up the choices coz i din wanna leave so many choices blank. and i filled in pharmacy, as well as arts and social science, anyhow. crap. juz hope tht i wld get my first two choices, life science or chem. but am still kinda worried abt the financial part. even if it means studying private. MORE money. GOD, PLS ENLIGHTEN ME.

guys and work.

2008-02-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

Been so bothered about friends and studies issue tht i fell sick recently.
so terribly FAN(troubled) by the preparation of uni documents and applications.
Had a 'cold war' last week wif momo bcoz of some insulting jokes he made. and later, i found out tht he didnt meant what he said tht night and he felt terribly sorry. i didnt think tht he was serious abt the apology at first until the eve of cny. tht was the time i think i shld forgive and forget what happened. i totally agree what fizah had blogged abt GUYS! sooo true. anyway he gave me a "shocking surprise" on sat. never expected him to come when he kept saying hes not coming the day before. he also bought us chocs. good one!
I've been into this guys' issue recently.
To steph, i think she shld know what i meant here.
we are so alike in many ways.
Im terrible at expressing my words, esp to someone i like.
the more i tried, the more i resist it.
Cant be bold enough to face my true thoughts/feelings at times.
Cant face the reality when someone likes me. Feels scared. avoiding it is always what i do but not a good way, when it may hurt the other party even more.
Im just a very confused girl.

Sometimes we, girls just hope guys can show us more thru actions. instead of words.
as much as girls are naturally attracted by sweet flowery words. excessive amt of it cld kill. sometimes by giving us a little surprise helps.
as quoted: "dont ask, just do it".

ai mei.

2008-01-31T23:50:00.000+08:00

Im quite disorientated the previous week.
am juz so glad im feeling alot better this week.
damn mood swings.
Work life still as crappy as ever.
I juz realized i cant really share things at the packing area coz theres TOO many sebok people listening ard. irritating is the word.
Attachment students, Momo and Hazel left last week. Although Momo's still back to help us out last saturday and today. shooo shweeeet of him! he still doesnt wanna admit tht he misses us. so be it uh =) Still trying to 'get used' the work life without his ongoing disturb and him trying to act garang(fierce), esp my 12.30pm-1.30pm dispensing slot, with him beside me doing Q-counter(LONG STORY). hahahs! Anyway last week i had TOO much tension with him. this week's seems rather ok coz half the time was on sms and sorta made an agreement to stop his garang-ness when he comes over.

Celebrated Steph's bday during the weekend.
Half the time we were spending time eating at Ikea and Anchorpoint's Secret Recipe.
Discovered many books on relationships and sex at Times. lol.
Then comes Slayer's surprise for Steph. Haha!
Played games at Ikea's bench till 10plus.
Simply love their presence.

damn bloody 'suay' day.

2008-01-25T19:34:00.000+08:00

From 1st-21st Feb are going to be the very important dates. In other words, a crucial period for me. the decision i make will make a difference in my life. Few days back, i've been telling people tht i might be giving up the idea of studying in local uni coz ah ching's sister said the science in NUS emphasize more on theory and doesnt really triggers u the interest to work for it after graduation. Come to think of it, tht might be abit subjective but i think it did affect me a little. Many of you been telling me to go for local uni coz its cheaper compared to private. Its also my "dream" to study at NUS. why shld i give tht up since its a "dream" i wanna pursue all along?! i'll be applying on the tentatively after CNY coz i have yet to prepare my relevant documents and im so freaking busy with work, meet-ups wif frens and catching up wif my rest now. i need to manage my time, seriously! i'll be crossing my fingers, hoping to get my butt in NUS wif the stupid grades! =)

Today's a damn bloody "suay" day for me.
First i was pretty stone in the morning, superior found out i didnt place the insulin tdy into the ice-box(i purposely din want to coz i tend to forget to put back by end of the day when auntie lam's on leave!) then kena "shoot" by a colleague of mine(i muz be kiddg if im not affected by the remarks), irritated by a patient who seriously cant wait patiently for her num to call and she who die die wants single-item charging for her medicine. Before i could settle the problem, another auntie came over after she made her payment saying tht she cant take the antibiotic due to some allergy. N lucky Fizah's there to help coz i cant multi-task TWO patients at a time.

Even till now, im still feeling very disorientated.
What the heck is wrong with me! Im pissed with myself. =.="

kind souls around warms the heart =)

2008-01-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

Today is a pretty good day!
First, i met tht indian lady whos our regular patient. she said hello to me at the dispensing counter. telling me all abt what her both sons are doing. she's really nice and friendly. theres once she even asked me for my number coz her son studied at rp and same course as me but of coz, i didnt give. im okay giving my number to her but HER SON? no way, i dont even know her son and his name dont ring a bell to me either. lucky shes understanding enough to respect my decision for not giving although she meant good. she gave me a wood's peppermint lozenges! and she said she gave dr franco as well, my fav respectable doc =) sooo sweet of her although my parents did say we cant anyhow accept sweets frm people! but lozenges still can la huh. LoL!
Second, i met this really nice uncle for giving up a seat to me on the train back home with Fizah. Fizah was seated next to him, then he suddenly stood up and said, 'gei ni zuo, wo kuai xia che liao'(let you see, im alighting soon). he gave up the seat when he was 2 stations away frm the place hes going! awwwh, SO SWEET RITE THIS UNCLE! =D there are really kind people ard =)

photos up!

2008-01-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

Feeling rather disorientated at work and get all hype up when its after work hours, even though im REALLY tired. this is so unusual, i wonder why. anyway i hope i dont get burn-out anytime soon if i continue like this for the next few days. i realized tht my pms is striking me like crazy these few mths and aftertht im feeling all hyper again. this is so weird. pms dont get me mood swings so easily last time. =.=
So far 2008 has started out pretty much okay for me. i hope this continues to be the case or gets better. to take up dancing classes, quit this damn job and be able to study chem at nus (alternatively taking private classes in accounting or maybe stick back to science again. i realized i still love science more than anything else. ah, i cant really decide but nus is still gonna be first choice on my list. chances to get in might be pretty slim coz its competitive. pls let miracle happen for me! Aside frm all this, i might be taking tuition as well, if possible for me.

Ok, so now its photos taken frm Nurul's bday bbq.
I dunno why i was so feeling high after tht. I think it cld be bcoz of tht half an hr walk frm the skiing area all the way to the mcdonalds' side. Ended up i was the one most wide awake.

Selenge Fizah? okay, cute. hahah.

the self-proclaimed gorgeous and the cute. HOHO!

Well done Fizah, u took this lovely shot. *claps* this will definitely look professional if not for the plastic mat though. LoL!

=)

My favourite. its the "chemistry" we have. HAH.

same height, finally. =.=

Fizah, Momo, XY in "crime".

the birthday cake we bought! =)

22nd BIRTHDAY GIRL, NURUL!

Group photo with Jeannie missing.

back.

2008-01-11T23:47:00.000+08:00

Im back! finally fixed my computer and internet problem after visiting the funan shop i always go to. the man said its my cable problem but i argued wif him tht its not coz i changed the cable twice alr, no use. so he recommended me to buy this USB LAN to plug my cable. after much guessings, its all due to my com's cable port being faulty. the man is sooo computer-smart. i might be gg down again this sunday wif my sis to fix her com prob as well. and the big problem now is how we gonna bring the com down when we dont haf a man to carry for us.

When everyone has alr started blogging abt the new year, i've yet to start mine.
well, its never to late since its still January. Last year pretty much faster than i expected it. Met lots of people at work and experience quite abit, being bad or good. scandalous ones. I cant simply name them all but will keep them as memories for now. now the new year is here, i cant express tht excitement for it coz i've planned for lots of activities tht i wanna do. hope to enrich myself more and stay focus this yr. no time to waste now. Meeting my Mr Right is not on my resolution list this yr coz i think its pointless to put it in when it doesnt happen. Im not gg to 'force' it to happen. Let nature be itself.

All our dentists are all transferred out, and came in are the new ones.
Mj's transferred to TPY now. but he will still be doing relief at jurong next week for a few days. as if i'll get to see him but its tht 'feel' of the presence tht makes the diff. it'll be good to see his haircut though.

One of the attachment student at my workplace, Angie once asked me if i had a cousin coz she has this fren who resembles me at first glance. N today, his bro, Jeff who came and help out as our temporary packer frm now said the same thing to her. N tht pinkie girl, Angie juz showed me on msn her photo and her friendster. Was quite shocked the photo does resemble me abit, esp THAT particular photo. hahahs. luckily she looks quite pretty (ahem* btw i din said that, its her bro.) but shes quite sweet-lookin in my opinion though but never knew shes older than me by a year. heh.

Still waiting for my hair to dry now. working tmr morning. gg for nurul's bday bbq in the evening at east coast. i wonder how long i can stay this awake.

When Will I See Your Face Again - Jamie Scott & The Town

2007-12-20T16:17:00.000+08:00

When Will I See Your Face Again - Jamie Scott & The Town

Here I Am, Everyday,
Since You Said, You'd Come Again,
But It's Not Fair, Cos You're Not Here,
I Wait In Vain, But Nothing Has Chaaanged,

I'm A Flower, Soaking In The Rain,
If I Could Wish One Thing, I'd Hear You Call My Name,

(Chorus)

So When Will I See Your Face Again,
When Will You Touch My Life Again (ohh yeah),
When Will I Breathe You In Again (ha),
I Think I Love Youuu...Will I See Your Face Again,

(2nd Verse)

Little Thing, Like The Rain Coming,
She Looked At Me A Certain Kind Of Way,
Tell Me Girl, Where Are You Nowww,
'Cos I Don't Know How Much Longer I can Waaait,

I'm A Dreamer, Waiting For The Sun,
When You're Coming In, I know My Life's Begun,
Tell Me Girl...

(Chorus)

When Will I See Your Face Again (ohh yeaaah),
When Will You Touch My Life Again (ummm um),
When Will I Breathe You In Again,
I Think I Love Youuu, Will I See Your Face Again,

(Bridge)

You Know That All My Life I've Been Waaaiting,
Waiting For Sooome, Someone Like You To Love Me,
You Can't Come By Like An Angel, Into My Life,
And then Fly Awaaaay, Flyyyyyy Away,

Oh Honey, Cos I, Uh Baby, Ba Ba Doo Yeah, Ohh ohhhh,
Sing, I've Only Seen Youuu, Oh, I Said, Uh huh, I Said I Said, Yeah (woo)

(Chorus)

When Will I See Your Face Again (I Wanna See You Once In My Life),
When Will You Touch My Life Again, (Wanna See You Twice In My Life),
When Will I Breathe You In Again (ohhh),
I Think I Love Youuu, Will I See Your Face Again,

I said, see Bap pa da doo ba ba (ohhh),
Bap Ba Doo Yeah, That's What We Do Yeaahhh (ohh),
When Will iii See Your Face Again My Friend,
Oh Yeah, I Think You Gotta Let Me Know Yeah,
Ohh Yeahhh...

credits to: www.onlylyrics.com

crush.

2007-12-20T15:09:00.000+08:00

Went to watch 'Good luck chuck' wif my jiemeis on tues.
really funnie and kinky show. i like it partly due to, alba.
such a sexy babe, but i know some girls juz dont like her which i dont understand that pretty much. its subjective anyway. and i was telling people my christmas wish is to be like her. heh heh! fat hope.

19/12/07 was the weirdest day-
the new dentist who did the refill on my teeth 2 weeks ago came to the pharmacy during their lunchtime and was the time im doing my dispensing next to the q counter. i turned to look at momo whos doing the q num for him and never did i realized tht mj was juz leaning next to the q counter eating papaya. he was staring at me. was so paiseh tht i turned to look at the com instead, and thinking, "WHY THE HELL IS HE DOING HERE? MY GOD, HES STARING AT ME, HOW?". from the many coincidences, frm the first time he came over in july, to barging into his room when im supposed to be gg to yh's(not purposely,i dont really know him initially), to retro d&d night, to thinking tht if he's ah ching's cute dentist but hes actually not, to friendster msges, to rumours started, to see him smiling at me when i was taking the lift up and him rushing back home, to bumping onto him at Borders, to the time when we were q-ing up buying food frm the back stall auntie, to fiz asking me to call him regarding a drug intervention, now this and he turned to looked inside pharmacy when he left work yesterday. he's probably leaving after christmas, and im seriously helpless. its been some time since i had this major crush on anyone(dont laugh reading this). maybe he does fit my bill. he's so all-rounded, and definitely nt the typical boring smartass ard.

and besides this, tht old uncle who scolded me the other time came! my goodness, u guys shld juz check out me and fizah's face. looking all so freaked out when he came near us. and he was lookin at both of us ONLY. thanks momo for "warning" me first wif the 'da vinci code'! we escaped tht uncle =)

*listening to: Daughtry - Home.

with much love !

2007-12-16T12:34:00.000+08:00

Im in a most delightful mood these few days and i know why.
fizah, jeannie and me caught up wif casey and peiching on fri night. had dinner over at ramenten coz thts the only halal sushi they haf ard there. the tom-yum ramen tastes so nice, its spicy thts y i like! thanks fiz for recommending tht to me =)
then we walked over to heeren hmv to buy casey's pressie for bf, cyril. and he was wif shaun below heeren when we finished shopping for the pressie. we parted wif casey staying wif them and us, going home first. casey wants to go to walawala at holland v the next time. i sooo wanna be there!

My sister smsed on the same day when i had dinner wif them, and it goes like: "have you bought ur pool bear?" when she meant pooh bear. LOL! ohwell, thts my sister =) and shes so sweet this week buying me this fridge magnet which carve the words 'No friend is like a sister, and no sister like you'. thts so-not-her but still a sweet gesture. anyway im always teased and bullied by her at home. =.="

Im gg out later, to Joanne's hse.
hope it wld be fast and i can come back early to do my e-learning which im supposed to do it like, last night. but i was too caught up wif reading Cleo.
im still left wif many hrs to do. hopefully i can finished all by end of this mth.

The not-so-good-news is, mj is leaving after christmas.
hes leaving earlier than supposed to be, thts not good at all.

thanks for all the concern!

2007-12-11T23:23:00.001+08:00

Thanks for all the concern i get for the past few days.
My colleagues: they shld know who they are. thanks for brightening up my day and making the 'hell' more bearable =) u guys are sooo sweeet(reads as shweeet!haha)
Ie wern and Enxuan: sorry for stonning tht night. hope u guys understand. i was really deep in thought and tired. but at least we took some nice photos tht day! seeyou guys very soon for good luck chuck alright! =)
Kai Chun: many thanks for all the motivating words frm u! words simply cant express it. ure juz DA MAN! haha =)

I went lunch earlier tdy and guess i saw MJ! hes juz q-ing next to me.
the thing here is he smiled at tht time but dunno to who. and what abt me? instead of smiling, i turned away frm him. Ok, many are alr telling me off for not smiling alr. some even scare me by saying tht he might think im rude to him. im screwed! why he always appear at those weird times! previously was my haircut few weeks ago when we saw each other at Borders. the world is so small, let alone Sg which is only a small red dot.

N tht man in blue is currently pissing me off like shyte.
shall not elaborate on the craziest thing one can ever do.
and im simply glad tht he knows im pissed off. juz back off pls.

reminiscing the good old times.

2007-12-09T22:52:00.000+08:00

I think i haf so many things/thoughts running thru my head these days.
and last night met up wif my jiemeis, ie wern and enxuan for dinner at cineleisure and drinking at coffeebean. i dunno why i kept stonning when usually im can talk so easily. i dunno if its bcoz im too tired or im thinking too much things. my mind is so congested! the moment i opened my eyes, i'll start thinking. work, money, studies and relationships. i get so fed up when i start thinking abt them. i had this stupid damn migraine after my lunch tdy. felt a whole lot better after catching some sleep and watching some oldie dramas. and i catched the star award show juz now, feeling nostalgic. the dramas in the past were so so much better than now. wish i can go back to the good old times when i worry less and potato-crouching like theres no tmr. i dread growing up.

have not been updating.

2007-12-01T16:13:00.000+08:00

Last sunday, I went to meet Steph for lunch buffet at Sakura. First we met at JE mrt station. Im so sorry babe i was late tht day! think i was too tired tht morning tht the alarm cldnt even wake me up :x but lucky she wasnt angry wif me. hehe! thanks for being so understanding, girl =) It was one of those hot and humid weather and she suggested to take a cab from there and i agreed to it. and the taxi driver is such an ass, la. maybe hes having one of his bad days, that i dont know la. but seriously the service was BAD. now tht im in this customer-service line, i tend to appreciate good customer service. when in the past, i dont really bother much. but now i think customer-service people are ones tht deserves to be applauded. its not easy to be in this line, i definitely swear. If you ever received good service frm a shop or anyone of them, smile and acknowledge them. it does make their day =) We met a slight mentally unsound guy sitting behind us. loves talking to the customers, managers and the staff there. and luckily we didnt got confronted if not i'll scared stiff. a dramatic part followed when the man tried to talk to this girl at the other table. the girl's bf came over and confronted him face to face and even splashed water on tht man. the man kept apologizing and ran off. We thought tht the bf was so damn brave at tht time, la. After the buffet, we went over to starbucks at jurong entertainment centre. sat there almost the whole day talking abt love and worklife, catching up on many stuffs and photo-taking. we even thought abt joining dance class together but i told her i cant seem to be able to find a suitable time-slot for it. We realized both of us haf so much in common =) heh. She will be gg to China for holiday tdy and followed by HK mid-mth. Im sooo gonna meet her after her trip back, for kbox. Have a safe trip, girl!

Yesterday was Peg's last attachment day at jurong. and we went over to IMM for swensens dinner together with Jeannie and Fizah. We are so noisy at the restaurant taking photos, singing, laughing away jokes and bitchings. Peg was so touched we bought her this very cuteee little bear and farewell card. Im soooo going to miss her at work. one person less to buy lunch for me, one less person to talk to, one less person for me to say hi to when i reached work and one less person to laugh at momo wif me at work. but fear not, we are meeting again on Monday after work together wif Casey for ENCHANTED! =)

Got posted to Clementi tdy to help out. Superior not ard, Mai on urgent leave and poor Bahari caught chicken-pox! i was welcomed by them when i came over. Li peng even told me she was wondering if i was the one who got send over to help out. I miss the clementi colleagues so much, except for one. at least i find them much more genuine than my current place. So sweet of them all to thank me for coming, la =) Nicky saw me, came over to disturb me. 2 times while i was doin dispensing. =.=" THANKS LA! im surprise hes still working there. always rmb him as the one who gave us ferrero rocher on Valentines Day, so sweeet! hahahas! I had lunch wif Mrs Ting, shes so cute and niceee!

many thoughts.

2007-12-01T15:33:00.000+08:00

Suddenly many thoughts running thru my head now.
was gg thru the news reports i missed on the crematorium of the 5db members juz now and the channelnewsasia video on it. i feel so sad once again for the victims, their families and frens. never did i expect tht one of them was my fren's best fren, being at the age of 20 and the youngest of the 5 members. it left me in shocked when he told me abt this. its too painful experience for him and many of us. all i can do its to be there for him. though this is the most devastating moment, i know for sure time will allow all of them to move on frm here. The 5 dragonboaters will always be remembered frm the bottom of our hearts as those who haf done us proud! I've also learned alot from this; i shall nt take anyone for granted from now on, spend more time with my loved ones even though times may get busy.

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow old through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

its such a sad affair.