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Thursday, December 30, 2004
6:50 PM

Its raining!! wooohooo..and im half-drenched!! hahahas! love tht feeling man! =X i muz be kiddg seriously! yeah..crapz. came back frm clementi..went to the video shop tht elizabeth recommended me, rented 'Freaky Friday' to watch during the weekend. reserved '13 goin on 30' wif the man. hahas! damnit..how come i din noe theres a rental shop there! bahh..thnx to elizabeth! =D she also recommended me the arcade at clementi..2 bucks per hr but muz prepare 10 bucks for deposit. yepss..dont really noe hw to explain it here la. its juz gd bargain la. best is tht the arcade got not much ppl normally, so not alot of ppl will steal ur seats or wadever. juz playyyy~~
Yeps..went to meet Dr Tam for my proj juz now. rmb i met him once last time at starbucks..crapz! got a short lecturing frm him blah blah..he said me and enxuan got no business ethics, yeah and stuff lar..horrible incident la but at least i learnt sth ever since then. but today was so different. well. hes nice to us today..hahas! coz mayb i treated him like a frien more than anything else juz now. as usual i did most of the talking =/ asked him stuff..im always curious abt stuff. took pics of his clinic. even tho we waited for him for abt 1 and half hrs =/ well..nvm la. patients shld come first =) i even asked Dr Tam whether i can use his clinic's weighing machine and he said can!..hahahs! the amazing thing is tht i din gain any weight since i graduated frm sec sch! woohoo..i hope the weighing machine's measurements is an accurate one =) wows! im full of manners today. greeted him 'Happy New Yr' as well and hes so delighted to hear tht. mann! its like i made someone so happy! <--bhb. well. i love to make ppl happy, cheer them up and stuff but im only nice to ppl who deserves tht. Aftertht, me and ie wern suggested taking pics of ourselves at the community centre nearby. we really behave like some tourists today..taking pics everywhere. yepss..i've tot of some poses recently. ahahs! \m/ and the sticking out tongue thingy =X since when i love taking pics huh? LMAO! wadever!
Heard alot frm the news regarding the tsunami disaster. oh boy! its really sad to hear ppl dying. dead corpses piling, numbers increasing, well even the numbers were underestimated. some ppl are still missing..i hope for the best, at least let them be found. well. i guess thts Life and Death, everyone has to go thru tht. i simply hate those ppl who always regard Singapore as being very safe blah blah and they themselves dont noe anything abt safety...oh pls! if not for Sumatra who blocked us. well..on the bright side, theres still alot of ppl donating canned and dried food to those ppl there. yepss..its really heart-warming when u see Singaporeans helping the needy. =)
Im outta here..gotta make some time for my webbie now, haven been touching it for almost 1 week..bahh. An advanced Happy New Yr to all now. =))


Wednesday, December 29, 2004
2:57 PM

Yeps..hi.christmas was incredibly gd. Bran called on christmas eve and 12 plus midnight on christmas, as well as boxing day. haha. thnx man for all! erm..yep. so right now i finally can use the com, haven been online for these few days. well. first, i was being barred frm my com and second, i've been goin out alot these few days. as for the webbie, i think it shld be able to finish pretty soon. yeah. the webbie sux tho. bleah.
Owell. lets talk abt how i spent my christmas. went shopping on christmas eve and kinda hav a party wif my family at nite. bot food and drinks. played christmas songs tht nite. 'Last Christmas' by Wham is soooo nice..'last christmas i gave u my heart~ but the very next day u gave it away~ tis yr to save me frm tears~ i'll give to someone special~' Got christmas sms-es frm wilson, JY, slayer, huimin, enxuan..ect., hahas..thnx ppl. christmas day itself was ok, not fantastically gd tho, was sick. so watched tv and caught up wif elizabeth on the phone. she told me jjc is having prom on the 30th and they planned to hold it at the sch field, like how pathetic la! hahs. she then complained abt the sch having low budget and all. bahh..
Boxing Day: met nad, cinders and slayer at PS. hahas! nv met them for quite some time, caught up quite abit. the whole day was a hilarious one. First, got tis last min sms frm nad when i woke up..wah then for a moment i was panicked. tot the thing was cancelled so i din wrap nad's prezzie =/ did a last min one tho. i told nad i wld prolly be late but in the end i still came b4 her. haha. when i reached redhill station, slayer sms came in, 'where u, come nw, pei wo :X' LOL! tht time its not even 3.30pm lorh! then he told me he misread the time as 3pm. booo..cock-eyed de! =X yeps then at first i tot slayer's lost, then i went to find him, but dunno where the heck he was la =/ so msg-ed and phoned nad to cfm wif her the meeting place again. wahlau! NEL station is so big lorh! <--sua ku. so then i settled at the spot where i think it shld be right but still no idea where slayer was. after some time, his sms came in saying tht he think he saw me =/ he think only? aftertht someone said 'oei!' behind me, yeah its slayer. =/ then we waited for nad..not long after she came. almost couldnt recognise her. bahh. then exchanged prezzies. she got me her home-made cookies and a card. awww! how sweet! =D we sat at the starbucks and talked..laughed. slayer ate the cookies when nad went to buy her stuff, but i dont feel like =X then he ate and told me tht the cookies not nice! =X slayer, be nice! heh..then i kept buggin slayer for my christmas prezzie and nad suggested we shld go shop for it later. yeah. all on slayer's tab! =D at 5pm, cinders came and we shopped for hers too. settled at 'More Than Words' coz i wan my sylvester, the cat cushion! slayer bot me tht, bot cinders the emily bag and bot nad the emily wallet. hurhur..how nice rite? 60 over dollars on us! wahahas..actually we feel bad la =X later we went to 7-eleven and they bot tis peach bacardi vodka..then nad were askin me to try it out..stupid slayer was makin noise..what hum ji shit! i dunno wht it is lar =X im stupid. then took a sip..nv drank it for some time le. woo..there was tis burning sensation in my throat after awhile. im not high ok! @!#$ then me, cinders and slayer went back home. i wanna watch my charity show if not i'll miss sly's performance =X nad went for dinner wif her family then.
Finally watched the 'Phantom of the Opera' on mon. quite nice. i cried at the last part, even tho i dont like phantom but still i find him quite pitiful. I love Raoul! he rawks! and yay! i got tht musical's soundtrack. hee..=)
New Year's coming! tests coming! <--tis one is crap. cant believe i got a test the second day of sch reopen. freaksss! owells..hafta plan my new year resolution for sure. wheee..what issit? im not tellin =P

**i dowan sch to start!!!! T_T**


Tuesday, December 21, 2004
7:29 PM

Im doin my own geocities site now. bleah! cant really help it when things get bored. got tis idea frm tiffy! haha. she did a really nice one recently and im not gonna lose out either. bahh..well. im still working on it tho, tried exploring juz now. mann! i really got some troubles at first, but after doin some trial and error..finally, i managed to produce sth. at least STH! yeah..haha. quite happy wif myself coz everything i learn it on my own! <--haolian..lOlx! so well, ppl! u are all gonna sign my guestbk once im done ok! i will publicize it once its done. heh..(tht is if i have the time to finish up)
I went shopping wif mum yesterday and bot a jacket and a bag. im so satisfied wif wad i bot yesterday, gd bargain and everything! =) haha juz so gd. woohooo..my christmas shopping is almost done, left clothes. shall let it wait then. Gonna go rent some DVD for christmas..heh. i hope i got no plans on tis weekend, at least i can stay home and watch some movies. woohooo..im having the christmas mood now! Gonna catch "Phantom of the Opera" one of these daes, b4 my holiday ends. Gonna catch up wif my friens too..so far i haven done so =/ hope i do so on the last week of holiday. so book me now b4 its too late =P Planned to get my proj started tis week. yeah..in fact i've alrdy did some of my planning today, shall contact the "interviewee" on thurs regarding next week's appointment. sheeshh..everything's so rush and deadline of proj are like so near! damnit. i cant think abt it anymore. im screwed.
I think i've been slacking alot during my early part of the holidays. well..im racing against time now. wish me luck. haiz..


Sunday, December 19, 2004
4:31 PM

Haha! backie!! happy 7th months to someone(u noe who u are)! hehz ok..basically i sms-ed tht singapore no. but i think its not switch on so prolly hes busy wif sth or the phone's not wif him. ok so yep..happy happy happy! =P Had tis terrible nightmare 1 night ago..i shall not remind myself of the content, its horrid! i woke up early in the morning 6am bcos of tht. so scared tht i broke into tears. serious! haha i wrote tis short description(not exactly a poem) of the nightmare to bran, i ended it nice and sweet...he thinks its sweet ^^ haha but i think the things i wrote are damn retarded. took alots of courage to tell him yesterday.
Owell. im at mac now, brought along my laptop using the wireless there. actually din tot of goin to mac today but iylia asked me for 2 songs (wham- last christmas and sylvester sim - i dream) and those 2 songs are in my laptop. so yeah. my laptop cant go online at home so have to go mac hse near my hse. the connection is abit unstable so hopefully i can send it over successfully and pls hope tht my laptop batt last =P theres no power plug here at mac. oh since when iylia likes sly's version of i dream? i wonder
Watched the PSC nite last nite...there was this competition goin on. theres tis ac pri. boy...sooo cuteeee!! haha. so strange tht im liking a kid now. thts so not me. well. im nuts lar...i hope my future son can enter tht sch. cross my fingers and hoping it will come true. heh..
Ok..counting down my batt level now. 38%! o.O the song transfering is NOT EVEN HALF! @!#! hurryyyy..haha..iylia, if i cant send them by today and my laptop batt dies off, pls dont blame me oright. send u another day k. ok. i go and have my fries now. ciaoz! =)


Friday, December 17, 2004
2:44 PM

Helloooo guyssss! im feeling better now..i guess. thnx pals! shld be able to survive tis period. -breathes in, breathes out- haha..
Watched the o.c last nite..awww! the ending was a sad one. haiz..ryan left wif theresa bcoz theresa was carrying his baby and stuff like tht la, leaving marissa all alone wif summer..its so sad mann. everything ended juz like tht. my only hope of watching the show is coz i wanted ryan and marissa tog and now they are not, the hope juz got shattered like tht. marissa loves ryan..but cant get together and theres a scene where ryan was wif seth, his teary eye...aww..really brought sadness to my eyes(i almost got melted..haha =P) well. actually i knew the ending b4 i watched it coz marts told me. haiz..but still, when i watch it..the impact is different. like u get so affected by their acting like tht. i heard like season 2(according to marts), marissa found another guy and afterwards she became lesbian or sth like tht. whoa..so exciting isnt it? haha..then i told marts i wanted to be her les coz shes like damn chio and sexy. haha. then i think he was shocked..he din noe im like tht. then he added tht i got bf alrdy, but i said can be bi also..haha. then guess wad..he told me he loves bi(and of coz in general la)..o.O! and if his gf happens to be a bi, it wld be damn cool! LOL! then i told him tht u'll have more competition like tht. he said..true. haha. damn hilarious! i dunno abt him but i was joking wif him the whole time thruout the conversation yesterday. oh yea. he confessed to me sth. hes not a gay! =Xx lOlx!



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Thursday, December 16, 2004
6:37 PM

Oh..mann..things really screwed up nowadays! yesterday was relationship probs, today is another new problem..FAMILY PROBLEM! haizzz..damn sick mann. and im alrdy not in my best mood nowadays. everybody dont seem to be clear abt tht and still kept on bombarding me wif things. IM NOT A MACHINE OK! I DONT OPERATE BY WIRES OR ELECTRICITY OR WAD MAN!
Bran called and talked abt how i am and stuff. i din really expected his call todae, coz well things happened juz yesterday and yeah so..half-way talking, my dad went to switch off the main power! like WTF! i rushed out of my rm and shouted at my dad..'EHH! DONT SWITCH OFF' but obviously too late. =/ but the line didnt get cut off luckily, b4 tht me and bran were having abit of a disagreement. so im alrdy in a friggin bad mood and my dad obviously cant sense it and instead he shouted at me, "HOW I NOE U USING THE PHONE?...WAHLAU! ALWAYS USE THE PHONE AT TIS HR..SHLD HAF TELL ME BEFOREHAND THT U R USING PHONE RITE?" and the tone obviously not very pleasing to my ears since im not in a gd mood. my dad dont even make sense!! im in the room leh! hw to tell him im using the phone and hw i noe when hes gonna switch off the power rite? he shld haf double-checked the phone first rite? BLARDY HELL! its not the end, then i went back to my phone..my dad started @!#$ asking me to do sth for him. yeah..i alrdy said 'UH!' and he kept on shouting and nagging..like crapz la! tht time i really cannot stand it, so i broke down. anger reached the max. den my dad still thinks tht hes nt shouting at me..its so OBVIOUS! and still think hes hes rite all along. I'VE ALRDY EXPLAINED TO HIM THT IM ARGUING WIF SOMEBODY OVER THE PHONE AND NT IN GD MOOD, he still come and re wo(annoy me). then i think bran on the other line overheard my conversation wif my dad and he prolly thinks tht my dad's gonna snatch the phone away frm me and start shouting at him..and he said he will haf to defend himself in chinese which is like a difficult thing for him to do..speak chinese. =X i cannot picture himself talkin to my dad in chinese..=P i told him my dad wont do tht. well..i think! then luckily my mum was siding me rather than my dad! which is e BEST PART of the whole story. =X well. i really felt much better now. thnx bran for being there for me juz nw. and marts! for listening to me online =) and thnx mel..i hope i can cheer up coz like things not goin my way recently. i'll juz hav to try la. haha u finally got ur guitar? congrats ah! haha. i noe u wanted a guitar ever since early tis yr and its end of the yr now..LOL! im not being sarcastic la. haha k..time for me to go baby =X

I dont understand why guys always claims tht they are right...wads wif the ego mann?
I wish i can tell justin not to drill his thing outside the hse, the corridor..its noisy n i cant hear wad my friens are talking to me on the phone blah blah. i juz wished.


Wednesday, December 15, 2004
9:39 PM

I shldnt be bloggin now, but seems like i got too much things right now in my head, i've decided to release dem all. well. first thing first, my sis bot a dumbbell yesterday. well, its a gd thing coz i get to train up my arms and get tone up, then i'll look better wif sleeveless and all. but i din really expect her to buy tht in the first place.
Well. he called, so not expecting his call todae..he said hes using his dad's phone. Yeps! i think i went overboard juz now and i think i really hurt him. really felt bad and stuff. but then again, my intention was juz to listen to wad he has to say and not others telling me sth and i believe tht kind of thing. i knoe whatever things i said now, he thinks im contradicting myself. well..i've really got nth to say. mayb im bad at words. the prob here is i dont understand why he thinks tht i chose to believe some other guy rather than believing him..when im ready to listen to him. if i believe some other guy and not him, do u think i still wan to find out the truth frm him? i wouldnt hav rite?..but in fact i still bother to find out coz i care, but well..things are alrdy screwed. mayb saying all these things wont even help now anymore. im sad n depressed.

**how will my life be like without him? so empty**


Tuesday, December 14, 2004
7:02 PM

Back frm heeren..went there alone. juz needed some space..ALONE! dunno why, i juz dont feel like socialising at tis point in time. too tired i guess. need some space to think abt some stuff. went hmv and along the way, received lotsa of sms-es, then kept on replying. haha. crapz. received an "hi..so how are u?" msg..my heart skipped a beat for a moment, i tot who at first bcoz its some private no. then replied and asked. and realised its jian ming. haiz. chey! i tot who! =X
So yeah..i confronted him yesterday..and i mean tht him. yeah. so things are abit screwed right now. coz mayb i really wanted to see him tht much. yeah. juz let me see him right in front of me its enuff. i dont ask for more. i feel like singing tis to him, 'i dont want to fall to pieces~ i just want to sit and stare at u~ i dont want to talk abt it~ i dont want a conversation~ i just want to cry infront of u~ i dont want to talk abt it~ cause im in love wif u~~' - avril lavigne (Fall To Pieces). okay..i noe i may seem abit out of my mind now, but pls let me be. T_T
Sly is on the Cleo cover page! hahaha. tho theres only 1 small pathetic section abt him. =/ well well. check tht out! so yea..i saw justin...tht egoistic creep! =Xx *shh*..din bother to say hi to him as usual. anyway hes wif his other frien. making so much noise outside juz nw. yeah crapz. dunno why..sometimes i really wanna be nice to him but whenever hes ard, i will pretend like he dont exist. =/ okay. can say im being mean or wad. i dont care, thts juz ME! talk abt hw he treats me bahh..CRAPZ!

**so hard to understand guys**


Monday, December 13, 2004
2:17 PM

Hey peeps. im back. the weather's been COLD! okay. pls pray tht i wont fall sick during this holidays.
Owell. watched the Star Awards last nite. tho i dunno a heck abt wads goin on wif their shows. which show gotten wad award?..i dunno ok! dont ask me! i juz watch to see how the actors n actresses dress =P and their make-ups. their make-up really cmi, imcomparable to those HK stars. but i like most is rui-en. wahhh..so chiooo ok! she look gd last nite indeed. haha i saw her in person b4 wif huimin at some orchard roadshow last time. yeps. nt bad! got brains(ex-RJCian) and the look there. then my sis and i were comparing which actresses has the most beautiful back..haha. concluded tht its huang biren. her back is...whoa..the bony and straight kind. cant explain it thru words. its nice la! =~~ yaya..then gurmit and chew chor meng were extremely humorous last nite, they pretended like as tho they are hosting Sg Idol like tht. Chew Chor Meng said: i think u shld find ur identity first.<-- sound like Ken Lim. haha. super funnie!
Then Chelsea drew wif Arsenal..CRAPZ! CRAPZ! CRAPZ! the referee sux mann. KELONG! during freekick for Arsenal, stupid henry kicked the ball and goal w/o letting Chelsea players to get ready. FCUKK! THIERRY HENRY AND REFEREE SUXXXX! Chelsea shld win the match nt tht bunch of ARSE! ridiculous mann!
Okay. i shld be heading somewhere later. prolly town or sth? no idea. depending on the weather actually. its hard to go shopping w/o much cash wif me now =( oh damnit. im supposed to get a bag tis weekkk. hahaha. owells, gtg then..its 2 plus alrdy.


Sunday, December 12, 2004
2:56 PM

Sorry abt the previous entry. wasnt in the correct mood. yeah. heck abt the rest and ENJOY!! T_T wad a difficult thing to do now. =/ well. enjoy tis song on my blog. could it be magic by my ex fav. boyband, TAKE THAT. haha. gary barlow! =X imao..yeah i rmb-ed leandra sang tis song on one of the spectaculars, forgot which week tho. muz go and check. =X yeah so i dont think she did it nicely, in fact shes spoiling tht song(no offence!). coz the whole song is supposed to be very energetic but she din do it well enuff. lack of energy level. yar. so thts abt it la. oh and btw iylia! if ure in China readin tis. ure coming back tmr rite? yeah gd! long time no bitch abt stuff le. hahaha. faster come back!! =X mayb i'll be in town tmr afternoon. so anything in the afternoon juz give me a msg. call at nite ok! yaya. we have to discuss sth..rmb? =/
Okay den. i gtg. ciaoz!



2:37 PM

i hate you! i hate you! i hate you! i hate you! i hate you! i hate you! i hate you! i hate you! i hate you! i hate you! i hate you! i hate you! i hate you!

I hateee youuuu! yes..i hate you! nth but i hate you. thts wht i wanna do now. i dunno wht the fcuk is goin on!!...can someone tell me pls..ok shucks! everything's screwed juz like tht!!! all BCOZ of tht person! whyyyyyy?? u left me in tears. u shattered my dream. thts all i'll hav to say. bye..ru guo yao zou qing ni wang le wo.


Thursday, December 09, 2004
7:39 PM

Came back frm clementi..went all the way there hoping tht at least i can change the disk wif the shopkeeper but the shop din open..shucks! =/ bot my fav. belgium choc juz nw..to cheer me up a lil at least. Chocolates rawk!! =)
Dunno why i've been thinking abt sec sch life ever since last nite..ever since i heard tht jap song on 933fm. true true~ the title. mayb i heard alot of tht song when i was in sec sch, where j-pop started. haha. used to follow jap dramas, animes then but korean stuffs seem to be more popular now. =/ i dont give a damn abt those korean stars except kangta =X okay..and i love mashimaro, thts all =)
In tis entry, im gonna talk abt MY LIFE IN SEC SCH! dont snooze! mayb theres some top secret in it. u nv noe rite? here it goes.....

Sec 1:
Super guai during tht time. mayb juz came into a new sch. teacher ask me do wad, i do wad tht kind. no backbone at all. sound more like a dog =X in fact i hate the Sec 1 Me! bahh..YEAH! i hate myself when i was in sec 1 mann. as usual got rumours tht i like tis guy, tht guy..but actual fact only one of them is real. thts PS, my 1 yr senior..tho hes abit short tht time but i like his dreamy eyes and wah his tanness..very dark! =X but after 2 months, i realized tht hes a big flirt! =/ haiz..frm then on, i decided to forget him. yah i did. =) then theres tis guy (cannot say his name) tot i like him -_- and got my phone no. frm my best frien. he called once or twice only. asking me weird qns. "where u live", "whats ur pri sch?" ect., how lame was tht! -.- cannot forget tht incident man. then during sec 1, i love all the teachers who teaches me. mr ben, the lit-cum-pe teacher likes to disturb me, esther, soo yee and wenting..meisi always the one who will fight back when kena bully, can say the strongest of all la. always go meisi's hse..say go do proj but in the end go there and play. =X

Sec 2:
Sudden change in me tht time. like scolding bad word in class..think got influenced by pam..=X even tho i scold bad word, im not an ah lian, not till tht extent yet. =) abit rebelious tho. thts the time i started tuggin out and folding in my shirt outside and inside sch. once caught by the Disciple Master, Mr chua for not tuggin in and always caught by the Discipline Mistress bcoz of my long fringe. #@$! My class was known to be the mischievous lot but we are fun-loving..we are nt as studious as class 204..=X but we still do pass our exam la. like DUH! started bringing the comb wif the sharp pointed edges(u noe wad)and got confiscated by my geog teacher, ms preetha, like as if im goin to hurt anyone wif tht. =/ Started liking *ahem*(QS is his initial)..my 1 yr senior also, happens to be in PS class. my cca seniors were his classmates as well, so i always kena 'suan-ed' by them. then during cca, due to the fact tht im in chinese dance. =X ALL GIRLS! @!#$@ we will go ard bitching abt other stuff. always wait for QS to walk past my class b4, recess and after sch. haha. sound abit sick here but heck la! =X then i miraculously became the swimming captain for my hse. i got sabotaged juz like tht. like wht the heck k! i cant even swim a lap! =X

Sec 3:
New class. New classmates. there are 5 classes altogether after BVSS merged wif our sch. was squeezed to the 3rd class. hw pathetic was tht? i cant get into pure bio class. =( coz my sec 2 sci grade pulled me down. =( my science is still abit shaky when i was in sec 2. but came to sec 3, CHEMISTRY RAWKS! besides maths, its the only subj tht i listened whole-heartedly to the teacher. PHYSICS SUX BIG TIME! forever dont understand a thing! so wht i do is to chat wif huimin and sometimes day-dreaming abit. dont understand hw ppl who say physics sux can even score for it. so weird huh? but i noe ppl like ailan can do it. BUT NT MEEE! -shakes head- nv understand! first time participated in SYF chinese dance. we went to The Chinese High Sch to perform. whoa..no cute guys, only nerds! =X and whoaa..the girls sch dance team was gd mann! seriously gd!..but we still managed to get our bronze. like thank God! =)first time gotten the report card, my result isnt tht bad! but im one of them who went to meet the principal, parents were even asked to meet my form teacher. like wad a damn thing!..ever since then, my results improved like mad. seriously LIKE MAD! got 4th in class at the end of e yr. HEH! got all my motivation frm HIM! but hes having his Os tht time. quite sad tht i din get the chance to see him for MONTHS. think he injured his leg or sth =( and ++ the O level break..sci practicals..preparation blah blah..its MONTHS! lost touch..

Sec 4:
HOHO! the O level yr and im the most slack during tht yr. been playing the yr thruout. hahaha. QS graduated. waited for the day for the O level result to be released to see him back in sch. i rmb-ed he was late tht day, i even tot tht hes nt coming anymore until i saw tis really tall and sporty guy walking in. OMG! i almost cried when i saw him. at least he still bother to come back. =D oh btw hes 1.82m..sch band percussion grp. loves playing basketball, his fav. is to slam. waaaahhh..so cool mann! haha. oright. enuff description..after the announcement of the result, i purposely went to his class to look for my seniors..actually its not purposely =P juz tryin to exaggerate. heh..then started to miss him ever since tht day. longing for his presence again. =X lost abit of motivation for studying coz all along hes the one giving me the motivation for studying. my role-model. but ever since he left, nth is left. got elected again tht yr, but tis time is for mass dance hse captain. haha. u'll nv believe! forever slping in class. best known for failing elective geog T_T..prelims results sux! failed 2 subjs horribly. english and comb.humanities..the killer subjs! agg too high for me to enter 1st 3 months of jc. got scolded for nuts frm my family. said i did even worse than mid-yr. @!#$ sis even pushed me to study, set schedule for me to study somemore and of coz i did as the actual O's are coming..cant really play wif it mann. studied till morning 2am tht kind. it wasnt tht tough afterall. i enjoyed. =X i passed everything..tho nt very fantastic but at least tis time round i can appeal to go for jc(arts) course..actually i tot of appealing, but sis asked me to go for some science course in poly since i like it. jc may nt be my cup of tea. hmm..well. i still doubt tht line until nw. is jc really nt my cup of tea? hw would i noe if i haven try?

Okay. so u ppl whose interested in my sec sch life, haf fun reading! its long tho! =P

p/s: i didnt included ALL my feelings inside. the above are juz part of it..theres more drama to it. haha =X


Wednesday, December 08, 2004
5:07 PM

I went clementi yesterday and bot the Fifa 2005 game, but wht the heck! after one whole day, i managed to install it and run and of coz i did it wif marts help..thankew didi! but how come when i run the thing, i can go to almost every options but when i start loading the game, it will stop and go back to the windows again. the same thing happens over and over again..im FRUSTRATED alrdy! for nuts, i dunno whether the thing can really work or nt. no idea! haiz. sick of this sh*t! waiting for marts to come online!! didi where are u? come online leh =X sounds retarded. =/ nvm. if the thing still couldnt work after today, im planning to change for another game wif the shopkeeper tmr. argh! im kinda scared of the shopkeeper coz he looks TOO BENGISH! looks abit like a loanshark more than anything else..
I cant stop sneezing ever since last nite..!! think im goin to fall sick soon or mayb its a bad omen tht sth is abt to happen? oh no! bless me! =/ i think too much.
Heh! sorri ah slayer, disturbed u abt the Fifa game last nite while u are at tampines mall..HOW I NOE U AT TAMPINES MALL RITE? >.>


Monday, December 06, 2004
6:15 PM



this is daphne and sly..




sly and taufik..heh..i like sly's jacket! haha




sly and taufik again. got tis pic frm someone. haha. theres copyright below. frm khristopher. thnx! =)




sylvester @ the studio. i still love his jacket! muahaha =X okok. besides the jacket, DUH! need me to say more. -points at sly- CUTEEEEEEEEE!!




hmm. tis one taken at JP's autograph session. some taufik fan took tis and i stole it frm her =X LOL! sorri but thnx =P


SLY'S PICTURESSS AGAINNN! yeah. uploaded a few more sylvester's pics. theres still somemore inside my laptop but well my laptop is practically rotting at home right now. not gonna use it so often for tis month. damn laptop! got no internet card for me to use it for broadband. @#!$@$ shitto! if not i can upload more!! =X
Went Kbox on saturday! sang some english rock songs (influenced by sly) =X and some stupid lovey dovey songs which i've no fcuking idea why im singing all tht. beats me. =/ some songs which i've requested din came out! =( stewpig mann. din get the chance to sing. to name afew, ashley simpson - pieces of me, hoobastank - the reason, coco lee - before i fall in love(LOL!) and aerosmith - i dont wanna miss a thing, damnit, all these nv came out! @#!$#
Yeap. so then, he called last nite at ard 9 plus pm, told me hes at the airport, coming back to Sg soon. dunno whats wif me man! i was supposed to be angry wif him for nt calling the whole week!! but i juz cant do it. =(
Im supposed to go to the sch lib today to claim my reserved microbio bk. but damnit la, so sian..raining..so decided to stay home all day. reserve again online. then enxuan sms-ed me at abt 2 plus..asking me to go out wif her and shun bian look for a job. =/ do i need a job now? -shakes head- even tho i cant survive for long wif tht 20 bucks in my wallet rite now. WHO CARES?! =First 5 things i wanna do during my holidays:
1. PC games (fifa or football club manager? which is better huh?)
2. Shopping (clothes and a bag)
3. Watch movie (waiting for The Phantom of the Opera to be release!)
4. Rent DVDs to watch during Christmas (Mean Girls, 13 Going on 30 to name afew..ect.,)
5. Catch up wif friends if possible..in case those poly friens need to study..then nvm. find rp and jc friens..muahaha! =X


Friday, December 03, 2004
11:37 PM

Last day of sch todayyy!! wheeee!!..i noe my friens frm other polys whose reading tis rite now prolly feels like killing me (other polys shld be starting sch next week?)..BUT I DONT CARE! i cant hide my emotions anymoree! i wanna enjoy tis dec holidays! whoops! not forgetting i got some PP project to do. damnit. =/ most of my schmates are planning for an overseas holiday tis dec. =\ so lucky of them. i cant go bcoz of my mum. hmph.
'Pek cek'(frustrated) again today, but better than yesterday. i bet tht c********** guy is kiddg abt the WHOLE idea tht he went to Sg Idol Finals and he "claims" tht he went there and recorded the songs tht taufik sang. OH PLEASEEEEEE! its so obvious tht hes lying but noone notices it. if thts the case, i can also claim tht i went to the Finals coz i got the 3 songs tht sylvester sang tht day and one bonus of 'Thats Wad Friends are For' by the 11 idolists. HES SUCHA A FREAKING LIAR! I HATE LIARS! dont make me sick!
O well. Had debate for pharmacology lesson todae. =/ so freaking weird when we are supposed to act out a lawsuit. my side as the denfendant, supposed to be defending for the pharmaceutical firm for produces the drug thalidomide coz the victim got adverse effects of deformilities after taking tht. knowing frm the facts tht tis drug have nt even pass the toxicity test yet and we have to defend for tht firm. so obvious we cant win the case rite. yeah and of coz we didnt. @#!$
Haha then out of a sudden, donovan, in my team today asked me how i feel when sylvester didnt win. =/ so zha dao! -.- when i said i felt nth and i expected it. he, sophia and weixiong all so shocked, looked at me. gave me tht 'are u serious?' look. =/ reallyyy laaaa..why noone believe me??!! booo..
And today i noticed donovan's funnie way of drinking water. he took 2 straws and joined them tog like as tho hes drinking frm one long straw. at first i tot wad nonsense straw is tht..SO LONG wor. =/ then he explained to me tht by using tis method, he can reached the straw more easily w/o bending down. LOL!
Received an sms frm tht aus no. today. dunno who was it. hmmm?
Goin to KBox tmr!! i wanna sing my heart out. gonna sing all the sad and rock songs. its only then, i can release my emotions. =(


Thursday, December 02, 2004
11:34 PM

Sian Sian Sian! life sux to the max!! =/
Haven been blogging, problem now is i dunno where to start. ok. wadever. been thinking alot and i mean really ALOT! yeah. sometimes im wondering if i really think too much. =/
Owells..the first Sg Idol is taufik..actually i alrdy expected the result even b4 they announce. somehow i got tis strong intuition tellin me its him. so many pp i noe planned to vote for him and stuff, even when u heard wht the judges comment, its so blardy obvious. Sylvester juz got tht 'Clay Aiken' fate la. both came frm wild card and both came in as 1st runner up. Whats now? clay is even more popular than ruben. so here it shows sth, doesnt mean u win, u can last long in the industry. well. im not being biased or anything, im really happy for taufik. really really. but i juz got tht feeling tht taufik wont last long in tis industry..coz wad? he can only sing english songs..thts alrdy the minus pt for him alrdy. he cant be compared to those global acts like usher. there are juz too many gd r&b singers ard. for sure. at least sly can still venture into the chinese market. and really, i got tis feeling tht sly's gonna make it big tis time round. he got potential mann. x- factor! not saying tht taufik is not gd, he got vocals..but sad to say..to survive in tis kind of industry, luck is impt. the packaging..and the way u connect wif the audience..and ur fan base..are all impt. frm wad i see, sly has more of tht.
I've read todae's new paper juz nw, it says World Idol may be scrap off. wth rite? if its cfm tht World Idol is scrapped, i think it will be so unfair for taufik and fans. i dont think a mere 'Singapore Idol' title is tht great if we dont show it to the World.
Abt myself, i cant say much coz I juz got too much things bottling up, but i cant release them out thts the prob. sad to say tht. =( im feeling more and more 'pek cek'(frustrated) as time goes by. luckily i got my sis and sly's voice to keep me company nw. i got almost all the songs he sang in the competition! mostly are frm forums. thnx to those ppl who made tht mann. i got sly's version of 'i dream'! i find tht the song suits him so much..listen to the lyrics. i find it sad. the more i listen, the more i wanna cry =/ dont ask why. he sang too emotionally last nite. alot of ppl asking me to send them the song and they agreed tht sly's version is much nicer than taufik's, as in its really touching.
Tmr's my last day of class. i hope i wont feel as 'pek cek' as today! im tired..i feel like swearing. im sad. i wanna cry.

**listening to: Sylvester Sim - An Jing** ^^


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