Sunday, January 30, 2005
10:54 PM
This is my current blogsong for now, eminem's mockingbird, the best song of all compared to the rest of his songs in the 'Encore' album. it keeps me rawking recently. hardcore nice! =D cool shit! hahas..check tht out. love the lyrics lots.
Eminem - Mockingbird
Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me
Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream
[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright
It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment
[Chorus]
And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)
Saturday, January 29, 2005
12:01 PM
Met viki today at redhill station. i tot i was the one late, but hes even later -.- ok..i always got the fate of waiting for guys, except for slayer, hes forever SO EARLY! hahas. mayb hes not a guy..muahaha. im feeling mean! -evil laughter- Took mrt all the way to orchard. was talking and talking thru out the station tht we almost forgot our stop. hahahs. then i saw tis ang mo outside taka and commented to viki tht the ang mo was gd-lookin, but he told me he look like westlife! bahhh! hes soo much more better lookin than those guys in westlife la. ok. no offence. =P then finally we reached paragon and went to the second floor coz anne told us a clue abt metro having tis store wide ladies shoes sale so i tot she wld be there or sth. got it! im so smart! walked all the way to the shoes section and finally found anne..anne i almost cannot recognise u!! mayb u tied ur hair up. hahas..talkin abt hair..yeps im goin to cut my hair real soon, hoping for a hair make-over. im quite sick of long hair nowadays and thinkin abt new yr = new image. hahas..back to the topic, we saw anne and at first we wanted to give her a surprise by hiding somewhere but she saw me. damnit. hahas..im slow and if i nv hear wrongly, she said 'oh my gosh! hi.' hahas..so cute. oh did i juz said sth? owell..then we went to the cine foodcourt first coz anne seems busy. stuupid viki! he was complaining abt lookin at the ladies shoes juz nw. its a torture to him. hahas..then after eating, we went back to metro again but anne disappeared. @!# we left the building aftertht. due to the fact tht viki has prayer at 7, he went off earlier. i went to shop heeren and bot batches for my bag. wheee! i wanna collect them and beat nad's record, she got hundreds of them. goodness. hahas..=P stayed at hmv till 7 plus. theres tis 2 indian guys near my block's bus-stop. one of them was like 'woo babay!' at me. like wth larh! lame shit! tot it could be some baddie and i juz walked off like tht. hahas..
Im begining to like 'mockingbird' by eminem now. rawks my sox i tell u! i've been humming tis song and simple plan's 'welcome to my life' tis whole nite! argh! crapz..im goin to k-box tmr. all set! im happy.
Microbio test result was gd. hahas..did better than expected. finally the standard is back again. yeahs! =) got loads of stuff to do tmr. aint gotta kick in the head! ciaoz.
Friday, January 28, 2005
6:43 PM
Been wanting to update yesterday but sis was too obsessed in playing her yahoo games, guess my bloggin hafta wait. sheeshh.
Today is extremely creepy man, not bcoz i see ghost(choy lah! =P). its coz i bumped onto ziqiang and JY both outside sch today. ziqiang was at commonwealth mrt station wif his another frien. was on the phone then and someone waved at me. wahlau i tot who wave at me at first la! then at clementi, on the way back home, i saw JY wif his campmates or whoever. thts the first time i saw JY in uniform! lOlx! suddenly he look so smart wif tht uniform. thts weird to me! hahas! its all so creepy la! i wld haf bump onto more ppl if i stayed abit longer tht is. hahas.
Had this talk on TCM(Traditional Chinese Medicine) on wed. tot it wld be all so boring and cheena but i was wrong! i was enjoying the talk and din slp at all. kevin yap can be funnie and interesting! hahahs. TCM is so much more interesting than western medicine larh! im not kiddg! i got tis TCM journal to write later on..hafta hand in by monday. haven been checkin the mail to get the qn and now i cant access the damn sch mail. ahh! tht sux!
Went cck polyclinic wif enxuan yesterday. not to worry, we are not there coz im sick or shes sick. we are there to gather info for our FYP. FYP is juz ard the corner. haiz and i've yet to finish my PP. loads of stuff waiting for me to do. tis sux! then went shopping at lot 1 aftertht, went seiyu and saw some nice clothes.
Never judge ppl! tis morning, pengli actually brought tis avril poster wif him and said i can haf it! ahahas!..man. thts nice i tell u! yiming said shes gonna pass me and enxuan the Energy converse poster..hahs! im still waiting! lalas..
Rented tis series of hk show juz nw. starring Boy'z and Twins! wheee..i get all excited over them! the shopkeeper is nice, he actually rent to me at a cheaper price and for a longer time. isnt he nice? hahs..p/s: stuupid mel! stop sayin tht i seduce tht shopkeeper can! gonna stack u up on A PILE OF SHIT then u noe! =P hahahs! tis is so funnie! i cant imagine. shit mel! hahas..stop having tis 'Blue and Duncan Craze' can! dont u think they are abit paseh now? eh wait but i do like tht 'curtain falls' ringtone! bah.
Commercial Break: hihi everyone! im doin tis tiny little favour for a frien whos working at metro paragon. theres tis store wide sale for ladies shoes frm 28th to the 30th tis month. gals! if u all wan shoes, pls come down and haf a look. guys! dont ignore tis msg =P u all can accompany or ask ur gf to come down. btw its at 2nd floor paragon..metro. thnx!
Anne u muz be feeling so grateful to me coz i help u to advertise! hahas..im sucha gd frien rite!? ok. i juz need to boost my ego thts all. byebye everyone.!
Happy 18th Bday to Steph! ;)
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
6:53 PM
Sleepy.
I dl-ed a ringtone yesterday, 'he said are u gonna be my girl..bang bang bangs!' i juz love tis song. been asking ppl where they get their ringtones frm. finally, i got mine frm starhub webbie for 80cents/tone. seems like an ok price to me. its difficult to find FREE ringtones nowadays. well, u see im desperate for it.
Went New Year shopping during the weekends. did it in a spur..a really fast one. bot a shirt and a jeans. i like my shirt color, its BRIGHT pinkish! yeah. u'll hardly find me in such BRIGHT clothes so i tot of tryin sth new? not really enthusiastic abt Chinese New Year tis yr..except for the ang baos..hahas. like DUH! im gettin old =P mum did a major clean-up for my desk yesterday, dad helped to change the bulb in my room. seems like its MUCH MORE cleaner and brighter now. yays! hahas. im happy. delighted.
Had a immunology test tis morning and i guessed it wld be another killer. seems easy when u are doin it but after submiting and checking answers wif ppl, its a totally diff story! the whole class was complaining abt failing tis test. ahh..i dare not think abt it.
Lab was super boring today. did SDS-PAGE..almost fell aslp there. the experiment was so simple. yeah. and when everythings difficult, we will start to grumble. hard to pls us. bleahs..gotta do the lab report (abstract) by fri midnight, got loads of time to do it. hope i rmb. hehe =) my enterprise test deproved! hafta admit tht i din really study hard for it. enterprise is juz NOT my forte! TTS is sure gonna "target" at me tmr. freakk!
After class, went back wif Dr Girija. shes damn nice teacher! we were talkin abt rp moving to woodlands in jan 2005 and guess we hafta travel like siao, providing her. tis is shit sch! bahh..complained to her abt pharmacology, she advised tht we buy a textbook and read one chapter everyday, shld be able to catch up because its quite a dry subj. tot of sharing textbook wif enxuan if we were to buy tht is. one pharmacology textbook is not cheap man! its firthy expensive! shall see how. asked Dr Girija overseas uni better or local uni. damnit, she said overseas uni is better! coz we get to learn sth diff/new stuff there than in local uni. sheesh! frm wht she said, shes really influencing my mind on goin overseas. but then again, i dont think my parents wld wan me to go study overseas. damnit haiz. mayb i shld go work for 1 yr and decide wad i really wan to do. shldnt be goin uni straight. competition too strong. top 5% is not gonna me. i cant imagine myself. thts eww! =P
anne start work today! hahahs..i wonder how was it? she actually WORK at metro? hahas..pretty amazing why she chose to work there! gonna try my best to hop down to metro one of these days wif viki. hopefully. My throat has been playing tricks on me tis morning. hope its not gonna be another sore throat or cough. xy better drink more water now =)
Saturday, January 22, 2005
9:56 PM
Im tired. i dunno whether i've got enuff energy to type tis but yeah i'll try. Our sch bball girls won the MJCians! yay! unexpected tho. we outnumbered them but still, we won. heh..Well done bball girls! =)
Walked one big round at ngee ann poly today. hang ard at the outskirt of np only and i feel like dying. u can see the blisters on my feet! eww! arghh! weather's so HOT! esp when we are at the ICT department(btw thts the IT department) man! its hot! u can actually see me perspiring in my black sleeveless shirt! crapz!..but their open hse looks more like fun fair to me. hahas! loads of goodies given away there. ahh! got this goodie bag wif notebook which im in need now but too lazy to hop ard one of the shops to buy, Justea drink, a Hello Panda (choc flavour) and some crap flyers which i cant be bothered to read. Me and huimin went to get the free popcorn near the conventional hall. hahas..we are the typical Singaporean here. =P went to the cca booth(seems a tad too quiet there), conventional hall, business sch, their canteen(heard those chiobuS and yandaoS frm business sch like to chill over there), IT sch and the engineering sch..we din check out the Sch of Life Sciences, ahh..too tired to walk tht far! its located right inside np after i've seen the map juz nw. Thank Goodness! we went off aftertht.
Went orchard wif huimin aftertht, we went ard lookin for clothes, more of formal clothes i shld say? hahas! dunno whts wrong wif us la! i like tis 'Mango' grey denim jacket! hahas..thts not formal, i like it!
Im too tired to continue. i need slp nw! zzzz
Thursday, January 20, 2005
6:28 PM
Im listening to Pachelbel's Canon in D major(volin and celtic version). its so nice! it juz reminds me of the movie 'My Sassy Girl' i watched wif huimin and yuwen during our sec sch times, the leading actor actually played tis song for her gf in sch. aww! its juz so sweet and touching! the lead actor love his gf even tho she always "bullies" him in public (eh..doesnt mean im like tht!) its hilarious la! the show rawks! i watched it for 4 times alrdy! =D heh. Canon rawks la! i still prefer the piano version! hahas..doesnt mean the violin version sux, its still nice but i juz love piano more but i dont haf the chance to play..no $ to learn i guess? if only someone out there can play tis piece for me..i dont think who will ever wanna play it for me la..its juz a *dream on* thingy. lala land!
Thanks bran! if u do read my reply for ur tag, its solely meant for u and no matter wad happens later, ure still gonna be here..here.as in my heart. ilu. im ok now. dont worry yea! i noe u'll be there to support me all the way and i'll be here to support u too! all the best for all the tests! Gd to hear tht u've gotten into University of Melbourne! and like its Law and Commerce somemore(i can nv do tht..ure gd! i mean it!) im so proud of u man! =)) jiayou! p/s: pls eat ur meals regularly la can! pls pls..stop drinking coffee, its not gd for ur health. im naggy, who cares? =P
Our sch having bball match wif MJC nw! damnit. i really hope our sch can win them over but heard tht MJ is really gd even tho its a new sch. dont place high hopes, gonna be realistic. tis has become like my quote. hahas..gonna be realistic. heh..
Im goin to crash ngee ann poly open hse wif huimin on saturday. shes gonna be my tour guide! the last time we went to ngee ann tog is b4 she came to the sch and we almost got lost there la. no worries nw coz huimin shld noe the direction by now..i hope? yays! i cant wait for the day to come! then mayb we can go shopping aftertht coz im really choked-up wif stress and probs nowadays! argh! time to get some fresh air! mayb ask yuwen to join us for shopping since she doesnt even wanna go her own sch's open hse! weird huh? hahas! hope to get some nice goodie bags home. bahh..i sound like some auntie but nvm. =P
**listening to: Pachelbel's Canon in D major (violin and celtic version) all thanks to my sis, i found tis song on her com. damnit! i wan the piano version! tsk! =P
Sunday, January 16, 2005
10:59 PM
If He bring us through it, we gotta make it through because its for the better of our lives.
People believe in God. And only He noes whats goin to happen in the future, but whatever He put us thru is gonna be for our best. thnx esther for listening to me last night. im getting too whiny nowadays and thnx for those encouraging words and sms last nite, it really makes me feel so much confident nw =) Ppl, if u think tht things aint goin the way its supposed to be, think carefully. maybe God has his own reasons behind it? Life is always full of suprises, why not juz live it wif a little expectation and a little bit of anticipation? nobody said Life is a breeze.
My interest for religion has shot up. no idea why but today i borrowed books on religion. heh mayb its gd coz im always been interested in studying religions. why muz the gov scrap off Religious Studies in the early 1990s? and worse they replaced it wif Civics and Moral Ed..crap subj which requires us to lie to our teachers and suck up to score well. isnt tht against our moral? then why issit called Civic and Moral Education in the first place?
I feel gd now! im not tryin to boost coz i feel tht theres no point in dwelling the bad things tht happened b4. its not worth it. Life is short so we gotta Live our Life to the Fullest! yeahs..im feeling crappy now. heh..
Josh wrote me a second friendster testimonial today, guess hes feeling a tad too bored at home. busying rotting infront his com. thts y. JOSHUA WICKERIMASURIYA TAN! i wrote u a nice one back! hahahs..Im so happyyy!! Nathaniel ho replied my friendster msg!! =D =D and he gave me his msn too! but he asked me not to pass it ard and of coz i wont =) hees..i shld copy paste wad he wrote to me here next time. hehe..Nat rawks!
**Live Life to the Fullest**
Friday, January 14, 2005
7:26 PM
Im drained. Im tired. My brains cells are practically dead. bleahs..
Ended class late today. stuupid christina's lesson and tht dreadful pharmaco lesson can kill me! got hands-on experience on doin a program called pharmacokinetics simulation. dont think some of u noe whats tht, its a gd thing bcoz it sux man! somemore w/o the guys in our grp, we girls are practically gone case. i still dunno what the heck is goin on wif tht program. its so mathematical and i've nv touch maths for ages, the fact tht im not mathematically-inclined is alrdy bad enuff, the theory was ok tho. ahhhh! im tired larh! i cant THINK! christina and Dr Seow are really psychotic man! we hardly have lunch juz to get tht program done and like we ended cls late somemore. ridiculous huh?
Oh yahs! im not grping wif elton and guys for FYP anymore coz i think i hafta stick wif my own les groupie. hahah GIRL POWER SIMPLY RAWK! i love them!! hohoho..then broke the news to elton tis morning and he was like quite disappointed. ahhh..damn. i hate to disappoint ppl but well im really sorry man.
Sth frustrates me alot tis morning. came to class early tis morning coz i tot class's starting at 8am but its actually 8.30am..damn screwed! and like tommy were talking abt rp moving in to woodlands in Jan 2006. like wth! rp cheated my feelings! sch alrdy sux, and now they are telling me tht our batch is gonna move to woodlands and we are affected. i tot it shld be moving only after we graduate! damn! i got cheated for nuts! HARDCORE SHIT! (sounds like tiff huh? hahas!) and now, i cant imagine myself waking up in the morning at 5.30 and get out of the hse b4 7pm next yr. im sooo not gonna imagine! sheeshh! @!#!
Brandon called juz now..so glad he called. thnx! =) at least i noe hes fine now and i can relax! lalalas..then dunno wht happened, zach became the one talkin to me. crapz! i wanna talk to brandon!! sickening zach! so inconsiderate! i only talked to bran for barely 10 mins u noe and he came and interrupt us. grr..frustrated!
Heh and avril's coming to sg for concert!! hahahs! yay! im so gonna go for her concert on 2nd april..but of coz the cheapest larh -.- hahahs. i cant wait for them to sell the tix! ahhhh..=) avril rawks! \m/ =P
**Rawk with the Punk Girl!..Yeah!**
Thursday, January 13, 2005
7:53 PM
Love is like when ure in a battlefield.
First of all, i wanna apologise to slayer. well. really sorry i din noe ure waiting for my sms reply. yeah. damn sorry! next time..=P
Watched '13 goin on 30' last nite. i only studied for like 2 hrs plus yesterday? and im watching movie at night. lOlx! its not coz im freaking lazy or wad, its coz i really haf no freaking idea hw to go abt studying enterprise! problem lies wif the subj itself. well..'13 goin 30' is really a gd show! its sweet like honey =) and most imptly, matt has the charm. =P
Had class debate today. as usual when class starts debating, its neverending! =/ stood infront of the class for freaking 45mins!! damnit. its a tad too tiring! im getting weak..arghh!
Got my laptop bag today! yays! gonna return the money back to valerie tmr. hahhas..im filthy broke again! sheeshh..gonna stop myself frm smsing too much tis month. heh..
After class, went clementi to return '13 goin 30'..then saw weihar at redhill mrt station! shes my gd frien when it comes to the entertainment. hahahs..i shall say i can really gossip wif her alot. we can juz talk non-stop all the way i tell u! then the train came, revathi appeared right behind us and tapped my shoulder. omgosh! in juz half an hr, i saw her like TWICE! and like the 2nd time was outside sch somemore. then the three of us chit-chat all the way till i hafta alight. weihar is madness ok! coz shes the only one there who likes kevin yap! err..i've no idea coz i've nv taught by him and i wouldnt wan him to teach me either. even tho hes gd, hes juz too strict for my standard. bleahs..and like we almost got crushed by those sp students when we reached dover station. hahhas..dunno whts their prob. well, its so nice to catch up wif weihar and revathi again coz we hardly got time to see each other in sch. we are like no longer in the same cls! haiz. damnit. tht nostalgic feeling is coming back! ahhh..okay! i hafta stopp..hahas.
I wonder hw bran is doin right now. am really worried for him coz he seems to be really down the last time i talked to him, really hope hes fine now! like i asked zach yesterday to help me keep a lookout for him, but stuupid zach took ages to reply. -.- and told me tht brandon din come to sch. heh bran! if ure reading tis, pls tag my board to tell me if ure okay. dont make me worry for u anymore and be strong yea! =)
**HARDCORE! THE WORD RULEZ! =)**
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
8:55 PM
Had a really long day. hais. got enterprise class today. freaking busy!..had tis assignment for us to hunt for real entrepreneur again, some interview shit -.- why muz we do tis everytime?! so sick and tired of seeking my mentor's help. coz hes an entrepreneur and i can easily talk to him like hes my dad, so i got no choice but to ask him for help. but im sick of his excuses: 'no time leh..after lunch can?' -.- i hate tis kind of typing! i'll get freaked out! u can give me 'lah', 'lor' or anything, juz dont give me 'leh'! i've no idea why also. *shrugs* i went ard smsing ppl to get help and luckily i got hold of Dr Tam. wheeeee..brilliant! =D hes nice =D
Pharmaco test...f-up is the word! i noe what the qn is asking but i dont hav the time to finish so many qns in half an hr! damn freakk..pengli showed me wad he wrote after the test ended, was pretty shocked tht i dont freaking understand what he wrote on tht fill in blanks part. i saw 'tsunami' and 'fajdkks'! as ans -> wth! is tis pharmacology!? lOlx! ah well. at least i wrote sth thts related? so gonna hope i can do well. lalas..=P
After test, went straight to the next class for lesson, saw elton...he said he wanted to work wif me for FYP! OH damnit! more headaches to come im sure..hahhahs. finally noticed joshua today. he was standing rite infront of class larh and wif tht weird dressing? ah..shldnt comment on anything. =X i dont understand why he always can see me but i cant(but tis time i did ok!) lOlx.
My dear called last nite. unexpected tho. its nice to talk to u too ^^ we talked abt stuff..yeah. felt sad for his senior who broke up his gf, yeah..and somemore i noe both of them. so yea..pretty shocking. i hope his senior can really see thru the light and move on. ns really sux. i noe hw it feels when my frien's bf hafta face the reality of entering ns. its not fun at all and i wldnt wan to see bran goin in coz i'll prolly be missing him so badly. call me a fool i dont care. thts juz me. oh and we talked abt childhood games. ah! dunno why he can still rmb some of the games but i dont and even some i've nv heard b4! retarded me. bleahs.
yeps! brandon, i juz wan u to cheer up coz i noe sth's bothering u nw. pls pls dont stressed urself anymore! there are ppl who care for u and i'll be here for u i promise. =) lalalas! =D
Monday, January 10, 2005
9:17 PM
I find tis really funnie..LOL! LOL! finally i found sth today tht can make go Laugh Out Loud! hahaha..laugh till i drop seriously. hahaha..okok i shldnt be so mean to tht person since he make me laugh! =X my depression got cured by u..sinseh ******! u asked me not to exposed ur name..damnit, u pray hard tht nobody can guess correctly. hahaha..=X finished laughing, gonna laugh more later. =X -evil grin-
Well well..gonna share tis to everyone reading my blog now. i find tis pretty nice and meaningful actually. tht person think i dunno its frm one of the songs in jay's album? oright. here we go...
If breaking up can be said to be the starting point of pain.
Then before the final destination point, I’m willing to love once again.
I want to tell you, the love that I dare not express.
Will anyone be able to understand?
I will be staring off into space, then I will forget you.
And then tightly close my eyes,
Thinking about that day, when there will be someone who’ll take your place.
So that I will not think about you anymore.
I will be staring off into space, then I will break into a smile.
And then tightly close my eyes,
Thinking once again, your tender face..
Before I forget...
Yeps..so nice rite? thnx for translating! =P tho its funnie. lOlx! but apparently tht person who translate tis doesnt wanna admit its by him huh? xiao hai zi jiang pian hua shi bu hao de! =X
11:06 AM
Im feeling sad and jaded. i dunno why. it seems to be coming back. prolly tis is due to my pms season or it could be me having hormones imbalance. =/ i dont see any light or guidance now. nobody seems to care. is tht whats life is all abt? seen josh's blog recently and frm wad he wrote on his blog, i can really relate to it now. perhaps, thts life huh? speaking of josh, i haven been saying hi to him in sch even tho hes juz walking rite infront of me and perhaps waiting for me to say hi..but i didnt really take notice tht hes infront of me until he past me by. its alrdy the 2nd time or even the 3rd time. =/ think i need a pair of specks now huh?.
That person has not been calling the past 3 daes..i haf no idea wad hes doin. prolly hes busy? ah well..i shld say tis is gonna be the 4th day coz im not supposed to talk on the phone every mondays. nvm.. anyway i feel like everythings so numb to me now. tryin to put a facade infront of ppl..try not to let others noe tht im unhappy, try to smile and laugh things off wif my friens like as if nth happened. apparently some ppl who noes tht im upset abt some stuff have fcuking low EQ! thts the prob wif ppl! they NOE tht ure friggin upset abt sth and YET they haf such LOW EQ! tht they hafta tell u tht they are like so damn happy on tht day. do u see the light here? some ppl juz dont friggin understand tis simple logic here. why cant they juz shuddup and leave ppl alone! i need someone to cheer me up but not in tis kind of manner. its not like they dunno im upset over sth. THEY FRIGGIN NOE! i am getting tired. here i am, tryin to master the art of the 'boh chap' (dont care) attitude.
Got another f-up test tmr. heard tht the pharmaco test is gonna be a tough one. damnit man. im so gonna wish everyone whos takin the test tmr the best of luck. hafta to by hook or by crook get all the facts all store inside our heads. well so far, 3/4 of of the studying is done. am gonna finished my last disc of 'white chicks' by today as well.
P/S: i wont be replyin smses for today, so dont waste ur time msg-ing me or call me on my hp. coz most prolly i cant really be bothered to reply. thnx!
Saturday, January 08, 2005
4:01 PM
Orights..one week passed juz like tht, next week onwards is gonna be quite hectic..2 tests each week. terrible! gotta relax and study hard both at the same time. sorry huimin, i cant go out today bcoz of tests and gotta finish up a vcd today. owells..i hope i can crash np during their open hse..hopefully larh! i miss orientation days, esp sec sch. totally rawks!..glennie told me they got talentime yesterday at fmss. hahas..so funnie larh the way he put it. acjc got some campfire last nite..got some dance and stuff. haven heard frm brandon yet. i think he shld be having quite alot of fun over there.
i miss the days when we wear uniform to sch! @!#@ feels so nostalgic now! getting old. bleahs. those in jc and sec sch now, pls feel fortunate. life isnt the same when u reach poly and uni.
I love Simple Plan's 'Perfect World'(the song thts playing on my blog now). somehow the rhythmn's abit diff frm the rest of their songs. more rockish! their songs are normally so punk tht i get very sick easily. is there such a word as 'rockish'? hahs..the song lyrics is kinda demoralizing tho. do take note. =P
Simple Plan - Perfect World
I never could have seen this far
I never could have seen this coming
It seems like my world's falling apart
Why is everything so hard?
I don't think that I can deal
With the things you said
It just won't go away
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I can just pick up the pieces
But to you this means nothing
Nothing at all
I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it throught
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can't let go
I just can't find my way
Without you I just can't find my way
I don't know what I should do now
I don't know where I should go
I'm still here waiting for you
I'm lost when you're not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can't let you go
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I can just pick up the pieces
But to you this means nothing
Nothing at all
You feel nothing
Nothing at all
Thursday, January 06, 2005
6:08 PM
I realized tht my blogging spirit is back. lalala..yeah. been very lazy sometimes. i only blog when i feel like it and i think theres a need to jot down sth i feel tht its neccessary. its a form of communicating too. i dont really care if ppl really reads it or not. its my blog! but pls tag coz if not it will get rusty =X thnx..hhahas =P
Heard alot frm friens abt their first 3 months jc course. their OG and stuff. so far i heard rjc got a better OG. as in the ppl over there aint tht hostile to u if ure not frm rgs or ri. acjc quite fun as well. nad din really enjoy cjc. well. i found out sth. my friens who went to cjc like to complain abt the environment there. jennifer once was in there but she chose to transfer out of cjc and went over to pjc. she told ppl tht she dont like the girls over there or sth like tht. but heard rjc is incredibly fun! i dunno abt other jcs but i heard the chinese high guys were like yellow monkeys, as in they dyed their hair like nobody's biz. lOlx! tiff said she was shocked. yeah. i am too..
Got a "new" classmate today. call him A larh k. quite a nice chap even tho he got a 'bad boy' look. lOlx! he happened to be in my groupie today. hahhas..heard he dont usually come to class and yet can score very well for tests. whao! i wish i can be half like him. dumb ppl like me hafta study very hard =( hahahs..yiming, chris, enxuan and i were making chaos early in the morn coz we dont dare to ask A for msn. yiming think we shldnt leave him out in the groupie, but stewpig chris dowanna ask. i tot guy and guy easier to start a conversation? and somemore he sat beside him today. stupid lorh! then A initiated to talk to chris first and they both exchanged msn finally. dont really dare to speak to A at first coz he look abit dao =X so was shocked tht he talked to me abt work first. he gave me the impression like i noe whats goin to today's work but seriously i think he noe more than me. =/ b4 i left the class wif enxuan, he even said bye and smiled. after being in the same groupie wif A for today, i realized tht hes aint tht dao afterall. i got scared for no reason. hahs! =P
Got pharmacology class tmr. well. another day of torturing. sux like crapz! booooooo...
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
4:09 PM
Aint feeling tht sick anymore but still can still feel abit of cramp inside my stomach. luckily i've no class today. stomach cramp since yesterday until really cannot walk..cant even sing also =(
Damn paranoid recently. damn fcuk-up bcoz of some personal probs, cant really say it here coz its the World Wide Web. everybody can see. but im gonna pray tht everything will be ok and gonna enjoy my Chinese New Year tis month. Yesterday's entry is really depressing, aint gonna let it affect me anymore.
Thnx mel..ur words kinda make me smile yesterday. really..ure being such a sweetie. yeps! =) Thnx iylia for reminding me abt my piority for tis month, im behaving like some biatch yesterday and im not being 'me'. so yeaps.
Been listening to avril lavigne's songs yesterday. feeling much better ever since then. her songs can rawk my world. totally rawks man! dunno why i can juz relate really well wif her songs.
Someone make me really pissed last nite. really pissed tht i complained to ie wern and iylia. am i such a burden? i wonder. i still dont noe whts zach's intention of snapping back at me when im trying to be nice to him last nite. it doesnt matter anymore i guessed. thnx for apologizing to me at 1am plus and asking brandon to ask if im ok or not. i accepted tht. but things tht said cannot be unsaid. i hope zach's mum will be okay coz shes now in icu and im really worried for his mum's condition. prayed for his mum tis morning. yeps everythings gonna be alright,hope for best. he has gotta be strong somehow.
**listening to: Ryan Cabrera - On The Way Down (rawks my sox!)**
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
1:29 AM
Had my test...very impt test for me coz i cant afford to juz get a passing grade like the previous test. tough competition tis time round! argh. damnit man..first thing to score well in rp's test: concentrate and read qn b4 the tests and make sure tht the facts are well driven inside the head, NO DAYDREAMING during the test..cant afford to. how shit was tht? and test happens to start early in the morning and yet gave us only 30 mins to finish like 5 MCQs and 3 essays...thts crapz! the first 5 mins of the test, i was really panick-stricken coz im still in my concussed state, brain not fully processed. but for the sake of my grades, sheeshh..and so much for ppl in believing in me..i hafta do it. xy hafta to stay focused! i muz! then dunno wht happened to me then, i started concentrating on doin the qns. yeah tho the MCQs seems tricky, but the essays wont tht difficult..shld be able to get better grade tis time round. i hope so. *prays hard*
I wanna thank a special someone who juz got back frm overseas..The One and Only tht im missing right now. thankew for being so understanding and willing to give me tis month's time to concentrate on my studies. I really feel so hurt when i hafta tell him the one month thingy and at the same time im deeply-touched by him, he agreed to give me the time to study. aww..tis month is really a dreadful month for me. i hate it. =( i hate it when i cant talk to him. im being such a crybaby nowadays and i hate it. im breakin apart :'(
U asked me to block u away frm my mind, i've tried...but i simply cant. i cant do it and i dowan to. sorry. dont make me do tis. Thnx for calling last nite to say 'Gd Luck for my papers'..im touched but the only thing i can say its only a thankew. i feel so dumb. i wanna tell u hw much i wanna talk to u but i cant, hafta go study. ugh! im now only hoping for the days tht i can talk to u again. damn i feel so retarded. *sigh* im not lookin forward to mondays and wednesdays anymore.
Iylia - sorry for buggin u last nite. i noe i kept mentioning his name to u last nite..ahh..i juz cant help it ok! i juz cant get him out of my mind. freakos..help! call 995..=X ahahas. and yeah u also better study hard too..u better! =P i'll try to help ur chem..ahahas ^^ I TRY! =P
**i miss brandon**
Yellowcard - Only One
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reasonI feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only oneI let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only oneI let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
Sunday, January 02, 2005
4:19 PM
Read these frm Teens mag..gonna share these to u ppl, these includes some of my comments beside it. heh..School Sux! bleah..
Best Things About School:
- Making friends wif ppl frm all walks of life.
- Learning new stuff - much as u prolly think most of what u learn is useless, there will be stuff tht will come in handy in the future. -> i hope so =/
- Having holidays - holidays are non-existence when ure not a student; -> yeah..thts so true man.
- Studying for juz half a day and goin back to space out at home. -> HALF-DAY??! u mean theres such a thing in RP??! zzz..
- Cheap food - where else can u get a bowl of noodles for over a dollar. -> i tot thts only for pri. sch?! lOlx! okay nvm..my sch sells a bowl of noodles for $2/$3, yet the food sux. lets go orchard for lunch! =X
Worse Things About School:
- Waking up early in the morning to push and shove wif ppl on the bus to make sure ure not late for sch. -> thts the reason why i happened to late =)
- Having to tolerate those idiots u cant stand in class for a whole year. -> YEAH! 110% true! but not one whole yr lar..but juz as bad!
- The homework tht comes wif learning new stuff in sch. -> yar! sux! esp when u learn by ur own.
- The fact tht the start of sch means end of the holidays. -> like DUH!! =/
- Psychotic teachers tht love to torture u with homework, nonsensical demands. -> it always happens in my sch's Problem-Based Learning(PBL).
I juz realized tht they din include TESTS AND EXAMS! how can!! ok..IT MUZ BE INCLUDED! right..i noe i got tonnes and tonnes of tests coming later on. yep..juz went thru the dates of my tests last nite. its crap! argh! i hope i can manage my studies. schwork getting harder and not mentioning my class's smart asses. they are freaks! okay. gotta go try and study later. ahhh..
