Thursday, June 30, 2005
6:36 PM
UPDATE!Im currently suffering frm tis 'madness infectious disease'. hahas. i think somehow it has got sth to do wif my J-pop craze recently. crazied! loves laughing non-stop at my mistakes made, like its a gd thing. lolx! im obsessed wif bad BOYS nowadays. bad boys can be preety attractive sometimes i guessed? i think if i keep on having tis kind of obsession towards bad BOYS and i dont kick them sooner, ull prolly see me goin 'jie-di-lian'(brother-sister relationship) one day, trust me. but i think im more like contradicting myself wif my past 'anti-jie-di-lian' slogan. HA..wadever.
(p/s: rmb i stated BOYS! not guy or man. LOL!)
Zhutuo called me at 8pm yesterday juz to ask me out. he admit tht he wanted to see me but he at the same time wanna intro me his so-called shuai ge frien. lolx! madness! prolly he thinks by saying tht, i'd go but nahz. rejected. im not some despo. hahas. my gay nonsense annoyed him coz i said too loud on the phone. LOL! jk. but tht zhutuo kept making me wanna laugh on the phone but i was controlling myself half the time. =X too bad hes goin back aus tis sat/sun, if not wld haf set a time to go out wif him during the weekends. we hafta wait for his next hol, hopefully ill be free-er by then. ill try to miss him when he returns to aus if possible since hes so nice to put up wif my nonsense half the time. HA..thanks dude! =)
I've been trying to look out for blogskins the past two days but i gather nth frm tht blogskin webbie. nth interesting up there, juz duplicatin more and more boring skins for me and those cant really match up to my current one. but hopefully ill find one thts nice soon. getting quite sick wif tis design alrdy.
Im glued to watching tis season's Smallville. currently watching the last 4 episode of the show and its a rock! 2 thumbs up for the show!
Ciaoz now!
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
8:22 PM
Im back frm sch. its the second day since sch starts. and how time flies, june is almost coming to end soon and guess wad? i haven really enjoyed my hols and in fact, its the worse ever june hols i had in my entire life. it aint getting better now coz it seems like i still hafta go back to sch even tho i do not haf any lesson on tht day, juz for the sake of my final yr proj. i got no life man which sucks! i used to go town at least once a week but now i dont even haf a fcuking time to even sit down, read a book. my Jeffrey Deaver book is practically rotting at one corner. sigh! lets not probe abt it orights. i believe it'll soon be over. My first med microb test grade was horrendous! i cant believe its worse than my proteomics but i did study! wahlau..i really dunno whts wrong wif my brain nowadays! i think im getting stupider as time goes by..sad case isnt it?
Theres sth gd abt sch even tho attending classes and proj indeed sucks! gd things like meeting friens and him. =) took the same bus wif him to sch and back home and b4 tht, me and babyface saw him by coincidence at the canteen(fated bah..lolx!) and babyface kept making me so paiseh(shes really gd at tht man.lolx!). but sad thing is tht i cant usually haf the chance to meet him everyday coz we aint studying in the same building..sucks! urgh.
Absence does make the heart GREW fonder! =)
I realized i cant really sit wif Viki in class coz hes fricking irritating and noisy! =p keep distracting me frm my work! wth! he said he'll automatically turn noisy when sitting beside me. really make me seem like some noise-activator rite? hmph! lolx! anyway, thanks pal for lending me ur camera phone juz nw. hahas. need to take pics of my current toot hair! thanks Kaiyie, u made a better photographer than Viki seriously! hahas =p
HANSEN IS A DA ZHUTUO(BIG PIGGIE'S HEAD)! HAHAS!
Saturday, June 25, 2005
6:51 PM
Hi, i've got only 8 mins to blog so no fanciful stuff i promised. simplicity is the best. I disliked ppl who pretends to be someone, somewhat like a poser. i hate to suspect anything abt them but somehow its coming back again. i hate to think abt stuff tht pisses me off (like who dont. duh) okays, i hate tis..a frien i trusted so much hafta lie to us. are we tht insignificant to u? im disappointed. im tired of lies.
Thanks christine for helping me tis afternoon. somehow wad u said makes alot of sense to me. Thanks sweetie! =)
I told my sister abt the incident i had wif Justin and my frien tht day and we both were damn amused by tht. the more we looked at Justin, the more we felt like laughing, esp myself. LOL!
Crashed NUS wif my sis yesterday. sucks! its long vacation for them at tis time so din really see lots of peeps there hanging ard and of coz no cute guys. ahahas! but how shall i comment on those peeps i saw over at NUS? most of them are wif specks. muggers i presume and so unlike RP. NUS campus is whole lot bigger pls! trust me on tht. juz like the size of 3 polytechnics merged tog or even bigger than tht. tried the Wanton mee and Jap food at the Arts canteen, its so damn yummy ok. much yummier than RP of coz. even tho im not a student of NUS, i felt much like ima student there. i told my sister tht RP is not the case, u go there and u realized ure more like loitering in the sch than a place for studying. thts the difference! hopefully when RP moves to Woodlands, ill feel much more like a student there and better quality of the food there pls!
I think i rant alot in tis entry but who cares! isnt tis my blog? 2 more days to sch. boring!
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
6:53 PM
Im so happy today. Yayness! words cant fully describe how i feel and i dont even noe wht makes me so happy. bahh.I lOVE NEWS!
I wan Uchi to be my elder bro, Tegoshi to be my younger bro, Massu to be my buddy/gdfriend and Kusano to be my bf!! hahahs..*imagines* i so love tis combination man! wheee!!! im much in dreamland as u guys can see. ha..
Fetched crapster all the way frm Commonwealth station to the nearest mac hse tis morning. din noe Justin was walking behind me the whole time until i met crapster there and i U-turned, he was right behind me. it was so weird lahs! we both lookin at each other -_- then Crapster said Justin looked embarassed. i dunno if its true bcoz i dont really care and i dont feel like thinking further either. i only noe tht he has tis real weird and awkward body lang there when he saw me, e.g., covering his mouth wif his hand. ok mayb hes yawning? haiyaa! i dunno lahs!! wadeverr! and im not supposed to care, am i? then we met babyface at the mac hse. spent alot of time on eating and crapping. hahas. the slackers! =p afterwhich, they came over to my hse. was video-watching and photo-seeing half the time anyway, then back to doin our proj. in fact, we did slack alot today. hahas. and tmr's another day to spent it at my hse again. ;P
I saw my Sec 1 maths teacher, Mr Lai at RP yesterday. cldnt really recognized him at some point actually until i kept recalling and realized its him. Felt abit bad actually bcoz i think he recognizes me frm the way he kept lookin at me and stupid me din went up to him and say hi! arghh! if only hes not talking to yiwen, i wld haf gone up to him! i think i muz haf been such a poor maths student tht he still recognizes till now bah, 6 years alrdy. not bad huh? =S
In the Morning by The Coral is nice. catchy tune. The first time i heard was when Shan played it on air and i so love it. and it can kinda make me think of him too. maha! =X
**Listening to: Linkin Park - Crawling In My Skin**
Monday, June 20, 2005
1:35 PM
Didnt got called-up for proj today. heng ah! was thinking of goin orchard later..bahh. but i think i'll haf proj almost everyday, starting frm tmr. arghhh! hate tis! wad kind of hols is tis??! f-up man!The weekends was quite ok. met up wif steph on sat, at CCK station..was wearing like goin for tennis but dont really care abt the attire. anyway, its the cap tht made me look like as tho im goin for tennis. maha! went to Lot1. lunch. then K-box. luckily i did booked a room earlier if not we can only sing till 5 which wld be so not worth it. met alot of ah bengs along the way. so unlucky! haiyo! AH BENG JUZ SUCKS LAHS! esp those who act like one and thinks tht its so cool like tht. fcuktard idiots! was quite fun singing wif steph. she forced me to sing Barbie Girl, took turns to become Barbie and Ken each. baha! =X then her britney and F4 songs...zzz! jerry yen not shuai lahs! my leehom more shuaiii lorhs. awww! baha! =X then we sing till almost 8 and went home each.
Went K-ster wif my family yesterday. as Father's Day celebration. sing again -_-|| but tis time at another location. was ok but i hate to click the mouse to choose the songs i wan, the cursor is so retarded!
Yeah. I miss him, my eye-candy. alot. =( as expected.
Friday, June 17, 2005
11:16 PM
Im tired and slpy and my eyes are hurting me. ouch! im sick of tis life, i juz wanna screammm! i hate projs! damn all projs! i wonder how ppl survive their final yr proj! are they human beings? damnit. Spent my donkey time at Jurong East today. was having proj meeting wif crap and babyface tis morning at the JE lib..the JC students were surrounding our table and seats. but at ard 2plus, we got chased out by the security bcoz they said the self-study period was over!! hello! security uncle OPEN ur eyes WIDE! we aint even studying! we are only doin our proj!! issit even wrong to do tht in the lib? =S wadevers. then we hafta shift over to the entertainment centre and sloth at the macs. babyface went to the airport leaving us..was initially quite sian but dunno wht happened we started talking abt guys and gals, crappy sch ppl and nonsense, we started laughing. hahas. it really perks us up frm our stressful proj. stayed there until 7plus and went to This Fashion. ah lian stuff! i really admit im quite sick of their stuff. im more for Zara! wahaha..but im poor! =(
After today, i really having tots on getting MY OWN sa shirt! 'Once a Saint, Always a Saint'. its so freaking zaiii and then afterwhich i can be their poser, i can wear it to pose as a student frm sa..how cool is tht huh! ;p
Hahas. and so happy tht i cld actually SnAtCh kc's laopos away frm him! hahas! my Lexus and Merc! wooohooo..
I juz called K-box juz now and i bet the girl might think i ASKED TOO MUCH. but at least shes quite patient wif me thruout the whole convo.
Okays, im outta of here. K-Box tmr! seeyous!
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
7:16 PM
Its been eons since i updated my blog. spiderwebs or cobwebs forming at my blog. but wadever it is, im updating now so tht i hear no complains frm ppl. i wanted to blog long ago but was bogged down by the flu bug! the flu is killing me!! 38 degrees celsius fever last nite and practically used up one whole box of tissue in one day. im still not seeing any doc yet, how cool is tht! i hope i recover fast and then i can go sing wif steph on sat. Iylia juz gotten back home yesterday.
Iylia: yups saw tht entry on ur blog, im so sorry i wldnt be able to scream bcoz of my horrible throat and fever yea? but at least u noe im happy tht ure back safely. lolx! such a pity tht ure not coming wif us tis sat, hopefully someday yea? take care of ur stomach pls.
Melissa went off for hols wif her whole family yesterday. i so gonna miss tis self-proclaimed "my lover", MEL! come back fast and we can bitch more orights! =)
One week of hols gone juz like tht. tis week will be emphasizing more on FYP. argh! its gaves me nightmares whenever i think of the amt of work and effort i need to put in in tis proj. i need more self-discipline. God pls help me thru!! =(
I think thts all for wad i can think rite now. kinda brain-blocked. i think it muz be the fever last nite tht heated up my whole brain system. and somebody pls tell me wad happened to tis blogskin!! i cant even see tht pic at the side! no wonder martin no longer tags, i noe the reason now =X i hope i can find a better skin to replace tis? hopefully i got the time. but i still like tis skin =( bahh..
Friday, June 10, 2005
3:52 PM
Happy birthday anne!! enjoy ur special day and may all ur wishes come true! =)Caught up abit wif tiffy yesterday. had 'major' rantings thru out our whole conversation. juz realized after talking to her, i felt much more relieved bcoz at least someone i noe are goin thru stuff which are similar to me. at least someone for me to share thots wif, at least i noe im not alone. =) we are SO similar in some ways, somehow our names are Tan Xue sth.. and somehow or rather our backgrd has sth to do wif DANCE even tho im not as enthu as her abt DANCE! hahas. and both of us are both science student. she takes science but dont plan to be a doc and me? i take science but dont plan to further my studies in science! i guess passion dies off! i've been studying for nth! thanks tiffy for talking to me. somehow u've driven me to study also! i hope ull haf tht drive to mug today yea! catch up wif u again! =)
Watched the 2-hrs TV premiere of LOST last nite. i do find the actors in the show HOT, esp Ian Somerhalder(Boone) but tho he looks abit 'extra' in the show. Matthew Fox(Jack) looks charming there..well, he is. LOST! freaking watchable! catch it.
Thursday, June 09, 2005
2:49 PM
Haf been busy the past few days tht i've forgotten abt blogging. so sorry to let my blog rust for four entire days. but at least my tagboard is still alive and rmb i do check my tag msges everyday, so do come and havoc sometimes. -grin- To sum up shit wad i did the past few days:
bits and pieces of literature research and related stuff on my fyp subj. the resources on the web haf nv been of much use to me. most of em i read, i throw. thts hw "useful" online resources are. now i understand hw KC felt when he was researching for his GP debating topic few weeks ago. =S and i dont even noe hw to go abt book searching in the lib. feeling so disorientated. so much things to do but i dunnoe where to start. and great, my presentation's next month. i dare not imagine. argh!
Went for a Great Singapore Sale shopping yesterday wif my sis. i hafta say yesterday was such a fruitful day for us. bot lots of stuff home and mainly clothes. my sis was the champ for buying clothes. hahas. went pastamania and had my SPICY CHICKEN SPAGHETTI! yummie! i so love the taste of the chilli and tomato sauce on my pasta can! hahas. aftertht, we went across the road to heeren. it was SO difficult to even find Matchbox Twenty's concert DVD! we gave up and went to Taka and Wisma. Bot preetay clothes at Mango and Zara. my sis made sure i bot tht clothes frm Mango bcoz it was so nice and sweet. then went Aries to buy my hairclips and hairband. hahahs. i think Crapster haf TOO much influence on me tht i've becoming like a shopping robot running ard. lolx. we went Borders too and surprisingly, i saw my sec sch frien. Keng Beng! and for once my eyes werent attach wif any stamps, so i recognized him at some point. KB and me each exchanged funnie looks wif one another then i called out his name but the 'STM him' cant even recall my name! but anyway it was damn drama at tht point! he said i changed abit but still recognizable. so is he! no longer the KB we used to bully him back during sec2, felt so bad lor..those guys in our class was really mischievious at tht time. then we talked for awhile but we din exchange numbers, i only gave him my number then we walked off. i was too lazy to even take out my phone. hahas.
Im maybe going sch crashing tis week or the next. hopefully i haf the chance to step into NUS and SAJC or either one of `em tis month and nth clashes wif my plans! i hope its more like a cfm thingy! hehheh..lumdeedump! =D
XY OUT!
Sunday, June 05, 2005
3:13 PM
Im turning Dark Side. I feel Fear and Anger in me. Im Darth XY. Xuenakin Skywalker. I guessed ppl do come to a point when they are trying to help but in turn, they screwed things up instead, its my FIRST TIME and it hurts to see things get screwed up bcoz of me. i fear. im paranoid and pissed at the same time for wadsoever reasons im not telling. im goin to withdraw myself frm being such a busybody next time. i shall learn to be more self-centred and egoist.
Went Great World City yesterday to watch Star Wars, its such great movie. even tho i noe hw the ending wld be like even b4 i watch the show, but half the time i watched the show wif a real heavy heart, fricking sad to see Anakin turned Dark side. its like wad they say in hokkien, very gek sim! wad makes my heart choke more is when Anakin Skywalker isnt exactly tht bad in the first place. in fact, he was juz being confused abt things, and tht he wanted to save his loved ones frm dying and lastly, for trusting someone wrongly initially which started wif all those shit. he felt remorseful but were left wif no other choices. the part he got burned breaks my heart even more. aww! so sad! i think Hayden Christensen portrays the character quite well, esp when his eyes were filled wif fear and anger, his killer stare. so <3 him!
Watched Star Wars Episode 4 and 5 after my sis and i went home after window shopping. Gonna watch episode 6,'Return of the Jedi' later on. continuation. =D
Went Crystal Jade for lunch and window shopped at Zara, Levis store, G2000 and U2. Saw madelyn working there at Zara. speaking of Zara, im gonna get their skirt. its so prettay! ah, tht wld be on my wishlist nw. =)
Good Charlotte coming down Singapore for concert. Cheapest is abt 69 bucks! its fricking more ex than Simple Plan's! wth..i wanna watch them perform and most importantly, i wanna see Joel Madden sing! when wld tht be? sigh.
Friday, June 03, 2005
2:15 PM
cool, aint he? <33
2:12 PM
look at me baby.
2:11 PM
cutie =)
2:10 PM
my kind of guy. <33
11:58 AM
Pon tis morning's lesson and here i am slacking at the lib wif babyface. im having a real bad stomachache now and its killing me. arghh. why do i haf stomachache at such a bad timing!Quite a number of peeps pon yesterday for the IT Fair. pengli said he cld get me anything, juz give him a buzz or sth. nice dude huh? but too bad, i aint the geeky sort of person tht goes hunting for IT-related stuff. im so clueless abt them in fact. aha. anyway, hope he still had some fun working over there, selling NEC laptops! poor thing! =p
Yesterday was quite fun after sch as me, crapster and kathy stayed over in sch till nearly 7pm. watching a concert video on tis 'jap pop' band called 'NEWS'. whoa! my kusano is so cool! boy! i heart him. and we were so craze over them yesterday, laughing and screaming in crapster class like theres no tmr but too bad kathy hafta go b4 us. but thnx guys for giving me the fun anyway. its stress-relieving after a long day.
My eye candy and bad boy. <33 !
Met him juz nw and took the same bus to sch. yayness! happiness! exhilarating!
Mayb u aint the best among all the ppl i noe or even the nicest person in the whole wide world. But, i've overlooked tht, ur imperfection. Nobody's perfect. i juz like u.
'break it down i'll tell you wad i feel,
frm the moment i met you its been so damn real.
my heart seems to be skipping another beat,
everytime we speak can you believe i feel so weak.'
(Natalie - Goin' Crazy)
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
4:29 PM
Happy belated birthday to tiff! =) haf fun in camp yea! -waves- hahas..Im currently Shannified and Howardified. I woof Shan and Howard but i love Shan more! hahas. cant wait to hear him on radio tis month, heard so tht he wld be on radio tis month. i wanna call-in! baha! =p p10 radio so damn rawk!
Thank God, i met him at tis same place yesterday as when i met him on monday. =)) almost cldnt recognise him at some point until crapster pinpointed to me, he was wearing tis cap yesterday and ya like i said, i need to check for my eyesight. i almost cldnt believe tht it was him. best rite? doesnt really look 'HIM' but nevertheless, he still look gd and i meant it of coz. =) Cheers!
It was FOS yesterday as i really cannot focus in class proper! my mind practically wasnt in the right state of doin work at all or shall i say my mind practically blew off once the tests were all over for me. i swear tht i nv felt tis clueless and LOST b4! sigh. damnit. thnx to kaiyie, viki, meijia and hanlei for explaining, helping and guiding me wif stuff man. my team-members are preety rawkin' classmates yea. =)
Then went for the fyp meeting after class wif our fyp in-charge a.k.a PI and Co-PI of tis topic tht we are doin. i was really brain-blocked all the way. and was so frustrated wif our PI and Co-PI. Omgosh! i miss kamani can! shes so much better than than genevieve! why muz she leave rp!? argh crap! and michelle is so pre-occupied wif other stuff, rather than us! she rather spend her time wif other students than US u noe! wad f-up and bullshit man!
June Hols are approaching and im so not looking forward to it. Tons of undone shit to do for my fyp and stuff and my formal presentation alrdy set on 16th July. and juz so coincidental, its being set 2 days b4 my bday. -smirk- and sch reopen the first day for me is proteomics test! wads more f-up than life in year 3? im so not happy nw!
God pls help me!! T_T
Things to find tis week:
1) Literature reviews for surveys done in the past
2) Data analysis and collation
Thnx melvin wif the stuff u offer me juz nw. i've got some idea of how to go abt searching for my resources nw. =)
