Monday, January 10, 2005
11:06 AM
Im feeling sad and jaded. i dunno why. it seems to be coming back. prolly tis is due to my pms season or it could be me having hormones imbalance. =/ i dont see any light or guidance now. nobody seems to care. is tht whats life is all abt? seen josh's blog recently and frm wad he wrote on his blog, i can really relate to it now. perhaps, thts life huh? speaking of josh, i haven been saying hi to him in sch even tho hes juz walking rite infront of me and perhaps waiting for me to say hi..but i didnt really take notice tht hes infront of me until he past me by. its alrdy the 2nd time or even the 3rd time. =/ think i need a pair of specks now huh?.
That person has not been calling the past 3 daes..i haf no idea wad hes doin. prolly hes busy? ah well..i shld say tis is gonna be the 4th day coz im not supposed to talk on the phone every mondays. nvm.. anyway i feel like everythings so numb to me now. tryin to put a facade infront of ppl..try not to let others noe tht im unhappy, try to smile and laugh things off wif my friens like as if nth happened. apparently some ppl who noes tht im upset abt some stuff have fcuking low EQ! thts the prob wif ppl! they NOE tht ure friggin upset abt sth and YET they haf such LOW EQ! tht they hafta tell u tht they are like so damn happy on tht day. do u see the light here? some ppl juz dont friggin understand tis simple logic here. why cant they juz shuddup and leave ppl alone! i need someone to cheer me up but not in tis kind of manner. its not like they dunno im upset over sth. THEY FRIGGIN NOE! i am getting tired. here i am, tryin to master the art of the 'boh chap' (dont care) attitude.
Got another f-up test tmr. heard tht the pharmaco test is gonna be a tough one. damnit man. im so gonna wish everyone whos takin the test tmr the best of luck. hafta to by hook or by crook get all the facts all store inside our heads. well so far, 3/4 of of the studying is done. am gonna finished my last disc of 'white chicks' by today as well.
P/S: i wont be replyin smses for today, so dont waste ur time msg-ing me or call me on my hp. coz most prolly i cant really be bothered to reply. thnx!
