Thursday, February 10, 2005
11:08 PM
10th Feb 2005 Thurs
Im missing him. i tot the idea of keeping myself all occupied wif stuff wld actually stop myself frm thinkin abt him. i mean not stop, juz lessen it. i was wrong, i realized im living in a world of self denial. noone believe me. i can act like nth happened frm the outside, but in actual fact it isnt like tht. I've been thinkin abt us..us as in him and me. too many stuff happened b4, im accepting the fact tht hes busy. yes he is. i hafta be understanding. but how long can all these last? im not even updated wif his life nw. wad a screwed gf i am ritee? yes i am. juz shut ur mouth and say yes. i cant get things right, wonder whens the next time i'll ever get things right. the tot of getting a sim card is actually to keep in touch wif him(i admit tis is my first piority)so tht he dont hafta spend time calling, mayb he can juz sms or sth. but now it seems like getting a phone serves less purpose now. wads technology for man? anyway i'll still be waiting for his call..juz a simple one like wad he did on chinese new yr eve will do. i juz hope he rmbs me thts all.
I dunno whether hes gonna read my blog at the end of the day, prolly not..coz wads so nice to see on blog anyway ritee?
Ah well..one day i shld get one personal blog absolutely for MYSELF only..bah..tht prolly gonna take me ages to make one. hahas..
Im gonna be oright. I juz miss him.
