Monday, March 14, 2005
1:33 PM
"u get hurt once, hurt twice and its gone" (quoted frm tiff's blog) i guess the only frien who can really understand me now is her bcoz we are both under the same boat. well cheer up frien! Tis is for him...
By the time u read tis, u shld prolly noe where exactly we are heading towards. things wld nv be the same after tis. im serious tis time and im sure tis wld be the last time, last entry im gonna write abt us. sorry i couldnt bring myself to talk to ya so i shall blog it here to let ya see..hopefully u'll see it...
Some stuff had got me thinking all these while and i've finally figured out some of the ans myself.
I think i dunno wad ure thinking anymore and neither do u noe wad im thinkin now. i kept wanting to revive tis relationship and i've told u im willing to try no matter wad but wad is exactly stopping ya? dont tell me u nv tot of breaking up, ask urself..its abt telling the truth now. i noe breakin up was alrdy on ur mind ever since the begining of the yr but wads the reason behind it? was it juz bcoz we are drifting apart? or was it bcoz i was alrdy insignificant to u? why do tis to me when it cld haf been avoided? i feel like u've changed. u wont let tis kind of thing to happen in the past, well at least u'll try but wad now? u dont even update me wif how busy u were. mayb i shldnt guess further the ans to all these qns, its preety obvious why. im jaded.
But i dont blame u bcoz i understand confusion and in circumstances like tis. no point holding on to a relationship when its alrdy one-sided and no point staying wif me coz u think theres a need for u to. i decided to leave u alone and hopefully i wont be ur burden anymore. thnx for all the memories. hereby, i wish u all the best(biomed isnt so hard for u to achieve, u dont really need me wif ya)..tmr's ur bday, sorry if i din wish u last yr, hope its not too late to wish u tis yr. happy birthday. lastly, goodbye to u.
P/s: U wont be hearing frm me the next couple of months or so juz to prevent awkward moments, i cant heal as fast as hw u think i shld. if possible, u can delete all the no. i had wif ya. Forgive and Forget me. u'll find someone else whom u really love and love u in return.
Tis is our one last..
**nothing in this world is forever**
Listening: Ryan Cabrera - On The Way Down
