Wednesday, April 12, 2006
10:18 PM
ADMIN sucks!!i dunno why im beginning to hate my work now so much!?
i cant stop thinkin abt hw i shld cope wif tht.
the amount of work i haf to and need to do.
the thought of it juz freaks me out to bits and pieces! rahhh!!
not forgetting im not a very admin person. and definitely not a talent in doin business.
fuck admin work and give me a life pls!
well now,
should i be quitting and find a job soon tht reallie fits in my discipline of study?
i miss all the things i studied. pharm science, drug discovery, pharm therapy, clinical trial.
in fact i lost touch wif some of them practically. i miss them so so much.
thts wad i wanted to do after i graduate but wht happened now?
yes, i noe ima science freak.
i realized tht wad im doin now..the admin and everything is only 5% related to wad i studied in sch. damnit, why the hell do i hafta to put a front on others!? why do i hafta specialized pharmaceutical science track in poly?? wht happened to all my beliefs, my dreams?? believing myself to become a pharmacist assistant/technician...where has everything gone to? fallen into pieces? blame me for being TOO anxious abt getting a job rite at the beginning. it was a mistake rite frm the start. why haf i becoming so materialistic? money come first? if it is, then i noe i shld be happy now. BUT....the fact is,
im NOT happy at all.
dilemma.
i reallie need to learn how to pick up the pieces myself.
