Wednesday, December 15, 2004
9:39 PM
I shldnt be bloggin now, but seems like i got too much things right now in my head, i've decided to release dem all. well. first thing first, my sis bot a dumbbell yesterday. well, its a gd thing coz i get to train up my arms and get tone up, then i'll look better wif sleeveless and all. but i din really expect her to buy tht in the first place.
Well. he called, so not expecting his call todae..he said hes using his dad's phone. Yeps! i think i went overboard juz now and i think i really hurt him. really felt bad and stuff. but then again, my intention was juz to listen to wad he has to say and not others telling me sth and i believe tht kind of thing. i knoe whatever things i said now, he thinks im contradicting myself. well..i've really got nth to say. mayb im bad at words. the prob here is i dont understand why he thinks tht i chose to believe some other guy rather than believing him..when im ready to listen to him. if i believe some other guy and not him, do u think i still wan to find out the truth frm him? i wouldnt hav rite?..but in fact i still bother to find out coz i care, but well..things are alrdy screwed. mayb saying all these things wont even help now anymore. im sad n depressed.
**how will my life be like without him? so empty**
