Tuesday, January 04, 2005
1:29 AM
Had my test...very impt test for me coz i cant afford to juz get a passing grade like the previous test. tough competition tis time round! argh. damnit man..first thing to score well in rp's test: concentrate and read qn b4 the tests and make sure tht the facts are well driven inside the head, NO DAYDREAMING during the test..cant afford to. how shit was tht? and test happens to start early in the morning and yet gave us only 30 mins to finish like 5 MCQs and 3 essays...thts crapz! the first 5 mins of the test, i was really panick-stricken coz im still in my concussed state, brain not fully processed. but for the sake of my grades, sheeshh..and so much for ppl in believing in me..i hafta do it. xy hafta to stay focused! i muz! then dunno wht happened to me then, i started concentrating on doin the qns. yeah tho the MCQs seems tricky, but the essays wont tht difficult..shld be able to get better grade tis time round. i hope so. *prays hard*
I wanna thank a special someone who juz got back frm overseas..The One and Only tht im missing right now. thankew for being so understanding and willing to give me tis month's time to concentrate on my studies. I really feel so hurt when i hafta tell him the one month thingy and at the same time im deeply-touched by him, he agreed to give me the time to study. aww..tis month is really a dreadful month for me. i hate it. =( i hate it when i cant talk to him. im being such a crybaby nowadays and i hate it. im breakin apart :'(
U asked me to block u away frm my mind, i've tried...but i simply cant. i cant do it and i dowan to. sorry. dont make me do tis. Thnx for calling last nite to say 'Gd Luck for my papers'..im touched but the only thing i can say its only a thankew. i feel so dumb. i wanna tell u hw much i wanna talk to u but i cant, hafta go study. ugh! im now only hoping for the days tht i can talk to u again. damn i feel so retarded. *sigh* im not lookin forward to mondays and wednesdays anymore.
Iylia - sorry for buggin u last nite. i noe i kept mentioning his name to u last nite..ahh..i juz cant help it ok! i juz cant get him out of my mind. freakos..help! call 995..=X ahahas. and yeah u also better study hard too..u better! =P i'll try to help ur chem..ahahas ^^ I TRY! =P
**i miss brandon**
Yellowcard - Only One
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reasonI feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only oneI let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only oneI let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
