Saturday, June 21, 2008
6:38 PM
Im actually in a daze right now due to juz waking up frm my afternoon nap. I really need sth to do now! keeps me frm thinking abt stupid things. maybe i'll go think of the FAQ's to ask PBS academy when i go down next week. wanted to go down tdy but yet to think of any qns to ask. i soo wanna study, at least thts the thing tht can keep me busy. i think after so many things happening ard me, its good i shld bury myself wif work and books. of coz hanging out wif frens while i can. Met up wif Steph last evening. We had some things in common. Its like we are undergoing the same emo issue, and getting better wif our own lives at the same time together. Most of the updates were frm her and i think its juz me, i do care for my gdfrens alot. Hope she will be totally okay soon =)
I dunno what happened to us. Suddenly he told me hes feeling uncomfy wif me. If anyone asked me, yes, im feeling confused and at a loss now. I wish i know the reason why coz i've absolutely no problem wif him now. I dont even know why he didnt come to work tdy. Its like we are online now, but we are not talking. I know if i were to make the first move talking, it might juz worsen everything like how it always do. Somehow in other words, i cant pacify a guy in my own way and no use embarassing myself infront of the guys like what my sis always tries to tell me. All i can do now is to leave him alone and wait for him to talk to me.
Hopefully i can join some of my colleagues for Lee Koon's bday party tmr at her hse coz the damn hives on my hand and body is irritating me to core and reason being its obviously ugly and itchy. when i try to scratch it gets worse. SHIT lah! =.="
This week has been fine until tdy. Sometimes i wonder why im so irrational when comes to certain issues. i've lost like 1-2kg in the past 3 weeks and my sis came up and said my collar bone looks obvious now, making me look frail. How i wish i can control the place where im losing my fats. Been thinking too much already and its getting better now. I juz need my daily dosing of chocolates and im heading for it later, and some biscuits too. Need to produce some endorphines in me, really.
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